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okay.
I think i've mia-ed for too long, eh?
haha its time to come back and blog some understandable posts.

i need someone to go out with me tmr! its the only free day of my week :D




I MISSYA! COME BACK SOON! love! x2



okay i know this is a little late,
but



to 2.1, thank you for the memories. Sitted in a vague circle, blantly talking about our fond childhood shows, games, days.. and laughing over the silliest and simplest things - i realised tht i didn't need the high life to be happy, and bigger isn't always better, and sometimes only friends can make us the happiest.

you guys have shown me the kind of love i won't easily forget, here's to 2 years, and the last time we'll be this way.



I'm sorry i can't steal you, i'm sorry i can't stay.
So i'll put bandaids on your knees, and watch you fly away.






I look into the sky
And I have to ask why
She'd go and leave me
Oh, why do feelings have to die
Is it all just a sign
Of what its meant to be

Well I'm just too excited
The end of this can be sighted
She's overdue for a breakout
I better go, she blows my brains out
Silence is a scary sound


I'm torn up inside
There's a hole on my mind
When you're not next to me
So I hope you choke and die
On every single lie
Let you feel what you've done to me

come back now!

okay.
I think i've mia-ed for too long, eh?
haha its time to come back and blog some understandable posts.

i need someone to go out with me tmr! its the only free day of my week :D




I MISSYA! COME BACK SOON! love! x2



okay i know this is a little late,
but



to 2.1, thank you for the memories. Sitted in a vague circle, blantly talking about our fond childhood shows, games, days.. and laughing over the silliest and simplest things - i realised tht i didn't need the high life to be happy, and bigger isn't always better, and sometimes only friends can make us the happiest.

you guys have shown me the kind of love i won't easily forget, here's to 2 years, and the last time we'll be this way.



I'm sorry i can't steal you, i'm sorry i can't stay.
So i'll put bandaids on your knees, and watch you fly away.






I look into the sky
And I have to ask why
She'd go and leave me
Oh, why do feelings have to die
Is it all just a sign
Of what its meant to be

Well I'm just too excited
The end of this can be sighted
She's overdue for a breakout
I better go, she blows my brains out
Silence is a scary sound


I'm torn up inside
There's a hole on my mind
When you're not next to me
So I hope you choke and die
On every single lie
Let you feel what you've done to me

come back now!

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off to V, back soon (:



xoxo

off to V, back soon (:



xoxo

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Today is so hard i can just bloody kill myself.
oh no wait, i can't kill myself cuz i'll go to hell

AND THAT SUCKS



What's the point of living anyway,
love, laughter, pink,

they all just fade away after time.
nothing lasts forever and that really sucks.


I don't even know how i'm still gonna carry on,
and i don't even think i can.

Maybe i should just give up.
Eternal hell, doesn't seem so bad compared to my

current state of life, no?




sometimes goodbye
though it hurts, in your heart,
is the only way for destiny





gah fuck this.
i'll miss everything,

i'll fucking miss everything.
and i love you, really, i do.


b()f()f()?







I never could have seen this far
I never could have seen this coming
It seems like my world is falling apart
Yeah

Why is everything so hard
I don’t think that I can deal with the things you said
They just won’t go away

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces But to you
this means nothing, Nothing at all

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through
Yeah

I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can’t let go
I just can’t find my way
Yeah
Without you I just can’t find my way

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces But to you
this means nothing, Nothing at all

I don’t know what I should do now
I don’t know where I should go
I’m still here waiting for you
I’m lost when your not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can’t let you go
Yeah Yeah

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces But to you
this means nothing, Nothing at all

You feel nothing
Nothing at all
Nothing at all

Today is so hard i can just bloody kill myself.
oh no wait, i can't kill myself cuz i'll go to hell

AND THAT SUCKS



What's the point of living anyway,
love, laughter, pink,

they all just fade away after time.
nothing lasts forever and that really sucks.


I don't even know how i'm still gonna carry on,
and i don't even think i can.

Maybe i should just give up.
Eternal hell, doesn't seem so bad compared to my

current state of life, no?




sometimes goodbye
though it hurts, in your heart,
is the only way for destiny





gah fuck this.
i'll miss everything,

i'll fucking miss everything.
and i love you, really, i do.


b()f()f()?







I never could have seen this far
I never could have seen this coming
It seems like my world is falling apart
Yeah

Why is everything so hard
I don’t think that I can deal with the things you said
They just won’t go away

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces But to you
this means nothing, Nothing at all

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through
Yeah

I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can’t let go
I just can’t find my way
Yeah
Without you I just can’t find my way

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces But to you
this means nothing, Nothing at all

I don’t know what I should do now
I don’t know where I should go
I’m still here waiting for you
I’m lost when your not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can’t let you go
Yeah Yeah

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces But to you
this means nothing, Nothing at all

You feel nothing
Nothing at all
Nothing at all

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So clear silver moon
Wind moves through my room
Memories of Saturday (memories of Saturday)
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when she said
She's going away
Going away
I need to know this

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him
Goodnight, tonight
I'm blinded
I try, I tried
Is this the way ,
Is this the way it ends

Dark echo's inside
Can't sleep through the night
All the words I heard you say (memories of Saturday)
Fade of the yard
Lay under the stars
Stuck down in this place
Hands on my face
I need to know this

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him
Goodnight, tonight
I'm blinded
I try, I tried
Is this the way ,
Is this the way it ends

Get up chase the vision
Stand up watch the world go by
Aha Aha
You found
Feel the reason
Black clouds are filling up my sky
Aha Aha

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him
Goodnight, tonight
I'm blinded
I try, I tried
Is this the way ,
Is this the way it ends

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him
Goodnight, tonight
I'm blinded
I try, I tried
Is this the way ,
Is this the way it ends








2 more days baby,
just 2 more days

So clear silver moon
Wind moves through my room
Memories of Saturday (memories of Saturday)
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when she said
She's going away
Going away
I need to know this

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him
Goodnight, tonight
I'm blinded
I try, I tried
Is this the way ,
Is this the way it ends

Dark echo's inside
Can't sleep through the night
All the words I heard you say (memories of Saturday)
Fade of the yard
Lay under the stars
Stuck down in this place
Hands on my face
I need to know this

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him
Goodnight, tonight
I'm blinded
I try, I tried
Is this the way ,
Is this the way it ends

Get up chase the vision
Stand up watch the world go by
Aha Aha
You found
Feel the reason
Black clouds are filling up my sky
Aha Aha

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him
Goodnight, tonight
I'm blinded
I try, I tried
Is this the way ,
Is this the way it ends

Am I the fool
Am I a victim
I'd rather know
You'd rather kiss him
Goodnight, tonight
I'm blinded
I try, I tried
Is this the way ,
Is this the way it ends








2 more days baby,
just 2 more days

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You're the words that come out easy,
And I am speechless at best.
Your star it seems to shine above the rest.
You're the face before the cameras,
The smile i'd like to earn.

The closest thing to perfect,
In a hollywood to burn.
You're the beauty that is deeper,
Than eyes can merely see.
The closest thing to perfect.
But the farthest thing from me.


I'd love to be,
The shoulder that you cry on.
I'd love to be,
The friend you call when things are great.


You're the dream that hasn't ended,
And I'm still anxious for rest.
Your words they seem to hang above my head.
You're the bud before the flower,
Unfurls into full bloom.

Captivating beauty,
But it maybe all too soon.
You're the song that writes a story,
But leaves a lot to read.
The closest thing to perfect,
But the farthest thing from me.



And like I really deserve a chance to,
Sit across the table,
And tell you that I think you're wonderful.
And I think you're something special.
I guess this is my only chance to,
Say I wish I knew you,
Because I'm sure you're wonderful,
If I'd get to know you

You're the words that come out easy,
And I am speechless at best.
Your star it seems to shine above the rest.
You're the face before the cameras,
The smile i'd like to earn.

The closest thing to perfect,
In a hollywood to burn.
You're the beauty that is deeper,
Than eyes can merely see.
The closest thing to perfect.
But the farthest thing from me.


I'd love to be,
The shoulder that you cry on.
I'd love to be,
The friend you call when things are great.


You're the dream that hasn't ended,
And I'm still anxious for rest.
Your words they seem to hang above my head.
You're the bud before the flower,
Unfurls into full bloom.

Captivating beauty,
But it maybe all too soon.
You're the song that writes a story,
But leaves a lot to read.
The closest thing to perfect,
But the farthest thing from me.



And like I really deserve a chance to,
Sit across the table,
And tell you that I think you're wonderful.
And I think you're something special.
I guess this is my only chance to,
Say I wish I knew you,
Because I'm sure you're wonderful,
If I'd get to know you

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My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

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When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

You roll out of bed and down on your knees
and for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here
Is she standing in my room?

No, she's not
cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part

She takes you in with her crying eyes
then all at once you have to say goodbye
wondering could you stay my love


will you wake up by my side?

No, she can't
cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my, roses in my hands?
Would you get them if I did?

No, you won't
Cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
the waking up is the hardest part

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

You roll out of bed and down on your knees
and for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here
Is she standing in my room?

No, she's not
cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part

She takes you in with her crying eyes
then all at once you have to say goodbye
wondering could you stay my love


will you wake up by my side?

No, she can't
cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do I have to fall asleep with roses in my, roses in my hands?
Would you get them if I did?

No, you won't
Cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
the waking up is the hardest part

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Dear you.

I hope you still know that you mean the universe and the stars to me, you mean the sun and the moon and the colour pink to me. and i would never even dream of intentionally hurting you in anyway.

i still love you, and please don't go.
i know i don't really show much love and i don't say loveydovey stuff. but its a whole different story in my heart and head (especially).

so,

would you stay?







Then came the darkness, the hurt, the hatred,
i've never really been told such harsh words directly,

and for one awful moment,
i realised that could lose a friend if i didn't do anything.

Dear you.

I hope you still know that you mean the universe and the stars to me, you mean the sun and the moon and the colour pink to me. and i would never even dream of intentionally hurting you in anyway.

i still love you, and please don't go.
i know i don't really show much love and i don't say loveydovey stuff. but its a whole different story in my heart and head (especially).

so,

would you stay?







Then came the darkness, the hurt, the hatred,
i've never really been told such harsh words directly,

and for one awful moment,
i realised that could lose a friend if i didn't do anything.

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Dear Dayna,

as im typing this, my dad is coming down the stairs rushing me to get outta the house. see, i'm going to your birthday party now! i just wanna say, i'll miss you so frigging much and please don't go? :( and i'll forever remember all our handbell experiences, loooooong smes, and bitching at ALOT of ppl (hint hint) :D i love you dearly, you're one of a kind.

don't go, please?

cya dayna, in like, 15 mins time :)

i love you! and i'll be continuing this when i get back from your party.




muah!
hohum,
bly <3

Dear Dayna,

as im typing this, my dad is coming down the stairs rushing me to get outta the house. see, i'm going to your birthday party now! i just wanna say, i'll miss you so frigging much and please don't go? :( and i'll forever remember all our handbell experiences, loooooong smes, and bitching at ALOT of ppl (hint hint) :D i love you dearly, you're one of a kind.

don't go, please?

cya dayna, in like, 15 mins time :)

i love you! and i'll be continuing this when i get back from your party.




muah!
hohum,
bly <3

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Was it you who spoke the words that,
things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing


The love that i love

blah.

has something changed?

yes? no? i don't know?

i can feel it, i think you can too,

what's changed?

Remember we'd be up all night
Talking 'til the morning light, yeah
Like the way it used to be
Those simple days
Just you and me, mmmm

I see ya baby I know
What's on your mind
'Cause you look like you've
Got something to say

I may not say those words anymore
But maybe it just ain't my way

You ask me do I love you but...

Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you

Do you remember
My first steps on the moon

Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

will i ever, ever, ever get sick of friends?

haha i don't think so.
its bloody nice to watch(:



you ask me if i love you but

Was it you who spoke the words that,
things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing


The love that i love

blah.

has something changed?

yes? no? i don't know?

i can feel it, i think you can too,

what's changed?

Remember we'd be up all night
Talking 'til the morning light, yeah
Like the way it used to be
Those simple days
Just you and me, mmmm

I see ya baby I know
What's on your mind
'Cause you look like you've
Got something to say

I may not say those words anymore
But maybe it just ain't my way

You ask me do I love you but...

Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you

Do you remember
My first steps on the moon

Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

will i ever, ever, ever get sick of friends?

haha i don't think so.
its bloody nice to watch(:



you ask me if i love you but

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haha today was relatively fun!
i got 94 on my bowling game :D

hahaaa :D




after long hours spent with texts, a girl needs to pamper herself, like watching non-stop friends on youtube with a princessy mug of cocoa, curled up in her teddybear quilt, watching the stars at as she waits for the drama to start.

i've been experiencing vertigo,
i wonder why?

:




ho hum (:

haha today was relatively fun!
i got 94 on my bowling game :D

hahaaa :D




after long hours spent with texts, a girl needs to pamper herself, like watching non-stop friends on youtube with a princessy mug of cocoa, curled up in her teddybear quilt, watching the stars at as she waits for the drama to start.

i've been experiencing vertigo,
i wonder why?

:




ho hum (:

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Lie to me, lie to me, lie to me, lie to me, Lie to me, lie to me, lie to me, lie to me



I just wanna be numb
I don't wanna feel a thing
I don't want reality
Actually, reality stinks


How about we just pretend
That your cellphone didn't even ring
And that I wasn't on the other side of the door
Listening to everything, tell me another lie



I don't wanna know what I know to be true
What I need you to do, tell me another lie

I don't wanna know what I know to be true
What I need you to do, tell me another lie
I don't wanna know what I know to be true
What I need you to do, tell me another lie
I don't wanna know what I know to be true
What I need you to do, tell me another lie

lie to me, lie to me, lie to me, lie

blah

Lie to me, lie to me, lie to me, lie to me, Lie to me, lie to me, lie to me, lie to me



I just wanna be numb
I don't wanna feel a thing
I don't want reality
Actually, reality stinks


How about we just pretend
That your cellphone didn't even ring
And that I wasn't on the other side of the door
Listening to everything, tell me another lie



I don't wanna know what I know to be true
What I need you to do, tell me another lie

I don't wanna know what I know to be true
What I need you to do, tell me another lie
I don't wanna know what I know to be true
What I need you to do, tell me another lie
I don't wanna know what I know to be true
What I need you to do, tell me another lie

lie to me, lie to me, lie to me, lie

blah

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um. you 2, are.. perfect, for.. each other.




i guess.
i feel like crying.
so what.. am i?

um. you 2, are.. perfect, for.. each other.




i guess.
i feel like crying.
so what.. am i?

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Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much I've missed you

Yes, I've been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go?
Mamma mia, now I really know,
My my, I could never let you go




i didn't know waiting could be this hard,
this long..
its like time hasn't even passed at all,
i feel so irritated.
can we just fast foward to ()


gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
:(

Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much I've missed you

Yes, I've been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go?
Mamma mia, now I really know,
My my, I could never let you go




i didn't know waiting could be this hard,
this long..
its like time hasn't even passed at all,
i feel so irritated.
can we just fast foward to ()


gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
:(