Be the one + 17 forever

I don't wanna be the one,
only overjoyed.


Like wth la, ting tings are stuck in my head hahaha.
Tmr is 2009, sucks tht time passes so fast.
I can only vaguely remember what happened in 2008.
Mostly laughter, tears and friendships though,
AND, i'm beginning to realise tht i've lost someone,

someone whom i've always held close to my heart.


And I'm like, wth(!?), screw you period.
Seriously kay. Its like what- how many years alr?
And then you suddenly just leave me.
So, my reation would obviously be my reaction right.


Okay nvm whatever. I have severed all ties with you that have something to do with being bestfriends/closefriends or wtv.




We're one mistake from being together,
but lets not ask why its not right

Be the one + 17 forever

I don't wanna be the one,
only overjoyed.


Like wth la, ting tings are stuck in my head hahaha.
Tmr is 2009, sucks tht time passes so fast.
I can only vaguely remember what happened in 2008.
Mostly laughter, tears and friendships though,
AND, i'm beginning to realise tht i've lost someone,

someone whom i've always held close to my heart.


And I'm like, wth(!?), screw you period.
Seriously kay. Its like what- how many years alr?
And then you suddenly just leave me.
So, my reation would obviously be my reaction right.


Okay nvm whatever. I have severed all ties with you that have something to do with being bestfriends/closefriends or wtv.




We're one mistake from being together,
but lets not ask why its not right

camp

Okay nvm i couldn't sleep. Camp was great, yes it was HAHA. And yeah obviously i started out damn negatively la but anyway God blessed me with sue anne and dayna and a damn funny and weird group so i was relatively enjoying myself :D ahah and the last worship was great. +++ I met new friends! yayyay! Haha kay.

Oh, did i mention i love my iTouch? I LOVE MY ITOUCH :D not as much as i love pink, period. But anyway hahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahaha.

My speech is incoherent alr. And i'm coughing like mad. I'm gonna kill N tmr.




oooooooooooo bel

camp

Okay nvm i couldn't sleep. Camp was great, yes it was HAHA. And yeah obviously i started out damn negatively la but anyway God blessed me with sue anne and dayna and a damn funny and weird group so i was relatively enjoying myself :D ahah and the last worship was great. +++ I met new friends! yayyay! Haha kay.

Oh, did i mention i love my iTouch? I LOVE MY ITOUCH :D not as much as i love pink, period. But anyway hahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahaha.

My speech is incoherent alr. And i'm coughing like mad. I'm gonna kill N tmr.




oooooooooooo bel

Camp + shag

OMG KAY OYS OYS OYS I FEEL SO SHAG, SO STONE. And i really need to sleep. Haha. Anyway, camp was good.. my group was awesome, and the games were fun. But there was something missing though. Like, some big part of my church life wasn't there. And i felt so lonely looking around people i didn't know v.well. It was sad though, srsly.

Anyway, i shall tell you more like tmr. Cuz i'm gonna bathe, eat and sleep. Goodnight! :D




How can i keep from singing your praise,
How can i ever say enough,
How amazing is your love



xoxooooxx, bel

Camp + shag

OMG KAY OYS OYS OYS I FEEL SO SHAG, SO STONE. And i really need to sleep. Haha. Anyway, camp was good.. my group was awesome, and the games were fun. But there was something missing though. Like, some big part of my church life wasn't there. And i felt so lonely looking around people i didn't know v.well. It was sad though, srsly.

Anyway, i shall tell you more like tmr. Cuz i'm gonna bathe, eat and sleep. Goodnight! :D




How can i keep from singing your praise,
How can i ever say enough,
How amazing is your love



xoxooooxx, bel

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oys k. Someone grab me and tie me to a tree.




paramore's decode makes so much sense now


It's just sad. That i had to find out from my own ()
You'd tell him and not me?
Yeah you'd think I'd probably be laughing my ass of at the foolishness of everything.
It actually kinda hurts you know.

oys k. Someone grab me and tie me to a tree.




paramore's decode makes so much sense now


It's just sad. That i had to find out from my own ()
You'd tell him and not me?
Yeah you'd think I'd probably be laughing my ass of at the foolishness of everything.
It actually kinda hurts you know.

Camp

I'm heading to camp tmr (Unfortunately)
And like, for the first time, Mich is not going to be there (!@#$)

And and and, tht thought really fills me up with dread.


I'm gonna like try touching my turtle and then eating a cookie with the same pair of hands (like i have any other) and then start convulsing and throwing up. Yeah.

Or you can gimme a less disgusting way to pon camp, thank you v.v.v.much.
(But i rather doubt it)


+I haven't packed for camp and it's tmr. damn.


:(


Anw, its like 9 now and i'm gonna catch a show with my family at cathay. I think I'll post at 1am and tell you how's the packing going. (That is, if my falling-sick-schemes fail or smth)



CUMMON, WORK YOUR BRAINS AND TELL ME HOW TO FALL SICK.



no xo's today :( Bel feels dreadful :(

Camp

I'm heading to camp tmr (Unfortunately)
And like, for the first time, Mich is not going to be there (!@#$)

And and and, tht thought really fills me up with dread.


I'm gonna like try touching my turtle and then eating a cookie with the same pair of hands (like i have any other) and then start convulsing and throwing up. Yeah.

Or you can gimme a less disgusting way to pon camp, thank you v.v.v.much.
(But i rather doubt it)


+I haven't packed for camp and it's tmr. damn.


:(


Anw, its like 9 now and i'm gonna catch a show with my family at cathay. I think I'll post at 1am and tell you how's the packing going. (That is, if my falling-sick-schemes fail or smth)



CUMMON, WORK YOUR BRAINS AND TELL ME HOW TO FALL SICK.



no xo's today :( Bel feels dreadful :(

CHRISTMAS (duhh)

MERRY PINK CHRISTMAS (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) :D :D :D




LOTS of LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE from BEL!!
yay!!


+++ i'm so glad i spent my first few moments of Christmas with the people who will be there with/for me for the rest of my v.v.v.long life(!), to come :) :) :)

HAHAHA and and and i realised i'm getting really nice stuff this christmas! yay even the small ones do count!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha and i got really high just now. i was just shouting "LETS PLAY STRIP POKER, LETS PLAY STRIP 21" to my v.bemused 12 year old cousin.


Have you ever seen me high? Its some sight HAHAHAHA. Nobody has i think. Only my cousins. I know some ppl have heard me get high but hahaha that's not the full parcel hon :D

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PINK CHRISTMAS IS A TIME FOR EXCLAMATION MARKS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!







notice how i've used so many (!) in this post. I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE CHRISTMAS AND I LOVE GOD. :D !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHA YAY YAY YAY.



okay i'm gonna sleep.
MERRY PINK CHRISTMAS (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)





X!O!X!O! BEL LOVES YOU, HUGS AND KISSES AND ALL

CHRISTMAS (duhh)

MERRY PINK CHRISTMAS (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) :D :D :D




LOTS of LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE from BEL!!
yay!!


+++ i'm so glad i spent my first few moments of Christmas with the people who will be there with/for me for the rest of my v.v.v.long life(!), to come :) :) :)

HAHAHA and and and i realised i'm getting really nice stuff this christmas! yay even the small ones do count!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha and i got really high just now. i was just shouting "LETS PLAY STRIP POKER, LETS PLAY STRIP 21" to my v.bemused 12 year old cousin.


Have you ever seen me high? Its some sight HAHAHAHA. Nobody has i think. Only my cousins. I know some ppl have heard me get high but hahaha that's not the full parcel hon :D

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PINK CHRISTMAS IS A TIME FOR EXCLAMATION MARKS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!







notice how i've used so many (!) in this post. I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE CHRISTMAS AND I LOVE GOD. :D !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHA YAY YAY YAY.



okay i'm gonna sleep.
MERRY PINK CHRISTMAS (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)





X!O!X!O! BEL LOVES YOU, HUGS AND KISSES AND ALL

Change

Oh yeah and i almost forgot what i wanted to say- change.


Change has secretly crept up into my life and suprised me at different moments. No, change is not good for me. In fact, change sucks actually. I hate change. Period.

Infact, i hate change so much its like change is in a bubble and there's bullets with 'BEL' on them coming in all directions aiming at the small bubble (that makes a great difference though its small, mind you). And i've got a list of Hokkien curse words lined up waiting for them to be released at change.


Change change change. Why the hell do we need change. Everything is perfect normal/fine until change comes. Okay i'll be fair, change has also led me to some of the best moments in life, change has brought me to the best people in my life that i love, change has its upside too. BUT, i still hate change.


!@#$ change. byebye.

(ps: idk why !@#$ is a link, seriously. Go try typing tht in blogger. It like automatically changes! Cool. SEE I USED THE WORD CHANGE -.-)

Change

Oh yeah and i almost forgot what i wanted to say- change.


Change has secretly crept up into my life and suprised me at different moments. No, change is not good for me. In fact, change sucks actually. I hate change. Period.

Infact, i hate change so much its like change is in a bubble and there's bullets with 'BEL' on them coming in all directions aiming at the small bubble (that makes a great difference though its small, mind you). And i've got a list of Hokkien curse words lined up waiting for them to be released at change.


Change change change. Why the hell do we need change. Everything is perfect normal/fine until change comes. Okay i'll be fair, change has also led me to some of the best moments in life, change has brought me to the best people in my life that i love, change has its upside too. BUT, i still hate change.


!@#$ change. byebye.

(ps: idk why !@#$ is a link, seriously. Go try typing tht in blogger. It like automatically changes! Cool. SEE I USED THE WORD CHANGE -.-)

Daphne loves Derby

Oys kay. I am so gonna get Daphne loves Derby album. Or someone just buy it for me :(
They are like the best music to hear when you're feeling mellow.
No, they are the best. period.

:D


haha anyway tmr/today (it's 12+ now) is Christmas Eve. Wth la Christmas is coming so fast. Then comes Christmas then comes school. I will not talk about school. It ruins my mood. period.


I find that i like using period. Its nice. period. :D




Don't come any closer, don't tell me its over,
don't kiss me goodbye




Merry Christmas EVE :D hahaha i'll be back on Christmas :D
lylyly(!!!!!!!!!!)




xxoxxoxxxoox

Daphne loves Derby

Oys kay. I am so gonna get Daphne loves Derby album. Or someone just buy it for me :(
They are like the best music to hear when you're feeling mellow.
No, they are the best. period.

:D


haha anyway tmr/today (it's 12+ now) is Christmas Eve. Wth la Christmas is coming so fast. Then comes Christmas then comes school. I will not talk about school. It ruins my mood. period.


I find that i like using period. Its nice. period. :D




Don't come any closer, don't tell me its over,
don't kiss me goodbye




Merry Christmas EVE :D hahaha i'll be back on Christmas :D
lylyly(!!!!!!!!!!)




xxoxxoxxxoox

New Year's Resolution

Okay like, i have this NY's resolution, which i haven't told anyone. Okay actually i have whatever. () and () don't tell anyone what's my NY resolution kay. zzz it just kinda slipped outta my mouth like 'oh i have this NY resolution blahblahblah'. Kay anyway, i shall not digress and continue. And then right, this NYR is like close to impossible la. Urgh i just screwed myself for making tht NYR. Yeah, i'm like that- stupid.

New Year's Resolution

Okay like, i have this NY's resolution, which i haven't told anyone. Okay actually i have whatever. () and () don't tell anyone what's my NY resolution kay. zzz it just kinda slipped outta my mouth like 'oh i have this NY resolution blahblahblah'. Kay anyway, i shall not digress and continue. And then right, this NYR is like close to impossible la. Urgh i just screwed myself for making tht NYR. Yeah, i'm like that- stupid.

Homework

Okay, i found my hw file like under piles of clothes (i don't even know what it was doing in my cupboard but oh shit)- and i'm like shit shit shit shit shit now. Homework is just boring crap okay. It spoils my mood, my day, it spoils everything. OYS KAY. how i hate this rant. Okay whatever- we'll see if i can finish it by tmr, we'll see.

Homework

Okay, i found my hw file like under piles of clothes (i don't even know what it was doing in my cupboard but oh shit)- and i'm like shit shit shit shit shit now. Homework is just boring crap okay. It spoils my mood, my day, it spoils everything. OYS KAY. how i hate this rant. Okay whatever- we'll see if i can finish it by tmr, we'll see.

William Beckett

WILLIAM BECKETT PUTS THE SEX IN SEXY.

hot hot hot hot hot.

I'm not starstruck- no,

but i'm in love with william beckett. and his songs. and his band.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

William Beckett

WILLIAM BECKETT PUTS THE SEX IN SEXY.

hot hot hot hot hot.

I'm not starstruck- no,

but i'm in love with william beckett. and his songs. and his band.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Summer hair = Forever young

I'LL NEVER LET YOU GO,
DON'T EVER FORGET,
TELL ME YOU REMEMBER, FOREVER YOUNG.

I'LL NEVER LET YOU FALL,
ITS NOT OVER YET,
YOU AND ME FOREVER, FOREVER YOUNG.




the bass is some awesome shit

Summer hair = Forever young

I'LL NEVER LET YOU GO,
DON'T EVER FORGET,
TELL ME YOU REMEMBER, FOREVER YOUNG.

I'LL NEVER LET YOU FALL,
ITS NOT OVER YET,
YOU AND ME FOREVER, FOREVER YOUNG.




the bass is some awesome shit

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I can't be bothered anymore.

I can't be bothered anymore.

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i am displaced

i am displaced

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Like i've said, i have literally no intention of knowing what you're up to this time, and seriously, i actually have no intention whatsoever to know you anymore. But whatever- do what you like, when you like it. I can't say i don't care cuz' (duh) i still do, but prob not so much. Close to not at all kay. So back off- and leave me alone. I'm pissed and you're it.

Like i've said, i have literally no intention of knowing what you're up to this time, and seriously, i actually have no intention whatsoever to know you anymore. But whatever- do what you like, when you like it. I can't say i don't care cuz' (duh) i still do, but prob not so much. Close to not at all kay. So back off- and leave me alone. I'm pissed and you're it.

Curls

And who said curls spoil your hair (!?)
Merry Christmas loves!

From a very happy and satisfied bel,
WITH CURLS(!!) oh yeahhhhh.




oxxxx

Curls

And who said curls spoil your hair (!?)
Merry Christmas loves!

From a very happy and satisfied bel,
WITH CURLS(!!) oh yeahhhhh.




oxxxx

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Sometimes, i just don't get some stuff- why things happen.. etc.
And maybe, just maybe (with a capital M), i still like you (M.M.M)
But it's hard to tell, really.
Apart from everything else in my heart, the only outstanding emotion would be-

A loss of love(?)


Then again, screw me for thinking too much, again.


---------------------------------------------------


On a lighter note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KONG JIA XUAN.
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU :D

AND PLEASE, OYS, TAG MY BLOG (!!)
my tagboard misses you like shit(!!!)


hahaha, anyway thank you for being there for me, when no one else was, thank you for listening to my crap and complains and dealing with my v.v.v. xiao qi-ness, thank you for the locked part of your brain that has private and confidential info tht's from me to you (which you didn't tell anyone so tyvm!) and thank you for bearing with all my teasings and moodswings, and thank you for just being my friend. A close one, at that. And it really means alot, to me. Most trustworthy friend of all time, period. :D WORK HARD NEXT YEAR DUMDUM. HAHAHAHAHA. BEL WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU :D


so happy birthday xuanxuan! (HAHA)



ps: stop having your period everyday la :D






xoxo

Sometimes, i just don't get some stuff- why things happen.. etc.
And maybe, just maybe (with a capital M), i still like you (M.M.M)
But it's hard to tell, really.
Apart from everything else in my heart, the only outstanding emotion would be-

A loss of love(?)


Then again, screw me for thinking too much, again.


---------------------------------------------------


On a lighter note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KONG JIA XUAN.
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU :D

AND PLEASE, OYS, TAG MY BLOG (!!)
my tagboard misses you like shit(!!!)


hahaha, anyway thank you for being there for me, when no one else was, thank you for listening to my crap and complains and dealing with my v.v.v. xiao qi-ness, thank you for the locked part of your brain that has private and confidential info tht's from me to you (which you didn't tell anyone so tyvm!) and thank you for bearing with all my teasings and moodswings, and thank you for just being my friend. A close one, at that. And it really means alot, to me. Most trustworthy friend of all time, period. :D WORK HARD NEXT YEAR DUMDUM. HAHAHAHAHA. BEL WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU :D


so happy birthday xuanxuan! (HAHA)



ps: stop having your period everyday la :D






xoxo

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She's the cutest baby, ever, period.

She's the cutest baby, ever, period.

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pos, shit blogger la. I can't post pics. Too big, apparently. Nvm, we have an alternative :D PHOTOBUCKET :D haha kay lets see

OKAY YOU KNOW WHAT, GO TO HELL PHOTOBUCKET. YOU SUCK EQUALLY AND AS MUCH AS BLOGGER DOES.




BOTH OF YOU INFURIATE ME.




ox for EVERYONE EXCEPT BLOGGER AND PHOTOBUCKET (!@#$)

pos, shit blogger la. I can't post pics. Too big, apparently. Nvm, we have an alternative :D PHOTOBUCKET :D haha kay lets see

OKAY YOU KNOW WHAT, GO TO HELL PHOTOBUCKET. YOU SUCK EQUALLY AND AS MUCH AS BLOGGER DOES.




BOTH OF YOU INFURIATE ME.




ox for EVERYONE EXCEPT BLOGGER AND PHOTOBUCKET (!@#$)

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500th post


I'm starting to feel
All of my bruises imagined are real
And I'll get through each day
I dig through the bad ones
To get to the good ones
Who's keeping score anyway?

And this is my beautiful life
only thing certain is everything changes
The lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life

I talk in my sleep
Thats the one place i know no one can hear me
I tell myself things
Don't walk in the shadows
There's always tomorrow
And I'm right where i wanna be

And this is my beautiful life
only thing's certain is everything changes
The lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing
To be alive

It hurts while it's happening
I wanna feel everything
How can you know till you try?
And this is my beautiful life

500th post


I'm starting to feel
All of my bruises imagined are real
And I'll get through each day
I dig through the bad ones
To get to the good ones
Who's keeping score anyway?

And this is my beautiful life
only thing certain is everything changes
The lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life

I talk in my sleep
Thats the one place i know no one can hear me
I tell myself things
Don't walk in the shadows
There's always tomorrow
And I'm right where i wanna be

And this is my beautiful life
only thing's certain is everything changes
The lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing
To be alive

It hurts while it's happening
I wanna feel everything
How can you know till you try?
And this is my beautiful life

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Haha okay you know what, i love blogging. Hahaha, and screw it if no one reads my blog. I still feel a sense of satisfaction. Or something. Okay whatever. Anyway,


i was feeling really, really, really really, you cannot believe how
d
..o
....w
......n

i felt. Hhaha its 1am now la so don't blame me if i'm lame/incoherent.


WHO ARE YOU TO CARE ANYWAY.


Nvm. I've been getting short outburst of weird emotions lately. Ah my moodswings are coming back HAHA. Anyway, as i was saying,

so in the end i went to listen to the badger song and the banna phone song and the llama song and i started laughing my ass off.


HAVE YOU EVER SEEN A LLAMA KISS A LLAMA ON THE LLAMA



HAHAH

and then there's the OBAMA V. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

HAVE YOU EVER SEEN OBAMA KISS OBAMA ON OBMAMA




oys kay. I laughed until i started crying hysterically. I'm gonna download the songs into my ipod :D


+ idk what i'm doing up so late. Haha btw my posts don't show the time but its 1.18am now. HAHA. Oh and i'm suppose to post like pictures from M'sia but i shall do tht tmr! (or today whichever whatever) haha anyway their damn funny.

and if i'm feeling kind, i'd might actually post up a picture of the face

HAHA. And i know most of you don't know what i'm talking about. ITS OKAY, YOU DON'T HAVE TO KNOW, KPO.


:)



bad bad moodswings. hahahahahaha.
okay. i'm gonna head to bed. HAHA I RYHMED.






oh and guess what, i've decided not to alr.
Cuz it's scary, and embarrassing,
and i haven't sat down and had a

good, hard, long talk with my feelings.

(i've been trying to run away from that for a v.v.v long time)

So forgive me. Ah screw it. You don't even know anyway.






OKAY INCOHERENT BEL.



oooooooooooox bel

Haha okay you know what, i love blogging. Hahaha, and screw it if no one reads my blog. I still feel a sense of satisfaction. Or something. Okay whatever. Anyway,


i was feeling really, really, really really, you cannot believe how
d
..o
....w
......n

i felt. Hhaha its 1am now la so don't blame me if i'm lame/incoherent.


WHO ARE YOU TO CARE ANYWAY.


Nvm. I've been getting short outburst of weird emotions lately. Ah my moodswings are coming back HAHA. Anyway, as i was saying,

so in the end i went to listen to the badger song and the banna phone song and the llama song and i started laughing my ass off.


HAVE YOU EVER SEEN A LLAMA KISS A LLAMA ON THE LLAMA



HAHAH

and then there's the OBAMA V. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

HAVE YOU EVER SEEN OBAMA KISS OBAMA ON OBMAMA




oys kay. I laughed until i started crying hysterically. I'm gonna download the songs into my ipod :D


+ idk what i'm doing up so late. Haha btw my posts don't show the time but its 1.18am now. HAHA. Oh and i'm suppose to post like pictures from M'sia but i shall do tht tmr! (or today whichever whatever) haha anyway their damn funny.

and if i'm feeling kind, i'd might actually post up a picture of the face

HAHA. And i know most of you don't know what i'm talking about. ITS OKAY, YOU DON'T HAVE TO KNOW, KPO.


:)



bad bad moodswings. hahahahahaha.
okay. i'm gonna head to bed. HAHA I RYHMED.






oh and guess what, i've decided not to alr.
Cuz it's scary, and embarrassing,
and i haven't sat down and had a

good, hard, long talk with my feelings.

(i've been trying to run away from that for a v.v.v long time)

So forgive me. Ah screw it. You don't even know anyway.






OKAY INCOHERENT BEL.



oooooooooooox bel

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this holday has been so shag,
and wth, i've been thinking,





thinking so much about you

this holday has been so shag,
and wth, i've been thinking,





thinking so much about you

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i feel so, so bloody tired. damn, i'm gonna sleep.
M'sia has been fun, still fun, prob gonna head back tmr.


haha and Christmas songs has been stuck in my head.
I bought the Relient K rock version of Christmas songs,
and it rocks. Best album i've ever bought this year(!)



haha srsly it's damn nice kay.


what's a partridge, and what's a pear tree,
i don't know so please don't ask me



okay anyway,
today has been so shag.
im gonna sleep alr.
cya







xxxo bel




No, i don't think i'm ready for you to re-enter back into my life.
It's another round, yet again.

AND, they don't know how spiteful their words are,
and how trapped we feel.

i feel so, so bloody tired. damn, i'm gonna sleep.
M'sia has been fun, still fun, prob gonna head back tmr.


haha and Christmas songs has been stuck in my head.
I bought the Relient K rock version of Christmas songs,
and it rocks. Best album i've ever bought this year(!)



haha srsly it's damn nice kay.


what's a partridge, and what's a pear tree,
i don't know so please don't ask me



okay anyway,
today has been so shag.
im gonna sleep alr.
cya







xxxo bel




No, i don't think i'm ready for you to re-enter back into my life.
It's another round, yet again.

AND, they don't know how spiteful their words are,
and how trapped we feel.

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Okay i'm in M'sia now. Kinda hot, drizzled a bit. anyway, i'm here to promote a game, and i know its old but

I LOVE ICY TOWER

Srsly okay, it's damn addictive and THE DOWNLOAD IS FREEEEEE. + if you play, i can teach you hw to download new characters :D:D ahahaha.

ps: my highest combo is 50+ beat that :D :D hahahaha okay. and uh, this hotel has broadband but must pay but anw, yeahhhhh i'm paying for it so you ppl better download :D

pps: sylvia i replied alr. faster reply me!

ppps: I LIKE VICO. google it.

xxxxxxoo, bel

Okay i'm in M'sia now. Kinda hot, drizzled a bit. anyway, i'm here to promote a game, and i know its old but

I LOVE ICY TOWER

Srsly okay, it's damn addictive and THE DOWNLOAD IS FREEEEEE. + if you play, i can teach you hw to download new characters :D:D ahahaha.

ps: my highest combo is 50+ beat that :D :D hahahaha okay. and uh, this hotel has broadband but must pay but anw, yeahhhhh i'm paying for it so you ppl better download :D

pps: sylvia i replied alr. faster reply me!

ppps: I LIKE VICO. google it.

xxxxxxoo, bel

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oys SYLVIA. By the time you're reading this, i'm seriously gonna be in M'sia alr. And i don't think i can read your text there. So, PLEASE EMAIL ME OR TEXT MY DAD OR SOMETHING. I REALLY WANNA KNOW WHY :D Haha and shit me la for checking my phone so late.

BLAH I HATE MY CURIOUSITY. IT KILLS ME. And i blame myself for checking the phone so late, now i don't think i can sleep wth. Oys SHIITING HELL. WHAT A HELL OF AN A'HOLE NIGHT TONIGHT WILL BE.



haha off to M'sia, back soon




xxxxxxx bel

oys SYLVIA. By the time you're reading this, i'm seriously gonna be in M'sia alr. And i don't think i can read your text there. So, PLEASE EMAIL ME OR TEXT MY DAD OR SOMETHING. I REALLY WANNA KNOW WHY :D Haha and shit me la for checking my phone so late.

BLAH I HATE MY CURIOUSITY. IT KILLS ME. And i blame myself for checking the phone so late, now i don't think i can sleep wth. Oys SHIITING HELL. WHAT A HELL OF AN A'HOLE NIGHT TONIGHT WILL BE.



haha off to M'sia, back soon




xxxxxxx bel

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Okay. So, i caught twilight today. Supposedly it had better audio and visual, but it was really good. Kinda diff from the book though, but it was so worth the money, like hello 6 bucks. And we really enjoyed ourselves in the v.angmor infested cinema. (i think) they kept screaming 'I LOVE TWILIGHT' from their seats and all the other chinese went 'SHUT UP'. It was so hectic.

haha + when Edward was gonna kiss Bella, one of the angmors went 'I wanna shoot her' in the angmorish accent.


Okay i'm rambling. Anyway, so i shopped and we found colourful sexbands (+red&pink) so today was quite worth it. Most of the stuff tht we bought were a steal and $ wasn't at all wasted (i think) but anyway it was an enjoyable day :)




Leaving for M'sia soon, need anything?

Okay. So, i caught twilight today. Supposedly it had better audio and visual, but it was really good. Kinda diff from the book though, but it was so worth the money, like hello 6 bucks. And we really enjoyed ourselves in the v.angmor infested cinema. (i think) they kept screaming 'I LOVE TWILIGHT' from their seats and all the other chinese went 'SHUT UP'. It was so hectic.

haha + when Edward was gonna kiss Bella, one of the angmors went 'I wanna shoot her' in the angmorish accent.


Okay i'm rambling. Anyway, so i shopped and we found colourful sexbands (+red&pink) so today was quite worth it. Most of the stuff tht we bought were a steal and $ wasn't at all wasted (i think) but anyway it was an enjoyable day :)




Leaving for M'sia soon, need anything?

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I've been thinking. Yes i know, i always do.. sometimes, too much. And i realised, i was/still am really scared about the future ahead of me. Makes me feel like i've been walking on some never ending road and there's always a mist/fog infront of me which scares me, really does.


Non of em' have worked out as long, idk if this one will either. Truth be told, i'm not at all excited to continue it, there are.. people/bitches who are so against it. But i'm just glad that its you and not anyone else that i'll be braving life with then.




This is so stupid- i've never been scared of my future

I've been thinking. Yes i know, i always do.. sometimes, too much. And i realised, i was/still am really scared about the future ahead of me. Makes me feel like i've been walking on some never ending road and there's always a mist/fog infront of me which scares me, really does.


Non of em' have worked out as long, idk if this one will either. Truth be told, i'm not at all excited to continue it, there are.. people/bitches who are so against it. But i'm just glad that its you and not anyone else that i'll be braving life with then.




This is so stupid- i've never been scared of my future

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i find it so hard to breathe now

i find it so hard to breathe now

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So I'm waiting for this test to end
So these lighter days can soon begin
I'll be alone but maybe more carefree
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly
I was afraid to be alone

Now I'm scared thats how I'd like to be
All these faces none the same
How can there be so many personalities
So many lifeless empty hands
So many hearts in great demand

And now my sorrow seems so far away
Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain
But I turn them off and tuck them away
'till these rainy days that make them stay

And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs
And the words still ring, once here now gone
And they echo through my head everyday
And I dont think they'll ever go away



But i'm about to give this one more shot

So I'm waiting for this test to end
So these lighter days can soon begin
I'll be alone but maybe more carefree
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly
I was afraid to be alone

Now I'm scared thats how I'd like to be
All these faces none the same
How can there be so many personalities
So many lifeless empty hands
So many hearts in great demand

And now my sorrow seems so far away
Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain
But I turn them off and tuck them away
'till these rainy days that make them stay

And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs
And the words still ring, once here now gone
And they echo through my head everyday
And I dont think they'll ever go away



But i'm about to give this one more shot

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okay. this is gonna be one of my VERY RARE LIMITED EDITION (V.) HAPPY POST!

yes i know, i'm roughly almost never happy but, haha when the people whom you oh-so-very-much-love the most gives you the best of the best time ever, you can't just help but feel smiley and all cheerful.


AND I SHALL NOT GIVE YOU THE SATISFACTION IN TELLING YOU WHAT I DID TODAY. BUT I HAD FUN, YES.


i had loads of fun. in fact, today was like, fast. Like.. it just wooshed past me without me knowing and then i find myself on the way home in the mrt, thinking about how the day felt like.. an hour or so.



haha it's been long, yes it has, since i've felt this kinda :) :) :) :D



but when life hooks you up with the best friends ever, you can't refuse, no.
so to () and () who have made this day, a day to be remembered!,

i do love you guys :)
+ today was lovely, thank you :D




An hour feels like a 5 minutes,
a day feels like an hour.
Pause, Rewind, And Play Again,
This is going into a part of my heart.

okay. this is gonna be one of my VERY RARE LIMITED EDITION (V.) HAPPY POST!

yes i know, i'm roughly almost never happy but, haha when the people whom you oh-so-very-much-love the most gives you the best of the best time ever, you can't just help but feel smiley and all cheerful.


AND I SHALL NOT GIVE YOU THE SATISFACTION IN TELLING YOU WHAT I DID TODAY. BUT I HAD FUN, YES.


i had loads of fun. in fact, today was like, fast. Like.. it just wooshed past me without me knowing and then i find myself on the way home in the mrt, thinking about how the day felt like.. an hour or so.



haha it's been long, yes it has, since i've felt this kinda :) :) :) :D



but when life hooks you up with the best friends ever, you can't refuse, no.
so to () and () who have made this day, a day to be remembered!,

i do love you guys :)
+ today was lovely, thank you :D




An hour feels like a 5 minutes,
a day feels like an hour.
Pause, Rewind, And Play Again,
This is going into a part of my heart.

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ps: see this is what happens when you post your day on the blog. You'd have to edit it if anything goes wrong. For me, i mean.

ps: see this is what happens when you post your day on the blog. You'd have to edit it if anything goes wrong. For me, i mean.

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EDIT

Okay guess what. My date with the past has been cancelled.
My dear twenty-something year old teacher,
forgot tht she was a muslim and was celebrating Hari Raya tmr.


yaozaaaboombaambeeeeemlololololpopopopohoghobhonhod.


/EDIT

EDIT

Okay guess what. My date with the past has been cancelled.
My dear twenty-something year old teacher,
forgot tht she was a muslim and was celebrating Hari Raya tmr.


yaozaaaboombaambeeeeemlololololpopopopohoghobhonhod.


/EDIT

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I wish i could bubble wrap my heart;

in case i fall, and break apart

I've always longed to be free,
free of everything i've ever been held captive by.


And now, for something i've not done in a long long time,
i shall tell you about my haven't-ended-day.

I finally went for service after like, 2 months?
(8weeks really, when you think about it)
haha. and i have to say.. it was boring and monotonous and i'm sorry.
but really, it was.
AND IM SORRY.

I've figured i'll change church when i hit 16,
that is if ()
ANYWAY.

then after tht i cabbed with cassendra to novena yadayada,
and then i went to fareast to get celine's sexbands


and now i'm home, it's 3 and i have piano at 5,
and then im going out with my family to eat cuz my maid's sick.
(!!) i know.


haha i'll be off to m'sia this sat,
miss me yes! i heard the hotel has broadband though.
heh heh i'll be on some crazy super-bel buying spree.

shop till i drop maaaaaaaaaan, that's life.




anyway, i have a date with the past tmr!
it's time to meet, greet, and critisize!
and of cuz gossip and laugh and talk and oh-what not.


okay my eyes are itchy now.
xxlalasxx seems like such a fond memory.

im incoherent :D


cya!

xxxxoo bel




ps : SYLVIA, LET'S GO BUBBLEWRAP OUR HEARTS

I wish i could bubble wrap my heart;

in case i fall, and break apart

I've always longed to be free,
free of everything i've ever been held captive by.


And now, for something i've not done in a long long time,
i shall tell you about my haven't-ended-day.

I finally went for service after like, 2 months?
(8weeks really, when you think about it)
haha. and i have to say.. it was boring and monotonous and i'm sorry.
but really, it was.
AND IM SORRY.

I've figured i'll change church when i hit 16,
that is if ()
ANYWAY.

then after tht i cabbed with cassendra to novena yadayada,
and then i went to fareast to get celine's sexbands


and now i'm home, it's 3 and i have piano at 5,
and then im going out with my family to eat cuz my maid's sick.
(!!) i know.


haha i'll be off to m'sia this sat,
miss me yes! i heard the hotel has broadband though.
heh heh i'll be on some crazy super-bel buying spree.

shop till i drop maaaaaaaaaan, that's life.




anyway, i have a date with the past tmr!
it's time to meet, greet, and critisize!
and of cuz gossip and laugh and talk and oh-what not.


okay my eyes are itchy now.
xxlalasxx seems like such a fond memory.

im incoherent :D


cya!

xxxxoo bel




ps : SYLVIA, LET'S GO BUBBLEWRAP OUR HEARTS

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What did you learn today,
I learned nothing

What did you do today,
I did nothing

What did you learn at school,
I didn't go-o

Why didn't you go to school,
I don't know

It's cool, to know nothing
It's cool, to know nothing

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i keep keep finding myself thinking about how fast the year has passed.
and damn, it's Christmas alr!

and i'm so running low on self-esteem and happiness
my personal batt has die-ded and there's no one to charge me up
(okay that sounds wrong).

whichever and whatever,
desperate housewives IS a trashy show but oh- susan is so dreadfully stupid.
and the rest are all.. scandalous.

i need more love!
and that's why my goal by the next year is to
()


IF YOU'RE SMART YOU CAN GUESS IT :D


Merry X'mas and a dreafully new year,

with all the love i can muster,
xxxx bel

What did you learn today,
I learned nothing

What did you do today,
I did nothing

What did you learn at school,
I didn't go-o

Why didn't you go to school,
I don't know

It's cool, to know nothing
It's cool, to know nothing

-----------------------------------------


i keep keep finding myself thinking about how fast the year has passed.
and damn, it's Christmas alr!

and i'm so running low on self-esteem and happiness
my personal batt has die-ded and there's no one to charge me up
(okay that sounds wrong).

whichever and whatever,
desperate housewives IS a trashy show but oh- susan is so dreadfully stupid.
and the rest are all.. scandalous.

i need more love!
and that's why my goal by the next year is to
()


IF YOU'RE SMART YOU CAN GUESS IT :D


Merry X'mas and a dreafully new year,

with all the love i can muster,
xxxx bel

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Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies

Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal the heart
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end oh,
This is my grown up Christmas list

As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath the tree

But heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
Oh, This is my grown up christmas list

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, oh
This is my grown up christmas list
This is my only life long wish
This is my grown up christmas list





i know my christmas list
i want you.

Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies

Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal the heart
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end oh,
This is my grown up Christmas list

As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath the tree

But heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
Oh, This is my grown up christmas list

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, oh
This is my grown up christmas list
This is my only life long wish
This is my grown up christmas list





i know my christmas list
i want you.

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It's the first of december.
December.

Christmas, Camp, School.
It's like deja vu.



but now i feel,
like i've taken

one step forward and 2 steps back.


feels so dumb man.
desperate housewives has replaced friends for the time being.








ITS LIKE 1 STEP FORWARD AND 2 STEPS BACK,


theory of a deadman

It's the first of december.
December.

Christmas, Camp, School.
It's like deja vu.



but now i feel,
like i've taken

one step forward and 2 steps back.


feels so dumb man.
desperate housewives has replaced friends for the time being.








ITS LIKE 1 STEP FORWARD AND 2 STEPS BACK,


theory of a deadman