Thursday, December 31, 2009

Man Man Ha Ni

 

Just know when you see me cringe sometimes,
I'm trying to rid the poison from my mind

 

warning: kpop rant.

Omfg im watching music bank now and THEY'RE PLAYING CHU BY FX! HAHAHA. Marshmellow by IU keeps coming up IT'S ANNOYING. I HATE THIS CUTE CUTE PERSON. NEXT IS SHINEE AHHHHH! OMG IM SHOCKED! 2pm's heartbeat (obviously) is playing on music bank and wth they've all got the same haircut! what happened to the freaking ponytails? Hahaha they look like twins/triplets/sixluplets? idk.

Oh and i think i'm too obsessed alr! Too much pops in seoul and showbiz extra and music bank, i now like U KISS :) HAHAHAHAHAAH I can't believe i like U KISS! I thought i would only only one and only forever like dbsk :)

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HLOZ! Today is 31st dec. IT'S THE LAST DAY OF THE YEAR. Haha where would you be at 11:59pm? I can't believe the year has passed alr. I mean, if sec 3 was super short, sec 4 would probably feel like a second :(

Ah oh well. I was really thankful for this year though. New friends :) Hated the many changes. But there were some really memorable times. I'm happy that i've got to know a lot of people better :) I loved this dec hols though. Nov and Dec. Really really really fun times. It's a pity we didn't take A LOT of pictures but at least we took some :) HAHA

Okay i feel so bored i'm going to write cards now! Like, thank you cards :)

I'm staying at home today! But going to church for service and i have no idea where my countdown would be. But i'll sms everyone HAHA which is what i always do :)

Okay expect more posts to come this afternoon! I'm going to watch FO now. Yes i'm that bored.

DBSK HWAITING!

 

Naega keureokke reokke manmanhani
Sarangee keureokke neon manmanhani
Nawaeui chueokee neon manmanhani
Keureokke modeungeh da manmanhani

HAHAHAHAHA :) MANMANHANI! :)

DBSK in saipan!

 

Okay i'm posting again, for the fourth time, because i am sad. I just finished All About DBSK (which i wanna buy for $135 bucks btw) in SAIPAN! Yeah they went to saipan wherever the hell saipan is. Okay anyway and then there are like 5 parts to the show.

I was laughing like crazy in the first 4 parts IT WAS DAMN FREAKING FUNNY i mean what do you expect? IT'S DBSK! :)

But when it got to the last vid, there were like, words from the member's diaries and it got really, really, really sad. like muthafucking sad. Haha but i didn't cry! It's amazing how i can hold my tears nowadays. I DIDN'T CRY. *Listens to applause*

Okay anyway! SPOT THE GUY I LIKE :) JAEJOONG! Try spotting junsu if you can! IF YOU CAN'T SPOT JAEJOONG YOU'RE OBSERVATION SKILLS SUCK SOCKS :( HAHAHA.

dbsk hwaiting! <3

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Are you tired of my continuous postings? :(

 

Some things, however, are true no matter how hard you might try to block them out, and a lie is always a lie, no matter how prettily told. Some doors, once they’re opened, can never be closed again, just as some trust, once it’s been lost, can never be won back.

 

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Are you sick and tired of my continuous postings? :( Anyway i was just thinking, it'd be nice to smell the dbsk members :) Like you know everyone has this scent. Whether it's their softener that's just really strong, or if they overdid the perfume, or maybe the shampoo that lingered on their hair. I knew this friend, who smelled of this perfume thingy. And then i went to her house and ohmygod the smell was everywhere.

Hahahaha yeah it'd be nice :)

Haha have you thought of your new year's resolution yet? Hahahahaha i have no idea what to resolute. Is resolute a word? Like im resoluting my resolution but it's hard to resolute. HAHAHAHAHA okay.

My new year's resolution : STOP LIKING KPOP. (DO YOU THINK IT'S POSSIBLE? OR IMPOSSIBLE?? AH)

TIMETABLE SUCKS

OKAY, I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD SAY THIS, BUT I REALLY WANT MY MOTHER TO COME TEACH ME PE NEXT YEAR. LIKE SERIOUSLY. I THINK I'M GOING TO DIE NEXT YEAR. BREAKS ARE ALWAYS SECOND PERIODS SO WE HAVE TO LAST THROUGH THE WHOLE DAY WITH NO MORE BREAKS? ARE YOU SERIOUS? I NEED LIKE COFFEE AND TEA AND LOTS OF SUGAR TO KEEP ME AWAKE. ARE YOU SERIOUS OMGGGGG

FTW FTW FTW FML FML FML

MUSIC'S ON WEDNESDAY THAT'S EVEN WORSE I LIKE TO KEEP MY WEDNESDAYS FREE SOMEONE KILL ME NOW.

OH AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON OUR TEACHERS. URGH!

Exhausted

 

I'm in one of those moods that nothing is really wrong in my life,
but my brain keeps on insisting that there is.
Or maybe it's my heart thats doing the insisting.
I can't really tell. You know that feeling?

 

Ah, it feels great to be exhausted. I haven't been tired for a long time now. I think what made me tired was the homework i did :( Hahahaha we didn't watch Sherlock Holmes in the end, sad, but HAHAHA, it was homework all the way!

Emath! It's done :) My emath hw is done! We took a whooping total of 8 hours to do it! YAY! Hahahaha i got updated! And sylvia's holidays were hilarious. She is greatly admired by manymany hahaha!

I'm tireddddd :) I think i will try to sleep early tonight :) I haven't slept before 1 for this whole entire holiday.

OH OH OH and i can't wait for BLG concert. I WANNA BUY THE TEEEEE! :)

Lacha lacha tata! Haha von bought the shinee cd *gasp*. Okay i'm tired of thinking about which shinee member i like. I'll settle for everything. I like every shinee member :) And the cutest is the leader! HAHAHA. Deanna, you will like kpop soon! :)

LACHALACHATATA

Different

The best thing though, in that museum, was that everything always stayed right where it was. Nobody’d move. You could go there a hundred thousand times, and that Eskimo would still just be finished catching those two fish, and the birds would still be on their way south. Nobody’d be different. The only thing that would be different would be you. Not that you’d be so much older or anything. You’d just be different, that’s all. You’d have an overcoat on this time. Or you’d heard your mother and father having a terrific fight in the bathroom. You would be different in someway, I can’t explain what I mean. And even if I could, I’m not sure I’d feel like it.

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Don't like the aching feeling. Just makes me wanna disparage life. I hope the new year never comes. I am not looking forward to it. Not one bit. Not even a bite-sized bit.

I hope one day wishes come true. HAHA what a stupid thing to hope for.

Goodnight, this is an angsty post and i don't feel like talking on this space anymore. Oh how we need someone to cling on to in this world.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Chocolate love

I think it's pretty cool that snsd and f(x) both did chocolate love. I PREFER F(X)'S ONE.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Is the concept suppose to be like snsd is white chocolate and f(x) is dark chocolate? LOL

I GOT YOU BABE, I CALL, I CALL IT CHOCOLATE LOVE
NEOREUL WONHAE, GAJILLAE, DALKOM DALKOM OH CHOCOLATE LOVE

Oh My Super Girl 你是我的 Baby Girl

 

KIM JAE JOONG <33333333333333333333333333 (L)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA YES SEE THIS IS THE HOT HOT HOT GUY I'VE BEEN SPAZZING ABOUT FOR THE PAST FEW WEEKS KIM JAEJOONG AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

*FAINTS OF HOTNESS OVERLOAD*

Oooooooooooookay today was damn fantastic (elastic!) HAHAHA Hb prac was pretty horrible at some points but it was pretty bearable i guess :) Anyway poor sarah she had to live with a bit of my kpop madness, not as mad as the rest of the crazy kpop ppl in hb + THE KPOP GOD HAHAHAHA i think sarah really finds that amusing :)

Lunch was coooool. I didn't know kyobayashi sold korean food. I thought it was Jap food all along. And anyway, Koreans name their dishes BIBIMBAP and all sorts of strangely hilarious names okay. I tried kimchi and it sucked! EEW.

OH MY SUPERGIRL 你是我的 BABY GIRL

VONNNNN WHY DID YOU HAVE TO PUT THE VID ON YOUR ONSUGAR :( Now i'm hooked onto that song! IT'S FREAKING CHINESE! :(

Hahahahaahha but okay suju intimate note still cracks me up like crazy. Heehee :)

I'm gonna attempt to finish all my hw tomorrow :) But i really wanna watch Sherlock Holmes! Heard it's damn freaking funny!

OH AND BY THE END OF TOMORROW, SYLVIA WILL LOVE KPOP. :)

Gee

 

That was the thing. You never got used to it,
the idea of someone being gone.
Just when you think it's reconciled, accepted,
someone points it out to you,
and it just hits you all over again,
that shocking.

 

I'm posting again. For the second time. I have no idea how i'll be able to sleep early and wake up early when school starts. It's really late now :( Haha i'm dreading to sleep cuz i know when i wake up i'll have this super ultra long and boring day infront of me.

Gosh i really hate this week. It's filled with cramming of stuffs :( And misfortunes :(

I still wish dbsk would not disband though. Then maybe i'll coldturkey myself from Kpop. :) After they get back together, that is. And start performing again. :)

Okayyyyyyyyy i'm gonna do my tuition hw now then sleep. Goodnight! :) <3

Monday, December 28, 2009

Sucks

 

you can tell a lot about people by the way they handle four things:
a rainy day, the elderly lost luggage, and tangled christmas lights

 

HLOZ LOL. I am back from hb prac and i would say, today sucked :) It was tiring cuz i slept really late and i didn't miss the bells a single bit.

Highlight of the day: GOING TO COMICS CONNECTION AND BUYING EVERY DBSK THING THERE. Almost. I have 3 files now and many cards and stickers and keychains I AM GOING TO EXPAND MY JAEJOONG SHRINE!

I'll be back tomorrow to buy posters HAH.

Okay i will hate tomorrow as well it will be excruciating, believe me.

Christmas sucked, that's for sure. :) After the last hb prac tomorrow, i will coop up in my room and watch kpop vids for as long as possible, read as many fanfics as possible, and then mentally prepare myself for school in 2010. I have to enjoy this last pathetic bit of freedom i have left.

But it's nice knowing i'm starting school with a new bag that has my jaejoong/ dbsk keychains and 3 jaejoong/ dbsk files. Haha.

From now on, non related posts are called Normal Posts

 

If I'd been someone else in a different world
I would have done something different,
but I was myself and the world was the world,
so I was silent.

 

Hahaha I'm learing how to seperate the Kposts and almost-non Kposts from each other so anti-kpop ppl can read normal posts and all.

I think it's been really long since i've said smth along this line that goes 'there's hb tmr ahhhhhhhhhhhh i'm so dreading it', HOWEVER, this time i will not dread hb thaaaat much haha because firstly i can get out of my house and secondly there are actually kpop fans there.

:)

Okay mooooving on, I can't believe sezairi won! I mean, i don't even know how to spell his name! I didn't bother watching SI though cuz i had a feeling sylvia wouldn't win. I wanna go for the BLG concert though. BLG's album was the very first music album i legally bought for myself LOL. Then followed by mirotic and rising sun :) YES, I'm obliged to add that! haha

I'm dreading tomorrow. Not hb but just tomorrow in general. I have so many things lined up after one another it feels like my parents are trying to kill me. I hate chinese and i never wanna learn chinese again. Why can't singapore's second language and billingualism policy be a nicer language like KOREAN. Don't you think Korean is a cool language?

See, if we take Korean as our second language, we wouldn't have to wait longer than koreans for english subbed vids to come out on youtube! We wouldn't have to pay more just to get All About TVXQ vids in english sub, and we wouldn't have to memorise korean songs and sing not knowing what the hell we're singing about!

Like when i sing mirotic, i amuse myself like shit. And end up laughing. And i can't get ringdingdong's lyrics. Too fast and too koreanish. THAT'S WHY WE SHOULD LEARN KOREAN.

Or maybe Jap i'm fine with that too cuz dbsk's really popular in jap too but preferably Korean please :)

I don't even know why i bother ranting about wanting to learn Korean and not chinese here. Is not like sg or MOE is gonna actually do something anyway.

WHATEVER. It's 1:30am and i still have to do my stupid chinese compo letter writing whatever crap shit. Urgh angsty angsty. I HATE CHINESE! !@#$ LIKE HELL I DO! !@#$

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Bigeastation- Station of the heart

Am very very depressed and sad now and maybe a bit suicidal (LOL kidding). I almost cried when i heard/saw dbsk's bigeaststaion 144's last broadcast. It is super sad. Changmin didn't even talk much :( And most of the time it was just Jaejoong and junsu talking, or yoochun. A bit of yunho. Whyyyyyy stupid 11:11 wishes don't come true, or haven't come true yet!

Oh btw, look at my new and improved short little paragraph about me! >>>>> On the right there above the tagboard. HAHAHAHAHA :)

Whatever. DBSK HWAITING :)

ps: normal post comes next. Let me recover from my bitterness and sadness of this world :(

Saturday, December 26, 2009

iPhone pictures

MY MOM BOUGHT ME JAEJOONG'S FILE. AHHHHHHH I CAN'T WAIT TO GO TO SCHOOL NOW.

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HAHA MY MIROTIC ALBUM AND RISING SUN ALBUM AND THE GLITER PINK CARD MICH GAVE ME :)

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The back of the file with more of his pictures ahhhhhhhhhh *faints*

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MY SUPER MESSY TABLE NOW WITH THEIR STUFFS :) HAPPY!

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The card thingum from the rising sun album hahahahaha now jaejoong's portion is covered with glow in the dark hearts. Seriously. :)

YAY :)

Friday, December 25, 2009

Relax, this is a normal post

 

Nothing is static.
Everything is evolving.
Everything is falling apart

 

Before you decide never to visit my blog ever again, i will save the situation and post a normal post.

I find that as i grow older, Christmas becomes less special. I start to notice the things missing from Christmas each year. Like how most relatives verbally sprout up a small figure sum of money and tell you to buy something you like as your christmas present. Which is nice in a way cuz you get to chose what you want. But there's no more joy in waiting for 11:59 to tear wrappers and open suprises.

I suspect in about 2-3 years time, i wouldn't be spending christmas with my family. I'll look forward to spending it with friends though.

Have you changed? Are you different from when you were in the beginning of 2009? I think the holidays have changed me. Idk i'm not bothered about school work anymore and i have no desire to do well in O's.

Hahahaha maybe it's just me. Or the fact that this sucky Christmas is ending. Whichever, i hope you had a nice 2009 and a nice 09' Christmas :)

Japan Music Station Live 2009

I'm happy. :) dbsk or should i say, tohoshinki, just performed at the japan music station live :) Though dressed in black like they were heading to their own funerals, they performed together! And spent Christmas Day together :)

I seriously hope they get back together. :)

Merry Christmas! It's endingggggg

Merry PINK Christmas Pt.2 + more kpop ranting

 

KIM JUNSU

 

IF YOU DON'T AGREE HE IS FUCKING CUTE, I THINK YOU NEED TO GORGE OUT YOUR EYEBALLS AND REPLACE THEM WITH BETTER WORKING ONES. HOW CAN JUNSU NOT BE CUTE. LOOOOOOK HIS GLASSES ARE SOOOOOOOOOO FKING CUTE

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I LOVE HIS ARM AND HIS BAND AND HIS JEANS AND HIS CONCENTRATION AND HIS STRIPPED BUMBLE BEE SHIRT HAHAHA

 AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I LOVE KIM JUNSU!

FOR ONCE, I'M LIKING HIM BETTER THAN JAEJOONG! BUT ONLY FOR NOW. LIKE TODAY. OR SOMETHING.

JUNSU IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!

AND HE CAN RUN UNBELIEVABLY FUCKING FAST OKAY HE PWNED SUJU AT EHB LA! HAHAHAHAHAHA GO JUNSU! HWAITING!

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HOOOOOOKAY. Today's Christmas was................. interesting. I didn't sleep the whole night so i was pretty stoned during service. There were ups and downs and i'm glad i still have friends there who actually care :) It's nice! And MICH CAME BACK TO VISIT! HAHAHAHAHAHA I LOVED HER PRESENTS LIKE CRAZY! But i didn't bring hers ahhhhhhhhhhh :( Love you mich! Take care k! :) <3

K then i went to eat sushi tei and it was as good as always....... I'm home now :(

BUT I'M TALKING TO VON ON MSN ABOUT SUJU AND DBSK AND IT MAKES ME HAPPY WE ARE GOING TO COMICS CONNECTION TO BUY EVERYTHING RELATED TO SUJU (HENRY) AND DBSK (JAEJOONG) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH CAN'T WAIT MANZ.

I'm going to my aunt's house later for the first family gathering :) We're having turkey and log cake! Oh and Ben&Jerry's! :D Nicenice. I'll bring my com there to entertain me :)

KKKKKKK BACK TO SEARCHING FOR MORE DBSK VIDS! LOVE! HAVE A MERRY PINK CHRISTMAS!!! <3 <3 <3

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I LOVE KIM JAEJOONG AND KIM JUNSU HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Merry Christmas!

 

I took off my shoes and walked into the woods
I felt lost and found with every step I took

 

Hiiiiiiiiii it's Christmas already! CHRISTMAS 2009 CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? Feels like just yesterday i started my first day of sec3 or something. Okayyyyyyy. I hope you're gonna have a nice Christmas! It's 7am now i don't think anyone is up cept me who stayed up the whole night going high and living on caffine alone.

If you could wish for something this Christmas, what would it be?

I WISH DBSK WOULD START THEIR TOURS AND CREATE A NEW ALBUM AND PRETEND NOTHING HAPPENED. NO LAWSUIT- NOTHING. :)

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. I really really wish my wish would come true. I mean for the first time it's not really a selfish wish like i want to pick up 50bucks on the floor or smth, it's truly truly from my heart.

Deeeeeep down, wayyyy below, from my heart :)

I love dbsk! Christmas is nice! :) Looooooove everything nowwww. :) HAVE A GREAT 2009 CHRISTMAS! <3

DBSK HWAITING! JAEJOONG! <3

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Christmas Eve

 

I lean to you, numb as a fossil.
Tell me I’m here.
--Sylvia Plath

 

Merry Christmas Eve! :) This Christmas Eve currently sucks like hell for me. But i'll survive. The worst christmas eve in 2009, actually i can't remember any of my past Christmas Eves. But whatever. Thing is i'm not with winnie/sarah now and worse still, i'm stuck at home with MMM and nothing can be worse than that.

Anway, there hasn't been any breaking dbsk news cept for that break out single. I suppose they'd be going to the japan whatever thing w bigbang or smth. I need to get out of this kpop crazy by 4th jan or else I'LL FAIL O's. SERIOUSLY.

Okay i shall tell you what i did yesterday! I WENT TO SENTOSA :D And swimmed quite farrrr in the sea. Though there were many invisible jellyfishes and sarah couldn't believe EVERYTHING and winnie missed bebe like crazy and joyce has done hol hw, IT WAS SUPER FUN AND I LOVE KOFU'S BAN MIAN :)

I neeeeeeeeeed to get back to the nerdy mugging mood. After Christmas i suppose, i shall chiong hw all the way. If i find it.

So............... Merry Christmas Eve! Have f-f-f-f-fun! :)

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

BIRTHDAY BING

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BING I LOVE YOU X10000000000 A MILLION TIMES I LOVE YOU!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA BE HAPPY STAY HAPPY AND REMEMBER TO FIGHT BACK WHEN SOMEONE PISSES YOU OFF!

 

LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BING! SEE YOU NEXT YEAR HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

<3 <3 <3

New dbsk thoughts which do not apply to anti-kpop ppl

About break out...

I do not love the fact that Jaejoong didn't sing first. But gosh do i love it when he sings the first chorus! Yoochun's voice is as sexy as always and i'm glad it started first. :)

break out break out!

hahahahahhaah

OH and i think all DBSK fanfic writers are geniuses. GENIUSES I TELL YOU. SOOOOOOO GOOD. :)

Agony

 

let's go to sleep with clearer heads
and hearts too big to fit our beds.

 

Believe me when i say i'm in agony. And the only thing that can save me from this pain and torture, is a Thai translator. DBSK cards are staring at me and i'm scrutinizing their handwriting but it only comes in 2 languages- Korean (expected) and thai (so not expected)

I WANNA READ WHAT THEY SAID AT THE BACK OF THE CARDS :( :( :( I DON'T CARE IF THE ALBUM IS BOUGHT FROM THAILAND LIKE HELLO, ENGLISH IS A UNIVERSAL LANGUAGE IF YOU DON'T INCLUDE ENGLISH THEN WHY SELL THE ALBUM!

!@#$

AHHHHHHHHHHHH. :(

However, the quality of the music is enough to knock me off my feet. I LOVE RISING SUN but i HATE it when they sing it in chinese.

Okay, it's 1:26am now i should be getting some sleep GOODNIGHT.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

BREAK OUT BREAK OUT

OMG ITS FUCKING OUT???? I THOUGHT 27TH JAN!?!?!?!?!?AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK FUCK FUCK DBSK'S SINGLE IS OUT AHHHHHHHHHHHHH BREAK OUT BREAK OUT YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAAYYAAY IM SO BUYING IT WHEN IT COMES OUT I HOPE A NEW ALBUM COMES OUT AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHFUCK IM SO HAPPY!

All i know- Five for fighting

You know what rocks socks about this song? The piano. Especially the intro. Oh and the lyrics. Haha, a big break from Korean songs, this is so awesome.

I spent the whole day at home today! It was boring, i used the com the whole day :( Boring!

I truly truly truly hope it doesn't rain at all tomorrow :(

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I bruise you, you bruise me
We both bruise too easily
Too easily to let it show
I love you, and that's all I know

All my plans have fallen through
All my plans depend on you
Depend on you to help them grow
I love you, and that's all I know

When the singer's gone
Let the song go on...

But the ending always comes at last
Endings always come too fast
They come too fast, but they pass too slow
I love you, and that's all I know

When the singer's gone
Let the song go on
It's a fine line between the darkness and the dawn
They say the darkest night
There's a light beyond

But the ending always comes at last
Endings always come too fast
They come too fast, but they pass too slow

I love you, and that's all I know
That's all I know
That's all I know

One normal post

 

I bruise you, you bruise me
We both bruise too easily, too easily to let it show
I love you and that's all I know

 

One normalnormal post here! Haha okay, so the bkk trip was really good, i bought enough clothes to start a shop or smth. And my mom had to buy another luggage to fit all the clothes and shoes i bought so............. yeah. Maybe it's a way of releasing the stress and pressure of the approaching doom's day, 4th Jan.

Or maybe it's just me.

Ah, anyway, everybody's still away :) sorta. Sarah's coming back today i hope! I hope her flight back isn't cancelled :( I am so looking forward to the last day of a decent outing before i head back to the torture chamber.

Okay the plane rides back and fourth were well entertained by my 6songs playlist. And all 6 songs were korean songs WHICH IS WHY i was entertained cuz i didn't get bored of them. Unlike english songs where you can memorise every word and sing it in sync with every beat but korean songs- nooooo. I don't even understand a single thing except for their poorly spoken english (exception of dbsk who's english rocks socks, more specifically yoochun HAHA) OH AND I LOVE JUNSU'S KENYAN LANGUAGE LOL.

Okayyyyyyyyyy normal post right? Yes. Looking back at this 2009 year end holiday posts, there hasn't been a single sad sad one! Except for that one line on that went 'Honestly, i've never felt so alone in my whole entire life', you can scrap that one line and pretend it doesn't exist.

I have no idea what i'm rambling about hahahahha.

Okay that bigbig space there is the kpop paragraph. I changed the font colour to white so anti-kpop ppl can easly skip it. If you however, love dbsk and is a hardcore dbsk fan or you simply love jaejoong's face, then you can highlight it and read it :) And should i highlight this paragraph since it's also sorta kpopish? Nah.

HAHAHAHAHA im pretty sure my posts are getting more boring by the minute so if you're expecting those scandalous emo posts, THEY ARE COMING, NEXT YEAR! :) :) :)

FOR NOW, MERRY CHRISTMAS OR SMTH, WILL POST LATER/ TMR :)

 

TOHOSHINKI 2010 CALENDAR

IF ANYONE IS WILLING TO GET ME THE TOHOSHINKI 2010 CALENDAR, I WILL LOVE YOU FOR LIFE. AND PAY YOU BACK IF YOU WANT HAHAHAHAHAHA WHATEVER I WANT THE TOHOSHINKI 2010 CALENDAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MIROTIC AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

 

OMG I JUST CAME BACK FROM BANGKOK IT'S LIKE 2AM NOW I REACHED SG AT LIKE WHAT, 12AM? OKAY ANYWAY

THE ONLY MUSIC ALBUM I HAVE EVER EVER EVER BOUGHT IN MY WHOLE. ENTIRE. LIFE, IS BOYS LIKE GIRLS ALBUM AND

I BOUGHT MIROTIC ALBUM AND RISING SUN ALBUM

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FROM BANGKOK AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LIKE SERIOUSLY, I AM SO FRIGGING HAPPY RIGHT NOW I CAN JUST KEEP SMILING IN MY SLEEP.

*SCREAMS IN DELIGHT AND FAINTS*

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I BOUGHT MIROTIC ALBUM AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :D

:D

YAY THE WORLD IS BRIGHT AND CHEERY! EVEN THOUGH ITS 2AM NOW AND THE ONLY PERSON STILL UP TEXTING ME IS WINNIE BUT AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH <3 I LOVE DBSK, TVXQ TOHOSHINKI WTF WHATEVER!

I LOVE JAEJOONG! AND I LOVE JUNSU AND CHANGMIN YAY!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

BYE

 

so i laid my head on to my pillow as the last tear ran down my face.
i can't do this anymore, i whispered to no one

 

So, bkk tmr! This is probably the last post before i head off to bkkkkkkkkk where people are protesting like mad now and i can't wear yellow or red. Right. I'm just looking forward to shopping for DBSK STUFF and clothes AH i won't miss out clothes!

Haha today, i spent the whole day at home LOL but if you're expecting this to be some 'i spend the whole day at home i'm sad and on the brink of death' post, GUESS AGAIN. BECAUSE, I FOUND 100+ MORE VIDS OF DBSK ON VARIETY SHOWS AHHHHHHHHHH

THE ONE WITH JUNSU AND YUNHO ON FAMILY OUTING IS HILARIOUS SIMPLY HILARIOUS OKAY I ROLLED ON THE FLOOR, LAUGHING MY ASS OFF. THUS, ROFLMAO.

Okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, now well wishes to everyone i know who's going offfffff on a hol :)

DEANNA, ENJOY HONGKONG AND YOUR HIGHLY ANTICIPATED PLANE RIDE :D SYLVIA, HAVE FUN AT TAIWAN AND BUY SMTH BACK FOR ME HAHAHAHA :D (I'LL HELP YOU THINK OF PLAN D IN BKK). SARAH! HAVE FUN IN TAIWAN TOO! HAHA IF YOU BANG INTO SYLVIA I WILL LAUGH. I WANNA SEE YOUR NANO WHEN YOU GET BACK! AAAAAAAAAAAAAND WINNIE, HAVE FUN IN SYDNEY. LOL. JK. HAVE FUN WITH BEBE HAHAHA YOU LUCKY GIRL! :)

YESSSSSSSS OKAY if i forgot anyone (which i highly doubt so everyone probably went somewhere alr), have fun :)

YAYZ THIS BLOG WILL BE ON HIATUS TILL MONDAY. If i still have the energy to post on Monday night, yeppppppppppppppz. Hahahahahaha I LOVE JAEJOONG! <3

 

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

313

 

well you started off,
you were flying in the air
drunk without a care
on the love of somebody out there

 

I'm f-f-f-f-flyinggg off to bkk on Friday! Hahaha. I heard there's A LOT of shopping to be done so i can't freaking wait! Oh and i'm gonna look for my dbsk dvds and albums there cuz tvxq is really quite famous in Thailand YAY.

HAHA Today was really really fun and productive i love shopping it makes me happy :)

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Post

Honestly, i've never felt so alone in my entire life before.

Miraculous Victory & Defeat

 

Besides,
the darker the walls,
the brighter the sky outside.

 

Heeydeehooo. It's frigging Tuesday! Haha and i am bored. Okay maybe i'll post more today or smth. I have accomplished nothing over the holidays in terms of studying and whatever crap but i definitely had fun and maybe a little too much. It feels like i've just finished o's and have been going out everyday when in fact, o's aren't here yet.

Ah.

Okay today marks my 2nd day throughout this whole hol that i'm staying at home. The first day was horrific. I felt like the whole world outside died :O Therefore, i shall just spend my day texting and watching tv and maybe if i feel sucidal i'll call someone or smth.

K and what kind of a variety show names itself 'miraculous victory and defeat?' It doesn't even make sense la LOL. At least they had a DBSK special. :) Hahaha. OH AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNSU! You have now shifted up one level and i like you better than changmin now :D Hahaha winnie, i realise changmin doesn't say much. LOL.

K b4 i break out into anymore of my annoying kpop rant, bye!

Monday, December 14, 2009

Miami ink

 

Memories were fine, but you couldn't touch them, smell them, or hold them.
They were never exactly as the moment had been, and they faded with time.

 

Heydeehoooo. Today is MONDAY! MONDAYs are so disgusting and irritable. I hate mondays. I usually suffer from Monday Blues when it's school but now there's no school :) Oh but school is coming.

HAHAHAHAHA i hate mondays like seriously. And so what if it's Friday? What's with TGIF? I'm only happy when friday is over not when friday comes. Ah okay.

I have to start doing my hw tmr. Which means i have to start finding it today. Yeah okay. I will so totally finish it by 4th Jan. I hate 4th Jan. LOL.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Go hey lil mama, i can transform ya

 

Go hey Lil Mama,
I can transform ya,
No I can't dance,
but I can dance on ya,
Swizz on the beat,
Chris move ya feet,
And baby I can transform your him to a me

 

Due to my increased liking in Kpop, my posts have become increasingly boring. Therefore, this shall be a special post, that would have nothing to do with kpop! INSTEAD, it shall be SO INTERESTING you would just stop drop and roll.

Okay. My day was xtremely boring. I liked last week though, i went out everyday it was superfun. But this coming week........... Busy busy. Haha i can't wait for the 23rd! I actually wanna go back to Sentosa and tan more.

K what else. Oh, school is coming :( :( :( this is depressing so i shall not harp on it.

Has anyone done chem proj? Like seriously, after this 2 months, i have completely no mood to even pack my bag or touch my books, and i have no plan whatsoever to do my hw. I can't even find it. Urgh.

Hahahaha okay. I can transform ya has been playing everywhere and 24/7 on radio. Thus, my post title and quote. Haha i especially like the very first line though. :)

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Smile Again

Jaechunsu held their Smile Again fan meeting :( I wished HoMin could be there but. Whatever.

Friday, December 11, 2009

Kill me

 

we talk like we know what's going on,
but we don't.
we don't know anything.
we're young and we're gonna screw up a lot.
we're gonna keep changing our minds,
and sometimes our hearts.
and through all that,
the only real thing we can offer each other
is forgiveness.

 

In three words i could sum up what i learned about life so far :
It goes on

Everything i learned about love :
It doesn't last

Everything i learned about people :
They change fast.

--

So today, was xtremely tiring. I am very dark and am preparing myself for the excruciating pain of my skin peeling. I spent like, hours under the sun today :) Sentosa's ban mian is extremely nice. Oh and i luv the tram ride hahahaha it made me sleeeeeepy.

But the at the end of the day, i couldn't go for dinner :( !@#$ which sucks! As usual, i leave b4 dinner :( Hahaha but i can't wait for the 23rd, whatever we're gonna do. Haha and then......... there's just a few more days till school...............................................

I hate school i don't wanna go to school I DON'T WANT TO STUDY :(

K, i realised that these few days were tearful, mainly because of MMM. Hahaha i hate her for causing my waterworks and i HATE her for spoiling my whole day. !@#$ Cheers if you figure out who is MMM, it's pretty easy la.

Oh, AND WOULD SOMEONE PLEASE KILL ME? THE FIRST SITE I GO TO WHEN I ON THE COM IS ALWAYS A WEBSITE CONCERNING DBSK/JAEJOONG WHICH NEVER SEEMS TO HAPPEN TILL LATELY. KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Like seriously, i need to stop bothering about them. And get back to english songs! Okay.

FAITH

 

You can rest easy tonight -
everything is gonna be alright,
I promise. go to sleep and dream of me tonight.
Everything may not be perfect,
but at least we tried.

 

Hi, i am a happy girl today :) I bought jaejoong's 'FAITH' shirt AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I DIDN'T KNOW IT'S STILL SELLING IN SINGAPORE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OMG IM SO HAPPYYYYYYYYY.

K im talking to winnie now and mirotic is in the background AHHHHHHHHHHHHH ITS SO AWESOME. HAHAHAHAHAHA. K.

BYE.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

*WARNING* KOREAN RANT

 

If you have this immense dislike of korea/ kpop/ dbsk/ jaejoong, i suggest you do not read this post because HAHA i need to clear my head of DBSK thoughts for awhile so that i can SLEEP IN PEACE !@#$

Okay. Firstly, even though Junsu and Yoochun are like, the ugliest or smth, i think junsu is pretty cute now. And downright hilarious during their bigeaststation episodes. Hahaha therefore, i like (in order starting with the one i like the most first) Jaejoong, Changmin and then Junsu. Haha Yunho is oooooooookay and yoochun has a sexxxxyyyy voice

BUT JAEJOONG IS STILL THE BEST/ HOTTEST. TO-DIE-FOR HOTNESS.

My goshhhhhhh. It sucks that they're having all this lawsuit disputes but ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH (LOL) Seriously someone kill me now.

Their mirotic vid compared to ballons is suuuuuuuuuuper suuuuuuuuuper xtremely different okay. I thought dbsk and tvxq were two different groups when i realised that they are all the same! HAHAHAHAHA.

k when i go bkk i shall buy all the dbsk vids i see. Esp the All About DBSK seaons and stuff. Hahaha.

-- K RANT OVER --

Now, if you didn't give a shit about a single word i wrote in the above, and just skipped the whole chunk of words, say 'aye!' LOL.

I bet everyone did. SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD. More more more people should know about jaejoong + DBSK :( hahahahahahahhaa.

Oh dear.

K highlights of my life.........................................

  1. I watched new moon.
  2. I am super broke.
  3. I have no idea where is my hol hw.
  4. I am still surviving w/o a maid.
  5. I bought PLIMSOLES (HAHA JOYCE!)
  6. I skipped church camp.
  7. I don't think i regret skipping it.
  8. I hate my ______.

 

Yes. I think the 8 points were more boring than my korean rant so if you want you can still scroll up to read the rant HAHA but i doubt so you'd do that. Okay goodnight.

ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH! HAHAHAHAHAHA Okay it kinda creeps me out when i say that but nvm.

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Haha

 

Knowing there is a secret,
is to know half the secret.

 

Day 1 w/o a maid, is pretty much hectic. I realised my dad can't boil water and my mom has totally forgotten how to cook. My brother needs to wear gloves to carry the plates out to the dining table, and i take 9827342394738 hours to peel a hard boiled egg for my dog.

But we're getting along just fine.

Oh and my dog is probably suicidal. He eats the crab shells that we accidentally drop and he goes behing the tv where all the power switches and wires are, hoping to get elctocuted or smth.

Besides that, shopping tmr omg can't wait :D yayzzzz.

I'm so sorry but i love you da geo jis mar

 

I want to stay as close to the edge as I can
without going over.
Out on the edge,
you see all kinds of things you can't see from the center.

 

Omg bigbang is really really good. Their lyrics are like forever stuck in my head! Haha but of course, they can't and can never beat dbsk :)

Apparently if i post 'always keep the faith' here it would be suuuuper cliche because almost every 800,000 fan from cassie would be posting that up on their blogs but okay, i shall surrender and admit i am a hardcore dbsk diehard fan.

ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH

LOL

right. My files are all back yay! But i'm like using windows7 now which kinda suck. In my opinion. At least i can make the sidebars and stuff pink but other than that......................................

My friends have all been shipped off to camp! :) HAHAHAHHA. Yay i shall enjoy my freedom while it lasts. HAHA. :)

K sale on monday! YAY. My maid is going back for one week so i think i will just die..........

I'M SO SORRY BUT I LOVE YOU DA GEO JIS MAR
I ya mor rass eo i je ya ar ass eo ne ga pir yo hae

Friday, December 04, 2009

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

OKAY.

Every picture i have ever saved, recieved, every song i have ever listened to, every dbsk/jaejoong vid i have ever seen,

IS GONE.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

MY COM IS STRIPPED OFF OF ALL IT'S FILES/FOLDERS FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK.

Dinner <3

 

I just want to go to sleep
but you want to carry grudges.
Nine times out of ten,
I see the storm approaching long before the rain starts falling

 

I seem to be blogging super regularly now. Maybe it's cuz i only get out of the house at night for dinners etc. But anyway,

I can't believe i watched k vids (specifically jjoong's) till 5am in the morning.

Damn..........

Ah, Joyce should rush back now to brainwash me back to my i-love-indie-hate-mainstream-ENGLISH-songs self. !@#$

Okay it's probably a few more hours till i get out of the house again (yay) hahaha i shall get ready now and avoid being late. Yayzz 3 cheers for dinners at going out at night YAYZ.

JAEJOONG SPEAKS!

 

I don't do crowds, I'd like to have company during thunderstorms,
I'd like you to fall for me but it would soon turn lousy and wrong,
I meant what I said, I don't want money, I just want to be wonderful.

 

I'm sad to say that Haru Haru has been repeating through my mind, and the korean words which i forgot, my brain just made up some gibberish to fit into the song. HAHAHAHA so it was quite weird, listening to my rendition of Haru Haru haha.

Highlight of the day- dinner at sushi tei. It was extremely funny hahahaha and i think everyone got sick of me complaining about DBSK disbanding (which i think is extremely likely) .. and i was xxxxxxxxxxtremely sad okay! I've just started liking them for like what- 2 days? And i had to swaysway chose a going-to-disband-band.

Saaaaaaad. Really sad.

Okay bye i will download more jjoong vids into my goingtokillme iphone. Can't wait for Sat.

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

Haru Haru

 

Everybody sing like it’s the last song you will ever sing
Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure now?
Everybody live like it’s the last day you will ever see
Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure now?

My holiday has been awesome, like seriously. Regardless of the ridiculous amount of pracs we had, the fellowship was damn fun HAHA. It was a really awesome break and..............

I had to take back my words about korean music (KILL ME KILL ME KILL ME)

Because, i like jaejoong and DBSK and stuff like that you get the drift. Ahhhhhhhhhh.

Cycling yesterday was like cycling the first time and i think it'd be decades before we ever go cycling again, but escape is up next! Yay i'm a happy girl :)

 

Monday, November 30, 2009

I'm only gonna break break your break break your heart

Woah Woah

Now listen to me baby
Before i love and leave you
They call me heart breaker
I don't wanna decieve you

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I'mma tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. (x4)

Now listen to me baby
Before i love and leave you
They call me heart breaker
I don't wanna decieve you

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I'mma tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. (x4)

Woah woah

Theres not point trying to hide it
No point trying to erase me
I know i got a problem
By doing this behavour

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I'mma tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart. (x4)

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Macaroons

 

Where do i sign up for another empty thrill?
The present is nonexistent, the future is the past.
The black on black and shades of gray are failing to contrast.
So watch me as I fall away from everything I should be.
My hopes and dreams present themselves,
but I can barely see.

 

I'm a super happy girl today :) I LOVE MACAROOOOOOOOOOONS :D

Haha i love the rose flavour omg their so awesome! I tried all the flavours but apparently there's more in the states (as usual). Saaaad.

The coming week will be a busybusy one. However, unlike all my other busybusy weeks, this week will be full of fun :D can't wait can't wait! I'm going to escape! (Technically) :)

Heeheeeeeee. Okay my happiness will fade off tmr but in the meantime,

I LOVE MACAROONS :D

TGIF

 

I'll find what i'm looking for,
someday

 

Somehow i feel scared for that guy w the whale. Like i feel scared for everything else in my life. I love the holidays. I really really do. And i've also decided that i think you are one big fat joke :)

I wanna escape. Book a chalet. Ride bikes for 5 hours straight. Laugh. Stay up the whole night. Be happy :) Take all these things and put them on repeat forever. Forever would be fine.

Okay i saw this picture that lists exactly 10 of my fav things and instead of posting it up, i shall type it out for you :)

  1. Sleeping in your own bed after you've been away
  2. When you make someone else's day
  3. Being sent mail
  4. Listening to your fav songs on repeat
  5. When you arrive just as the bus is pulling up
  6. People who just 'get' you
  7. Finding things you thought you had lost
  8. Checking the time and it's exactly 11:11
  9. Making it home just before it rains
  10.  Waking up to text messages from friends

 

I love no.8. It never fails to excite me and give me a headrush from thinking to fast about my wish. Which btw, always comes true except for 11:11 of 11/11 haha. I think that's like a reverse effect :O but nevertheless... :)

Oh and Kpop is........ getting better :) Lee Byung Hun! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Cycle

 

Jesus, I pray
Take all my mistakes
Throw them away
Destroy them for my sake

 

I'm ducking exhausted okay. Today was just one rush after another and i seriously, seriously have this affinity for birds okay. I saw this super colourful bird it was like red and blue and it was just standing near the handbell room motionless.

Obviously i thought it was injured right.

And then when i got my teacher up, the stupid bird 'woke up' and flew away. Stupid bird.

Okay i'm so tired i'm going to sleep now. Hope tmr will be a perfect day :)

Oh and i've decided to start trying to attend Sunday service again. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I am so proud of myself. LOL. Interesting.........................

OH and my bro made me create an aran acc. Great. Hi maple, we meet again.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Shawty's like the melody in my head

 

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star?
One without a permanent scar
And then you missed me
While you were looking for yourself out there?

 

OH! I went to watch The Christmas Carol on saturday! With pig, celine and hazel (Hazel's back yay!). Haha I think i was the only one who enjoyed it okay i can't understand why they find it weird/stupid/boring.

We went to eat manhatten fish market and we spent 2hrs and 30mins there like WTH. Hahahaha but it was DAMN FUNNY. We played.. truth or dare and we found out pig's 10 years-down-the-road profession :D And then...... Celine was being stupid and made me swap fish with hers cuz apparently mine was bigger......... AND HAZEL'S A VEGETARIAN OMG! Okay a to-be-vegetarian. Sha, i should intro you to her :D

Then we played some alphabetical artists game which was also hilarious and idk why our laughter was so loud. Oh and i discovered why lemons are served with fish (it's quite stupid actually)

--

Sunday was boring. Or is boring, whichever. There's hb tmr, and then double tuition. SAAAAAAAD.

New playlist! I've got a new fav playlist! But it only consists of 2 songs :(

Drops of jupiter- Train
REPLAY- SEAN KINGSTON

OMG I LOVE REPLAY HAHAHAHAHAHA ITS DAMN ADDICTIVE! Okay. I have been missing from onsugar for pretty long so.................. haha im back! And no, i didn't play maple 24/7 (unlike deanna and von) until i stopped onsugaring. I was just....... hiatusing heehee.

--

SHAWTY'S LIKE THE MELODY IN MY HEAD
THAT I CAN'T KEEP OUT
GOT ME SINGIN' LIKE
NA NA NA NA EVERYDAY
IT'S LIKE MY IPOD STUCK ON REPLAY

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Gone away

I think i'll be gone, away, awhile.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Complex

 

I know that I've been dancing around the truth.
Tell me what the hell I'm suppose to do.
And I, I'm a little bit agitated with a slight scent of denial.

 

Please disregard the bottom part of the previous post. Meant nothing i was just choking on 'what if(s)' and 'what could've been(s)'. I'm just a sucker for possibilities and happy endings which by the way, never do come true.

Besides, i've had my chance, i didn't grab it, time to let go now.

--

And whats that saying again,
They're only words
and words can't kill me
Well, I can't even spell them
and cadence to what she says is well.

Let's talk about spaceships,
or anything
except you and me
Okay?

--

Time to be busy. No time to think, definitely no time to feel.

Paranormal Activity

 

I'll keep this short cuz it's really late and i just came home and i'm exhausted. I caught paranormal activity OMGGGG! So, super, scary okay. And it was so dizzy i almost puke. Or rather, could feel the bile rise up my throat.

BUT STILL V V V SCARED WHEN SHE GOT DRAGGED OUT OF BED BY SOME FORCE EEEW. SERIOUSLY.

Interesting day! Hmmmmm :)

--

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling

But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about you
I don’t know what to do

--

Yes super cliche song i know but so v v v v true and applicable at this point of time ;) HMMMMMMMM :D
I think I’m fallin’ for you

Monday, November 16, 2009

Stereo Skyline

 

For every grain of sand, that you drew me pictures in.
Yeah there was one for every time that my heart dropped again.

 

Busy + Procrastination = Fked consqeuences. Yes, fked.

I've got this insane craving for brownies and muffins and cupcakes.

There's hb tmr, and then i'm (hopefully) gonna catch paranormal activity OMG. Hahaha! If nothing goes wrong, that is. I hope nothing goes wrong. The trailer for it looks pretty awesome so.. heehee can't wait.

I've decided (yes it's been left to my decision) that i'm not going for church camp. As fun as it seems, as promising as it sounds, there's just been too many unforseen events happening this year and i'm not ready to give up 4 days and 3 nights playing mindless games, bonding with the youths and worse- the pre-jitters of my camp group.

Honestly, i don't know where my life is heading to. I sense a brick wall coming up and i think i'd need a lot more than plastic surgery to pick myself up again. That is, if the brick wall ever comes. 

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Your heart is an empty room

 

Then looking upwards I strain my eyes and try
To tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home.

 

I didnt even see it, but the wave came and crashed. To compare myself with a broken boat will be far off and an exaggeration, for I dont think this is broken. But Im pretty sure this is drifting.

Actually, I should have seen it coming, no?

This morning felt like a bomb, a little ripple effect, a little dejavu and too familiar for comfort. I cannot expect anything out of anyone at all. Because expecting anything out of anyone would be redundant.

People come, give you false hope then crush you by vanishing in an instant. Thats all people do.

I'm sorry i've wasted good pictures. Then again, why feel sorry when you can feel so much more?

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Chrismukkah, rooney

 

Kirsten: We didn't really know how to raise Seth.
Seth: Yeah. So I raised myself. And in doing so, I created the greatest superholiday known to mankind. Drawing on the best that Christianity and Judaism have to offer.
Ryan: And you call it Chrismukkah?

 

I am tired. Do you know how inadequate I feel, to give so much but still its barely enough to be worth something. So here I am, in a oversized shirt that covers my knees if I bring them to my chin, curling my toes and waiting to be remembered. By anybody, anyone. Anyone?

--

As you can see, I really wanna go to the beach. Unfortunately it's gonna be a bit impossible due to the CONSTANT, PREDICTABLE weather of our dear sunny singapore, or rather lack thereof but i'll find a way. Waves, sand, sea, whatever. I'll get there.

The OC craze is still going strong. Besides, the soundtrack is awesome. I discovered ROONEY! I know i'm a bit slow but their slow songs are really nice. Listen to 'Tell me soon'. It's nice.

Okay bye :) I'm not as bored ( like some people i know ) and won't mindlessly rant on my blog SO.... happy saturday night! Whatever you're doing. Just remember, school is coming, O's are coming and probably before you know it, i'll be dead.

Yes read the woes of my jaded heart, go on.

--

You want it all, dear
A life for fairy tales
You had it all, dear
I can't give you anymore

Friday, November 13, 2009

The OC

 

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones

 

My new current obsession : The OC. Mischa Barton is so pretty omg. And seth and summer are so cute together! :) Adam Brody is hotttt. Hahaha

--

Sandy: Since the minute you were born I knew I would never take another easy breath without knowing that you were all right.

Seth: So I'm like asthma?

--

HAHAHAHHAHA hilarious okay bye im gonna watch more!