Oh, it is love

Time is short and it doesn’t return again.
It is slipping away while I write this and while you read it,
and the monosyllable of the clock is
Loss, loss, loss,
unless you devote your heart to its opposition.

Jx, don't kill me!

Oh, it is love

Time is short and it doesn’t return again.
It is slipping away while I write this and while you read it,
and the monosyllable of the clock is
Loss, loss, loss,
unless you devote your heart to its opposition.

Jx, don't kill me!

Sound of settling

The friend who holds your hand and says the wrong things
is made of dearer stuff than the one who stays away.

Friday, Science comp thing (photos are on fb) and i caught Night at the Museum. Oh and i got addicted to taptap revenge. And fell back in love with DCFC again :)

Saturday, lunching + shopping with Sarah got cancelled :( But i went out with my grandma (HAHA i love her to bits i tell you) even though she made me mad like crazy. But in the end she felt bad and decided to get me the bag anyway. Even if she didn't do that, i'd still love her :)

And then After like 7 months, i took neoprints again. Twice for that fact. So totally uncalled for but actually looking back now, i think jx is right and it's for memory's sake.

Sunday(today), gave church a miss (sigh) and went to the new tampanese mall. And bought some hoodie thing from uniqlo and it's comfortable like hell. Makes you feel like you ain't wearing anything at all HAHA.

Okay i feel pissed now. Byebye i'm gonna blog l8er. At 12 or smth :)

Photos will be up in the next post :D + the links to the album on FB which is screwing up.

Sound of settling

The friend who holds your hand and says the wrong things
is made of dearer stuff than the one who stays away.

Friday, Science comp thing (photos are on fb) and i caught Night at the Museum. Oh and i got addicted to taptap revenge. And fell back in love with DCFC again :)

Saturday, lunching + shopping with Sarah got cancelled :( But i went out with my grandma (HAHA i love her to bits i tell you) even though she made me mad like crazy. But in the end she felt bad and decided to get me the bag anyway. Even if she didn't do that, i'd still love her :)

And then After like 7 months, i took neoprints again. Twice for that fact. So totally uncalled for but actually looking back now, i think jx is right and it's for memory's sake.

Sunday(today), gave church a miss (sigh) and went to the new tampanese mall. And bought some hoodie thing from uniqlo and it's comfortable like hell. Makes you feel like you ain't wearing anything at all HAHA.

Okay i feel pissed now. Byebye i'm gonna blog l8er. At 12 or smth :)

Photos will be up in the next post :D + the links to the album on FB which is screwing up.

Lost

We say we love flowers, yet we pluck them.
We say we love trees, yet we cut them down.
And some people still wonder why some are afraid
when they are told they are loved.

Where is my life going?

I have this gut feeling it's going down the drain.

Well, I am lost. I suppose it's good advice to stay where you are until somebody finds you. But who'd ever think to look for me here?

Lost

We say we love flowers, yet we pluck them.
We say we love trees, yet we cut them down.
And some people still wonder why some are afraid
when they are told they are loved.

Where is my life going?

I have this gut feeling it's going down the drain.

Well, I am lost. I suppose it's good advice to stay where you are until somebody finds you. But who'd ever think to look for me here?

Knock you down

He wanted her,
she'd never tell :
Secretly she, wanted him as well

Today was one big blur. Can't really remember what i did today cept for Macs but other than that, i refuse to think back further because- simply, i am exhausted.

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down. Just get back up when it knocks you down. Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down. Just get back up when it knocks you down, knocks you down.

After 2 terms, i'm drained. Too many memories- good, bad, too much work too much pressure too much stress, too many tears too many sulks, never enough laughs or smiles. Thank God after 2 terms we finally fit into places we know we belong to. In the beginning it was one big mess and now we've got it all sorted.

I love the people i go with now in school and aye, (this part of the post has been deleted due to inappropraite content)

Okay i'm officially sick of school and i can't wait for tomorrow to be over, seriously.

Byebye maybe i'd mass upload pics tmr or Fri, cuz yknow, it's like the last day before the v.much anticipated long awaited i-never-thought-this-day-would-come JUNE HOLS. :)

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face

I used to be commander and chief
Of my pimp ship flyin' high, flyin' high

Knock you down

He wanted her,
she'd never tell :
Secretly she, wanted him as well

Today was one big blur. Can't really remember what i did today cept for Macs but other than that, i refuse to think back further because- simply, i am exhausted.

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down. Just get back up when it knocks you down. Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down. Just get back up when it knocks you down, knocks you down.

After 2 terms, i'm drained. Too many memories- good, bad, too much work too much pressure too much stress, too many tears too many sulks, never enough laughs or smiles. Thank God after 2 terms we finally fit into places we know we belong to. In the beginning it was one big mess and now we've got it all sorted.

I love the people i go with now in school and aye, (this part of the post has been deleted due to inappropraite content)

Okay i'm officially sick of school and i can't wait for tomorrow to be over, seriously.

Byebye maybe i'd mass upload pics tmr or Fri, cuz yknow, it's like the last day before the v.much anticipated long awaited i-never-thought-this-day-would-come JUNE HOLS. :)

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face

I used to be commander and chief
Of my pimp ship flyin' high, flyin' high

Sound

We must stop sleeping.
We better wake up before we start drowning.
You know we lie to ourselves, we lie to ourselves.

By all means, today pwns everyday since pre/post CTs. Seriously, we trooped off to the Science Center to do funfun stuff (wayyy better than bio and Emath, by a million miles). And we learnt many new kewl things too!

And finally after complaining for so v.long, i've got the same epiphany as 2006's, that is the fact that i would only go to school for friends, and friends alone. If they're not going to sch, don't even think about making me go there either. It's hell but it's better when they're around, so much better.

I did rather horribly for this term's CTs, and combined with last term's, i think horribly won't even be enough of a word to cover the extent of how badly i did.

Handbells today was rather.........................., HAHA sarah, (JESSICA JESSICA JESSICA) + PHOEBE = ISABEL + F^infinity. It's so disgusting la. Can't stand it. I don't want to go for HB camp anymore. It will so. totally. ruin. the. 3rd. week. of. my. June hol. Go stick your finger up ur S. Tsk(!)

K bye the weather in Singapore is enough to sublimate 3 eggs into the atmosphere, let alone fry them. I am so moving to Mongolia because http://www.aneki.com/sparsely.html it is kinda sparsely populated so..

(ps : i like sparsely populated coutries because we don't have to fight for the bare neccesities of life. Oh and there's no Wi Fi, hence my decision to isolate myself from self-created-inflicted problems of the urban life i am currently living in.

I will depart for Mongolia with my Passion Fruit Body Butter from Bodyshop, (Bread, chicken, chickenpaos), my dog, and Stickys which Fed Ex will send to me via air mail.

and Sashimi. For men cannot live by bread alone.)

Sound

We must stop sleeping.
We better wake up before we start drowning.
You know we lie to ourselves, we lie to ourselves.

By all means, today pwns everyday since pre/post CTs. Seriously, we trooped off to the Science Center to do funfun stuff (wayyy better than bio and Emath, by a million miles). And we learnt many new kewl things too!

And finally after complaining for so v.long, i've got the same epiphany as 2006's, that is the fact that i would only go to school for friends, and friends alone. If they're not going to sch, don't even think about making me go there either. It's hell but it's better when they're around, so much better.

I did rather horribly for this term's CTs, and combined with last term's, i think horribly won't even be enough of a word to cover the extent of how badly i did.

Handbells today was rather.........................., HAHA sarah, (JESSICA JESSICA JESSICA) + PHOEBE = ISABEL + F^infinity. It's so disgusting la. Can't stand it. I don't want to go for HB camp anymore. It will so. totally. ruin. the. 3rd. week. of. my. June hol. Go stick your finger up ur S. Tsk(!)

K bye the weather in Singapore is enough to sublimate 3 eggs into the atmosphere, let alone fry them. I am so moving to Mongolia because http://www.aneki.com/sparsely.html it is kinda sparsely populated so..

(ps : i like sparsely populated coutries because we don't have to fight for the bare neccesities of life. Oh and there's no Wi Fi, hence my decision to isolate myself from self-created-inflicted problems of the urban life i am currently living in.

I will depart for Mongolia with my Passion Fruit Body Butter from Bodyshop, (Bread, chicken, chickenpaos), my dog, and Stickys which Fed Ex will send to me via air mail.

and Sashimi. For men cannot live by bread alone.)

Dead and gone

Oh, really? When I buy a new book,

I read the last page first.

That way,

in case I die before I finish,

I know how it ends.

That, my friend, is a dark side.

Oh, I've been travelin on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone dead and gone

Oh I ve been travelin on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone dead and gone

Dead and gone

Oh, really? When I buy a new book,

I read the last page first.

That way,

in case I die before I finish,

I know how it ends.

That, my friend, is a dark side.

Oh, I've been travelin on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone dead and gone

Oh I ve been travelin on this road too long
Just trying to find my way back home
The old me is dead and gone dead and gone

ZooBaboonWhiteTigerKFC

I wish, and wish with all my might,
that sha won't come online tonight.

Haha Sha i know you so desperately wanna tag me as the swollen-butt babboon in your pics but can't you pause for a while, and do a little thinking of how i would feel :(

Anyway, i'm craving for KFC now though i'm settling for comfort food (nutella) and mapling doesn't really ease the anguish of having nothing to do. ANTM in an hour's time, can't wait.

Oh and i went to the zoo today. Things to note :

1. Isabel is not a baboon, neither is she related to one.
2. Sha is a baboon who ate pork sauced cheese fries.
3. Sha should not post any pics tagged 'isabel' in relation to the baboons.
4. Baboons have swollen butts when their ready to mate and it's damn disgusting.
5. Sylvia should remove the picture and caption from her blog (re-emphasize point 1)
6. Everyone should send me pics that we took in the zoo.

ZooBaboonWhiteTigerKFC

I wish, and wish with all my might,
that sha won't come online tonight.

Haha Sha i know you so desperately wanna tag me as the swollen-butt babboon in your pics but can't you pause for a while, and do a little thinking of how i would feel :(

Anyway, i'm craving for KFC now though i'm settling for comfort food (nutella) and mapling doesn't really ease the anguish of having nothing to do. ANTM in an hour's time, can't wait.

Oh and i went to the zoo today. Things to note :

1. Isabel is not a baboon, neither is she related to one.
2. Sha is a baboon who ate pork sauced cheese fries.
3. Sha should not post any pics tagged 'isabel' in relation to the baboons.
4. Baboons have swollen butts when their ready to mate and it's damn disgusting.
5. Sylvia should remove the picture and caption from her blog (re-emphasize point 1)
6. Everyone should send me pics that we took in the zoo.

Post

Maybe some people just aren't meant to be in our lives forever.
Maybe some people are just passing through.
It's like some people just come through our lives to bring us something.
A gift, a blessing, a lesson we need to learn.
And that's why they're here, you'll have that gift forever.

There's nothing much i can say, really. What's the point. There's no sense in turning thoughts to words because simply- it doesn't change a thing. I guess that's just the way life is. In that case, isn't it correct to say that, well- nothing really matters?

Maybe some people just aren't meant to be in our lives forever.
Maybe some people are just passing through.
It's like some people just come through our lives to bring us something.
A gift, a blessing, a lesson we need to learn.
And that's why they're here, you'll have that gift forever.

There's nothing much i can say, really. What's the point. There's no sense in turning thoughts to words because simply- it doesn't change a thing. I guess that's just the way life is. In that case, isn't it correct to say that, well- nothing really matters?

Aubrey

Saturday was Hilarious

After p6 open house, Sylvia and i went to find Jx to eat. And we stumbled upon a fatass bird sitting on the top of the steps. And thanks to my kind and loving and compassionate heart, i wanted to bring it to the vet or smth, so i asked sylvia to carry it since i hated things that pecked.

HAHA then she took my empty milo cup and shoved the bird inside. And held it upright while the fat bird was like upside down.

Okay nvm that was like, an excerpt of the beginning of the bird's life. So on the way to lunch, they tried giving it names but they didn't fit. Oh and it shitted green poop on Jiaxuan's hand HAHAHA.

And in the end, sylvia brought it home and thus named it Aubrey. I think that's rather ingenius! Anyway, i miss Aubrey but apparently she eats fruits :)

The play was fine.

I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar.
I've never made a bet, but we gamble with desire.
I've never lit a match with intent to start a fire,
but recently the flames are getting out of control.

Today was absolute epitome of Tiredness. Half the time my eyelids were closed and it took twice the amount of effort each time to try and open my eyes. It was pure torture. Hated today like shit. Don't think i'll like tomorrow either.

Monday blues + CIP @ (the freaking) zoo = Dying.

I miss girlfie. I miss mich. This is. so. depressing....................................

K bye i'm gonna bathe and then sleep. Today sucked.

Aubrey

Saturday was Hilarious

After p6 open house, Sylvia and i went to find Jx to eat. And we stumbled upon a fatass bird sitting on the top of the steps. And thanks to my kind and loving and compassionate heart, i wanted to bring it to the vet or smth, so i asked sylvia to carry it since i hated things that pecked.

HAHA then she took my empty milo cup and shoved the bird inside. And held it upright while the fat bird was like upside down.

Okay nvm that was like, an excerpt of the beginning of the bird's life. So on the way to lunch, they tried giving it names but they didn't fit. Oh and it shitted green poop on Jiaxuan's hand HAHAHA.

And in the end, sylvia brought it home and thus named it Aubrey. I think that's rather ingenius! Anyway, i miss Aubrey but apparently she eats fruits :)

The play was fine.

I've never told a lie, and that makes me a liar.
I've never made a bet, but we gamble with desire.
I've never lit a match with intent to start a fire,
but recently the flames are getting out of control.

Today was absolute epitome of Tiredness. Half the time my eyelids were closed and it took twice the amount of effort each time to try and open my eyes. It was pure torture. Hated today like shit. Don't think i'll like tomorrow either.

Monday blues + CIP @ (the freaking) zoo = Dying.

I miss girlfie. I miss mich. This is. so. depressing....................................

K bye i'm gonna bathe and then sleep. Today sucked.

AAR

Everyone says that love hurts, but thats not true.
Loneliness hurts, rejection hurts, losing someone hurts, envy hurts.
Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality,
Love is the only thing in this world that covers up
All the pain and makes someone feel wonderful again.

Things to do tmr :

1. Go for the supermegaultra-boring p6 open house.
2. Go for lunch with love(s).
3. Go home and get ready.
4. Go out to meet Joyce for shopping/flea (not confirmed)
5. Go and watch a play.
6. Go for supper.
7. Go home.
8. Go call bayb

My life is so boring. Maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks.

Oh and im addicted to hellogoodbye and AAR. Especially hellogoodbye.

AAR

Everyone says that love hurts, but thats not true.
Loneliness hurts, rejection hurts, losing someone hurts, envy hurts.
Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality,
Love is the only thing in this world that covers up
All the pain and makes someone feel wonderful again.

Things to do tmr :

1. Go for the supermegaultra-boring p6 open house.
2. Go for lunch with love(s).
3. Go home and get ready.
4. Go out to meet Joyce for shopping/flea (not confirmed)
5. Go and watch a play.
6. Go for supper.
7. Go home.
8. Go call bayb

My life is so boring. Maple sucks maple sucks maple sucks.

Oh and im addicted to hellogoodbye and AAR. Especially hellogoodbye.

It's as simple as that

Baby, it's fact
That our love is true
The way black is black
And blue is just blue

My love is true
It's a matter of fact
Oh, and you love me too
It's as simple as that

It's as simple as that

It's as simple as that

Baby, it's fact
That our love is true
The way black is black
And blue is just blue

My love is true
It's a matter of fact
Oh, and you love me too
It's as simple as that

It's as simple as that

I love you

"Can you say it twice? (laughs) No, I'm serious, say it twice."
"I love you, I love you, I love you."

I hate maple. It's having a long patch during my 3x + my 80%. Actually i don't even know why i'm playing but, yeah.

My results have been nothing but shit so far. But at least i passed like, more than half of my subs so Thank God :)

K bye i'm off to watch AI even though i knew Kris won since like, 11 in the morning. Totally ruined the rest of my day. Like whatthehell, Adam should've won. But (i think) Adam's songs will top Kris songs on charts in time to come. Yay Adam!

(EDIT)I didn't go to school today and i still rather like that picture above so i switched the words and editted the post and bye, i'm gonna writh in agony.(/EDIT)

I love you

"Can you say it twice? (laughs) No, I'm serious, say it twice."
"I love you, I love you, I love you."

I hate maple. It's having a long patch during my 3x + my 80%. Actually i don't even know why i'm playing but, yeah.

My results have been nothing but shit so far. But at least i passed like, more than half of my subs so Thank God :)

K bye i'm off to watch AI even though i knew Kris won since like, 11 in the morning. Totally ruined the rest of my day. Like whatthehell, Adam should've won. But (i think) Adam's songs will top Kris songs on charts in time to come. Yay Adam!

(EDIT)I didn't go to school today and i still rather like that picture above so i switched the words and editted the post and bye, i'm gonna writh in agony.(/EDIT)

MAPLE SUCKS

Yknow this realllllyyyyy sucks cuz i can't get into maple. SUCK SUCK SUCK.

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MAPLE SUCKS

Yknow this realllllyyyyy sucks cuz i can't get into maple. SUCK SUCK SUCK.

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I need to get some sleep, pronto. Falling asleep during dinner does not help. Lets watch red thread and wait for maple spawn and zzzzzzzzzz. Did i mention, i feel numb?

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I need to get some sleep, pronto. Falling asleep during dinner does not help. Lets watch red thread and wait for maple spawn and zzzzzzzzzz. Did i mention, i feel numb?

I keep memories in bottled jars

Love triangles;

A triangle's not a friendly shape.

It's a point, it has sharp edges, triangles hurt people.

Chemistry was so expected, yet still v.shocking. I guess i couldn't get over the fact that i actually studied, like studied (yknow i don't study much) for it and i could still fail. Big Fat Fail.

But it's okay. After school helped, a bit. Went back to Psch with Celine, von and kelly. And i laughed like, a lot. Too bad i couldn't fulfill my purpose for going there, but i think deep down in all their dark hearts, they should know the truth themselves :D

Anyway, left at bout 3+ 4 and bus ride back with Celine was like major secret spill HAHA. But at least i know she believes me. And anyway i haven't seen her for the longest time already. Her earrings are so gay! HAHA.

K see that thing below that says (Here, love), it's actually a cut. So if i post something that's hidden in my front page you can actually see it there. If you click it. But usually i'll tell you if i will. And for this post, i will :)

We triped the light
And danced together to the moon,
But where was June.
No it never came around.
If it did it never made a sound,
Maybe I was absent or was listening to fast,
Batching all the words,
But then the meaning going past,

I keep memories in bottled jars

Love triangles;

A triangle's not a friendly shape.

It's a point, it has sharp edges, triangles hurt people.

Chemistry was so expected, yet still v.shocking. I guess i couldn't get over the fact that i actually studied, like studied (yknow i don't study much) for it and i could still fail. Big Fat Fail.

But it's okay. After school helped, a bit. Went back to Psch with Celine, von and kelly. And i laughed like, a lot. Too bad i couldn't fulfill my purpose for going there, but i think deep down in all their dark hearts, they should know the truth themselves :D

Anyway, left at bout 3+ 4 and bus ride back with Celine was like major secret spill HAHA. But at least i know she believes me. And anyway i haven't seen her for the longest time already. Her earrings are so gay! HAHA.

K see that thing below that says (Here, love), it's actually a cut. So if i post something that's hidden in my front page you can actually see it there. If you click it. But usually i'll tell you if i will. And for this post, i will :)

We triped the light
And danced together to the moon,
But where was June.
No it never came around.
If it did it never made a sound,
Maybe I was absent or was listening to fast,
Batching all the words,
But then the meaning going past,

OMG YAY

I FINALLY, know how to

do LJ cut on BLOGGER. Kbye i'm gonna zzzz

OMG YAY

I FINALLY, know how to

do LJ cut on BLOGGER. Kbye i'm gonna zzzz

For a love that wouldn't bloom

Clean up the mess and sleep the day away.
When you call, I might be here I might be gone.
But here at the sound of the bells you cry you've lost your mind.
But dear, don't be sad.. it's just a dream you dreamt you had.

I went back to mapling. LOL haha they have SG town and M'sia town and all the retarded monsters. And tmr i'm going back to visit P sch. Is this some kind of memory week? Haha but i guess i need it. A good break from everything.

Today was fine, i didn't collect most of the papers back, yet. Tomorrow will be it haha! Chem + Emath + Lit. Kill me :(

Kbye my ANTM starts in another 2 hours +- :(

For a love that wouldn't bloom

Clean up the mess and sleep the day away.
When you call, I might be here I might be gone.
But here at the sound of the bells you cry you've lost your mind.
But dear, don't be sad.. it's just a dream you dreamt you had.

I went back to mapling. LOL haha they have SG town and M'sia town and all the retarded monsters. And tmr i'm going back to visit P sch. Is this some kind of memory week? Haha but i guess i need it. A good break from everything.

Today was fine, i didn't collect most of the papers back, yet. Tomorrow will be it haha! Chem + Emath + Lit. Kill me :(

Kbye my ANTM starts in another 2 hours +- :(

She said

It's thinking about all the memories and smiles.
It's thinking about all the sundrops and Sunday mornings, things we both love.
It's all the thinking I do, and knowing that I'll never have any of.
I could have it, but I won't.

I refuse to say it. I refuse to purge my blog and taint it with that 3 word phrase. I condemn the initials IMY and i will never, ever say that i do. Never again.

I need to get a life. More specifically, i need to get a new lover. One that would fly me to Boston, where no one knows my name.

School is beginning to scare me, let alone haunt me. 3 papers to be collected tomorrow, i'm bringing my tissue box and my Boyfriend Replacement Emergency Chocolate Kit (yes it exists) which i bought from Boarders and anyway, i figured failling is as good as breaking up so, what the hell.

This is going to be one hell of a week. Collecting papers and music practical tmr, Tuesday going back to revisit memories (LOL not that bad) I predict Tuesday will be full of fun and laughter but anyway.

Monsters inc, kbye!

She said

It's thinking about all the memories and smiles.
It's thinking about all the sundrops and Sunday mornings, things we both love.
It's all the thinking I do, and knowing that I'll never have any of.
I could have it, but I won't.

I refuse to say it. I refuse to purge my blog and taint it with that 3 word phrase. I condemn the initials IMY and i will never, ever say that i do. Never again.

I need to get a life. More specifically, i need to get a new lover. One that would fly me to Boston, where no one knows my name.

School is beginning to scare me, let alone haunt me. 3 papers to be collected tomorrow, i'm bringing my tissue box and my Boyfriend Replacement Emergency Chocolate Kit (yes it exists) which i bought from Boarders and anyway, i figured failling is as good as breaking up so, what the hell.

This is going to be one hell of a week. Collecting papers and music practical tmr, Tuesday going back to revisit memories (LOL not that bad) I predict Tuesday will be full of fun and laughter but anyway.

Monsters inc, kbye!

You're just a sad song

A warning to the curious, a message for the meek,
It's better not to be in love, than to be in between.

I should be sleeping now so i can wake up on time for service tomorrow but i can't sleep. Don't know why, don't wanna know why either.

Friday- caught a midnight show, wolverine (again). Even after watching it twice, i still love it. Saturday- (Today), went to town in the early afternoon, bought a pair of DKNY sandals and my m.a.c lippie. +3 lip balms from paper chase which i am currently obsessed over.

I ran out of lipton tea :(

Okay so going back to my DKNY sandals, THEY ARE DAMN HOT. EPITOME OF HOTNESS. LIKE, IT'S LIKE NEON PINK AND IT'S DAMN HOT (can't stop stressing on that). I love my m.a.c lippie too! And all my lipbalms.

Maybe the monday blues are getting to me. I need to pass 2 presents to 2 cherished birthday people tomorrow(!). And meet michelle and finally see girlfie. Can't wait can't wait can't wait. I need sashimi pronto :(

K bye i shall just go drown myself with TAI and fall asleep to that Hot voice of his. (LOL)

You're just a sad song

A warning to the curious, a message for the meek,
It's better not to be in love, than to be in between.

I should be sleeping now so i can wake up on time for service tomorrow but i can't sleep. Don't know why, don't wanna know why either.

Friday- caught a midnight show, wolverine (again). Even after watching it twice, i still love it. Saturday- (Today), went to town in the early afternoon, bought a pair of DKNY sandals and my m.a.c lippie. +3 lip balms from paper chase which i am currently obsessed over.

I ran out of lipton tea :(

Okay so going back to my DKNY sandals, THEY ARE DAMN HOT. EPITOME OF HOTNESS. LIKE, IT'S LIKE NEON PINK AND IT'S DAMN HOT (can't stop stressing on that). I love my m.a.c lippie too! And all my lipbalms.

Maybe the monday blues are getting to me. I need to pass 2 presents to 2 cherished birthday people tomorrow(!). And meet michelle and finally see girlfie. Can't wait can't wait can't wait. I need sashimi pronto :(

K bye i shall just go drown myself with TAI and fall asleep to that Hot voice of his. (LOL)

But who's to blame?

"You change them faster than TV dramas do"

She says that one of the cruelest things
you can do to another person,
is pretend that you care about them,
more than you really do.

Some people Somebody is just simply not worth the trouble to care for. And guess what. I finally figured that out.

But who's to blame?

For a love that wouldnt bloom, for the hearts that never played in tune. Like a lovely melody that everyone can sing, take away the words that rhyme it doesnt mean a thing.

But who's to blame?

"You change them faster than TV dramas do"

She says that one of the cruelest things
you can do to another person,
is pretend that you care about them,
more than you really do.

Some people Somebody is just simply not worth the trouble to care for. And guess what. I finally figured that out.

But who's to blame?

For a love that wouldnt bloom, for the hearts that never played in tune. Like a lovely melody that everyone can sing, take away the words that rhyme it doesnt mean a thing.

Post

Maybe i forgot to pre-warn you. Tread me with caution, i take, use and dump, take use and dump, take use and dump, repeat for 5 times and you'll get what i mean. I'm not sorry. I'm just imperfect like that.

Maybe i forgot to pre-warn you. Tread me with caution, i take, use and dump, take use and dump, take use and dump, repeat for 5 times and you'll get what i mean. I'm not sorry. I'm just imperfect like that.

Run, away, with, me

This silence hurts me more than anything you say.
Broken knuckles, broken hearts.
I fell in love then fell apart.
You tried to run, i tried to hide; still we managed to collide.

Fell so hard, matching scars.
Held you close, felt so far.
Hearts beating out of time, you're screaming with no reason or no rhyme.

I didn't do as bad as i thought i did but still, it was horrible. Oh did i mention, my mother called me a horrible creature.

Other than that, today was fine. I'm gonna do my compo and drink lipton tea and watch American Idol and watch friends and drink another cup of lipton tea.

Goodnight, today's post will be short cuz i rarely do feel anything these days. It's all just kinda.............. numb.

Run, away, with, me

This silence hurts me more than anything you say.
Broken knuckles, broken hearts.
I fell in love then fell apart.
You tried to run, i tried to hide; still we managed to collide.

Fell so hard, matching scars.
Held you close, felt so far.
Hearts beating out of time, you're screaming with no reason or no rhyme.

I didn't do as bad as i thought i did but still, it was horrible. Oh did i mention, my mother called me a horrible creature.

Other than that, today was fine. I'm gonna do my compo and drink lipton tea and watch American Idol and watch friends and drink another cup of lipton tea.

Goodnight, today's post will be short cuz i rarely do feel anything these days. It's all just kinda.............. numb.

Paper chase

And yet she still sits there smiling,
regardless of all the fake friends,
and the dreams that were forgotten.
regardless of all the guys she loved and
the hearts that were broken.

I feel better. I feel much better after the dreary afternoon in which thing only thing i ever did was to mope around. Seriously today's school was so tiring but the first part of it was fine. It was after chapel at @ the audi that totally ruined my entire mood/rest of the day. But whatever. I expected it. Just didn't expected myself to get so impacted by it.

And i wanted to go out today :( Haha but the nap really brightened me. The nap + 2 cups of Lipton tea. I've taken a strange liking to lipton milk tea haha. It's as good as hot chocolate actually! I love it.

Oh and this season's Americal Idol is the best shit man. I LOVE ADAM, yes one of the crazy adam-is-so-hot-i-wanna-strip-gurls. But you have to admit, he's really good. Kris was suprisingly good today too! And Danny. Man i love the top 3! But adam will win. I know it.

K bye, off to more sleeping. I'm gonna be nocturnal if i sleep anymore ahaha

Paper chase

And yet she still sits there smiling,
regardless of all the fake friends,
and the dreams that were forgotten.
regardless of all the guys she loved and
the hearts that were broken.

I feel better. I feel much better after the dreary afternoon in which thing only thing i ever did was to mope around. Seriously today's school was so tiring but the first part of it was fine. It was after chapel at @ the audi that totally ruined my entire mood/rest of the day. But whatever. I expected it. Just didn't expected myself to get so impacted by it.

And i wanted to go out today :( Haha but the nap really brightened me. The nap + 2 cups of Lipton tea. I've taken a strange liking to lipton milk tea haha. It's as good as hot chocolate actually! I love it.

Oh and this season's Americal Idol is the best shit man. I LOVE ADAM, yes one of the crazy adam-is-so-hot-i-wanna-strip-gurls. But you have to admit, he's really good. Kris was suprisingly good today too! And Danny. Man i love the top 3! But adam will win. I know it.

K bye, off to more sleeping. I'm gonna be nocturnal if i sleep anymore ahaha

Different

I'm on the verge of collapsing. Yes i'm trying but life is getting too difficult.

Different

I'm on the verge of collapsing. Yes i'm trying but life is getting too difficult.

Hungry hungry

So let's face it this was never what you wanted, but I know it's fun to pretend.
Now blank stares and empty threats are all I have, they're all I have.
There is no easy switch that i can flip to slow the flow of feelings,
no way to drain memories that pool like acid in my stomach,
because my heart no longer knows what to do with them.

Sickeningly, i need comfort food when i study. Which probably explains my cravings of mcwings just now and sashimi yesterday but THANK GOD tomrrow's the last day. Oys can't wait.

It's been raining a lot today. I woke up at 1130 and there was this huge downpour. I think i woke up to the sound of raindrops beating against the glass since my bed is just next to the big windows.

I could hear the hum of the aircon and that comfortable silence that filled my room as i hid under covers. Unable to fall back to sleep, i put my hand on the window and felt the raindrops hitting the other side of the pane. It was so comforting to know that..

there was no school today :)

Amazing- what the joy of knowing that there's no school would bring about. Haha i like grinned widely at the ceiling (it was meant for God as a 'thank you') and i was like chanting happily "Omg there's no school today, there's no school today!" And then i (literally) skipped out of my room and barged into my brother's room and i was like GOOD MORNING ISAAC but he was having a fever so..

I hate school :) I hate every inch of going to school and school itself. And it kills me to know that the day is horribly ending in a terribly fast period of time. Soon it'd be dinner, then ANTM, and then i have to sleep and wake up to the first day of school of the week.

:(

I hope this post is an epiphany for you to come to know and realise what school does to me. (If you don't know by now the answer is : School kills me) but.. i think it's pretty obvious, no?

Hungry hungry

So let's face it this was never what you wanted, but I know it's fun to pretend.
Now blank stares and empty threats are all I have, they're all I have.
There is no easy switch that i can flip to slow the flow of feelings,
no way to drain memories that pool like acid in my stomach,
because my heart no longer knows what to do with them.

Sickeningly, i need comfort food when i study. Which probably explains my cravings of mcwings just now and sashimi yesterday but THANK GOD tomrrow's the last day. Oys can't wait.

It's been raining a lot today. I woke up at 1130 and there was this huge downpour. I think i woke up to the sound of raindrops beating against the glass since my bed is just next to the big windows.

I could hear the hum of the aircon and that comfortable silence that filled my room as i hid under covers. Unable to fall back to sleep, i put my hand on the window and felt the raindrops hitting the other side of the pane. It was so comforting to know that..

there was no school today :)

Amazing- what the joy of knowing that there's no school would bring about. Haha i like grinned widely at the ceiling (it was meant for God as a 'thank you') and i was like chanting happily "Omg there's no school today, there's no school today!" And then i (literally) skipped out of my room and barged into my brother's room and i was like GOOD MORNING ISAAC but he was having a fever so..

I hate school :) I hate every inch of going to school and school itself. And it kills me to know that the day is horribly ending in a terribly fast period of time. Soon it'd be dinner, then ANTM, and then i have to sleep and wake up to the first day of school of the week.

:(

I hope this post is an epiphany for you to come to know and realise what school does to me. (If you don't know by now the answer is : School kills me) but.. i think it's pretty obvious, no?

Picture you, with the wind in your hair

M :
So i'll let you go, i'll set you free, and when you see all that you need to see, when you find you, come back to me
I :
Mommy, what (the hell) are you singing?
M :
David cook! *smiles pleasently at idk what. into space maybe*
I :
This is so disturbing..

--

D's phone :

*Piano chords play* You say you gotta go and find yourself, you say that you're becoming someone else..
I :
Omg daddy, why is the david cook song your ring tone?
M :
Hip right!

Picture you, with the wind in your hair

M :
So i'll let you go, i'll set you free, and when you see all that you need to see, when you find you, come back to me
I :
Mommy, what (the hell) are you singing?
M :
David cook! *smiles pleasently at idk what. into space maybe*
I :
This is so disturbing..

--

D's phone :

*Piano chords play* You say you gotta go and find yourself, you say that you're becoming someone else..
I :
Omg daddy, why is the david cook song your ring tone?
M :
Hip right!

Let's imagine the end, before we even begin

Well i find myself enjoying you,
But you play these reckless games you'll never lose
So far, so good, let it roll, let it ride
So far, so good, let us fall, let us fight

With a sunken lie, i lay in bed. But i will live to be twenty-three.
And you'll see just how clever i can be.

Church today was mortifying *gasp* but i went to kap after and caught up with my dear cousin. It sucks that her life is so much more interesting then mine. Mine is just insipid *pouts*.

Sometimes (nowadays, rather) I find myself regretting what i did. I find myself wishing we could travel a year or two back, so that i'd make things right and probably now, things would be so, much, different.

What a time for me to get back my sight. I failed to see what others saw in you, and now, unfortunately, i do. Then there's a tug at my heart and phrases like "omg bel, what have you done" repeat like sirens in my head. But i walk it off and after thinking it through, you'll see, i'll get you back, somehow. One way or another.

Life sometimes fills itself up with so much irony that it irks me till no end.

K i'm gonna catch star track later but for now, it's back to trying to study.

Let's imagine the end, before we even begin

Well i find myself enjoying you,
But you play these reckless games you'll never lose
So far, so good, let it roll, let it ride
So far, so good, let us fall, let us fight

With a sunken lie, i lay in bed. But i will live to be twenty-three.
And you'll see just how clever i can be.

Church today was mortifying *gasp* but i went to kap after and caught up with my dear cousin. It sucks that her life is so much more interesting then mine. Mine is just insipid *pouts*.

Sometimes (nowadays, rather) I find myself regretting what i did. I find myself wishing we could travel a year or two back, so that i'd make things right and probably now, things would be so, much, different.

What a time for me to get back my sight. I failed to see what others saw in you, and now, unfortunately, i do. Then there's a tug at my heart and phrases like "omg bel, what have you done" repeat like sirens in my head. But i walk it off and after thinking it through, you'll see, i'll get you back, somehow. One way or another.

Life sometimes fills itself up with so much irony that it irks me till no end.

K i'm gonna catch star track later but for now, it's back to trying to study.

A beautiful mess

I do not love you as if you were a salt rose, or topaz
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I was listening to Power98 (k i know, not my cup of tea but), and suddenly a live version of avril lavgine's sk8ter boi started playing and okay so i sat down and listened.

Too bad that you couldn't see, see the man that boy could be, there is more that meets the eye, i see the soul that is inside.

Seems like there is a lot more things for me to learn and a lot more time needed for me to mature. It strikes me how i can't grasp the way songs have the simplest of words and they still hold the same meaning as my thoughts.

K anyway, Joyce uploaded SYF photos! I still remember us, sprawling on the floor! *laughs* (Joyce's idea) trying to take some 4-head picture and if i quote properly it was supposed to be "very nice!" Okay it felt like i had 3 other twins whose heads were connected to mine. Siamese twins much.

But anyway, you know i love them still! <3

Church tomorrow, i get to see girlfie and mich and a whole loads of other people that make me happy! AND THERE'S NO PIANO TOMRROW *claps* Bio on Tuesday and after that i'm free :)

You are strong but you're needy,

Humble but you're greedy,

You're style is quite selective,

though your mind is rather reckless

Well I guess it just suggests

that this is just what happiness is

Sounds familiar, no?

Well, Benj says it describes me perfectly. BIAP, but still love, always love, think of me k!

And through timeless words and priceless pictures
we'll fly like birds not of this earth
and tides they turn and hearts disfigure
but that's no concern when we're wounded together
and we tore our dresses and stained our shirts
but it's nice today
Oh, the wait was so worth it.

A beautiful mess

I do not love you as if you were a salt rose, or topaz
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I was listening to Power98 (k i know, not my cup of tea but), and suddenly a live version of avril lavgine's sk8ter boi started playing and okay so i sat down and listened.

Too bad that you couldn't see, see the man that boy could be, there is more that meets the eye, i see the soul that is inside.

Seems like there is a lot more things for me to learn and a lot more time needed for me to mature. It strikes me how i can't grasp the way songs have the simplest of words and they still hold the same meaning as my thoughts.

K anyway, Joyce uploaded SYF photos! I still remember us, sprawling on the floor! *laughs* (Joyce's idea) trying to take some 4-head picture and if i quote properly it was supposed to be "very nice!" Okay it felt like i had 3 other twins whose heads were connected to mine. Siamese twins much.

But anyway, you know i love them still! <3

Church tomorrow, i get to see girlfie and mich and a whole loads of other people that make me happy! AND THERE'S NO PIANO TOMRROW *claps* Bio on Tuesday and after that i'm free :)

You are strong but you're needy,

Humble but you're greedy,

You're style is quite selective,

though your mind is rather reckless

Well I guess it just suggests

that this is just what happiness is

Sounds familiar, no?

Well, Benj says it describes me perfectly. BIAP, but still love, always love, think of me k!

And through timeless words and priceless pictures
we'll fly like birds not of this earth
and tides they turn and hearts disfigure
but that's no concern when we're wounded together
and we tore our dresses and stained our shirts
but it's nice today
Oh, the wait was so worth it.

Coppertone

It had been a long time in coming, like the swollen soot clouds of a coming storm, like the too-ripe fruit ready to fall, like the sun baking chocolate dirt desperate to bloom. So she let it come, the slow wet rising reaching her eyes, beginning to fall and fall.

Chinese was rather managable. A math ruined my day after.

It feels so dull and mundane to keep studying and studying and studying. And then panicking, seizures on their way, freaking out, running about to find the answer to that question out of the other 100 which you can't really figure out. It makes no sense why we have to go through such inhumane processes and "tests".

More like torture, don't you think.

On a much lighter note, 2 papers left! Bio and music. This whole week has been such a testing period of time. Tedious and annoying, my tolerence level was definately the lowest today since it's already been used from Monday - Thursday. (I. felt. so. tired.......)

This Sunday is Mother's day. I thought of getting her something from Coach but let's see, oh- I AM STAYING AT HOME ON SATURDAY. Can you imagine that, SATURDAY! I am so going to sleep until 1pm in the afternoon to make up for all the last minute hours of cramming everything in.

+ the fact that my mind will be wondering about everywhere tomorrow afternoon and i'm useless in the afternoon because Saturday Afternoons are meant to be highlighted and bold-ed, signifying that they are rather, IMPORTANT to me and that maybe it's because they are my free afternoons and i actually like, go out.

But fine. Take away my Saturday afternoon but don't you dare take away my tuesday afternooon/night. I will be going crazy on Tuesday after school so deal with it and screw off. I deserve it.

Okay this is so depressing. Sidetrack abit, girlfie do you still have a workable phone with you? I need talk to you T.T <<< hinthint

K i shall go burn all my notes (cept bio and music) and throw my textbooks out of the window. K fine you obviously know i'm exaggerating a little but one thing's for sure, i'm throwing my chemistry and physics notes out of the window.

Digress : Out goes my stiochiometry, acid bases and salts, salt and salt preparation, Mass weight and density(totally useless chapter) , turning effect of forces and work energy and power.

If i still feel bad i think chinese and a math is kind of going to face extinction too. My table feels so free and anti-depressing now without stupid chem and physics notes. Haha what a weird catharsis but it's supposed to be personal, no?

Off to gg(ing) and zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz :) Chuck Bass should have his own TV show, and i'll be recording every second of it haha!

And if you got through this whole post, WOW you're good. All my crap hahaha.

Coppertone

It had been a long time in coming, like the swollen soot clouds of a coming storm, like the too-ripe fruit ready to fall, like the sun baking chocolate dirt desperate to bloom. So she let it come, the slow wet rising reaching her eyes, beginning to fall and fall.

Chinese was rather managable. A math ruined my day after.

It feels so dull and mundane to keep studying and studying and studying. And then panicking, seizures on their way, freaking out, running about to find the answer to that question out of the other 100 which you can't really figure out. It makes no sense why we have to go through such inhumane processes and "tests".

More like torture, don't you think.

On a much lighter note, 2 papers left! Bio and music. This whole week has been such a testing period of time. Tedious and annoying, my tolerence level was definately the lowest today since it's already been used from Monday - Thursday. (I. felt. so. tired.......)

This Sunday is Mother's day. I thought of getting her something from Coach but let's see, oh- I AM STAYING AT HOME ON SATURDAY. Can you imagine that, SATURDAY! I am so going to sleep until 1pm in the afternoon to make up for all the last minute hours of cramming everything in.

+ the fact that my mind will be wondering about everywhere tomorrow afternoon and i'm useless in the afternoon because Saturday Afternoons are meant to be highlighted and bold-ed, signifying that they are rather, IMPORTANT to me and that maybe it's because they are my free afternoons and i actually like, go out.

But fine. Take away my Saturday afternoon but don't you dare take away my tuesday afternooon/night. I will be going crazy on Tuesday after school so deal with it and screw off. I deserve it.

Okay this is so depressing. Sidetrack abit, girlfie do you still have a workable phone with you? I need talk to you T.T <<< hinthint

K i shall go burn all my notes (cept bio and music) and throw my textbooks out of the window. K fine you obviously know i'm exaggerating a little but one thing's for sure, i'm throwing my chemistry and physics notes out of the window.

Digress : Out goes my stiochiometry, acid bases and salts, salt and salt preparation, Mass weight and density(totally useless chapter) , turning effect of forces and work energy and power.

If i still feel bad i think chinese and a math is kind of going to face extinction too. My table feels so free and anti-depressing now without stupid chem and physics notes. Haha what a weird catharsis but it's supposed to be personal, no?

Off to gg(ing) and zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz :) Chuck Bass should have his own TV show, and i'll be recording every second of it haha!

And if you got through this whole post, WOW you're good. All my crap hahaha.

I still feel the same

Every heart is like a house of cards when the walls break down on you,
These are the trials of our youth.

Today was so shag. Chemistry literally blasted all my brain cells, till there were none spared out of mercy for physics. So, i am so prepared to fail physics that it's already in me. Hi how's physics Oh i failed.

*writhes in agony*

But for the first time in my entire life, i actually understood chemistry. A bit. My my brain was in retardation mode so i processed information with what you would call "super slow reaction" and that resulted in unabling to finish the paper. But i'm clinging on to that one tiny glimmer of hope that i'd pass. Quite tiny.

I stayed back and bing taught me modulas function, And it was damn funny. I actually laughed my ass off while studying math. Can't believe it.

Haha okay i'm off to kill myself with another round of alpha and beta crap + Log which irrates me till no end. Oh and chinese. But who cares about chinese.

--

Every heart is like a house on fire with escape routes in every room. These are the trials of our youth. But this charade, is never going to last. So pick the poison and pour yourself a glass, I, I, still feel the same. (No one's to blame) (I think i am to blame, actually)

I still feel the same.

I still feel the same

Every heart is like a house of cards when the walls break down on you,
These are the trials of our youth.

Today was so shag. Chemistry literally blasted all my brain cells, till there were none spared out of mercy for physics. So, i am so prepared to fail physics that it's already in me. Hi how's physics Oh i failed.

*writhes in agony*

But for the first time in my entire life, i actually understood chemistry. A bit. My my brain was in retardation mode so i processed information with what you would call "super slow reaction" and that resulted in unabling to finish the paper. But i'm clinging on to that one tiny glimmer of hope that i'd pass. Quite tiny.

I stayed back and bing taught me modulas function, And it was damn funny. I actually laughed my ass off while studying math. Can't believe it.

Haha okay i'm off to kill myself with another round of alpha and beta crap + Log which irrates me till no end. Oh and chinese. But who cares about chinese.

--

Every heart is like a house on fire with escape routes in every room. These are the trials of our youth. But this charade, is never going to last. So pick the poison and pour yourself a glass, I, I, still feel the same. (No one's to blame) (I think i am to blame, actually)

I still feel the same.

Memory

Although it’s such a singular word, there are so many variations of 'alone'.
There is the alone of an empty beach at twilight.
There is the alone of an empty hotel room.
There is the alone of being caught in a throng of people.
There is the alone of missing a particular person.

And there is the alone of being with a particular person
and realizing you are still alone.

This may never start and we could fall apart. And i'd be your memory. Have you lost your sense of fear? Are my feelings insincere? Oh, can i be your memory..

Let's just get back, back, back to where we lasted, just like i imagined. I could never feel this way, so let's just get back to the disaster. My heart is beating faster, holding on to feel the same.

This may never start, I'll tear us apart, Can i be your enemy? Losing half a year, waiting for you here. No, i won't be your anything.

Can i be your memory,
can i be your memory?

Memory

Although it’s such a singular word, there are so many variations of 'alone'.
There is the alone of an empty beach at twilight.
There is the alone of an empty hotel room.
There is the alone of being caught in a throng of people.
There is the alone of missing a particular person.

And there is the alone of being with a particular person
and realizing you are still alone.

This may never start and we could fall apart. And i'd be your memory. Have you lost your sense of fear? Are my feelings insincere? Oh, can i be your memory..

Let's just get back, back, back to where we lasted, just like i imagined. I could never feel this way, so let's just get back to the disaster. My heart is beating faster, holding on to feel the same.

This may never start, I'll tear us apart, Can i be your enemy? Losing half a year, waiting for you here. No, i won't be your anything.

Can i be your memory,
can i be your memory?

One last weekend

I've been twisting and turning,
in a space that's too small.
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall.
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart,
watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.

CTs officially start tomorrow. And, i have this strange craving for hot chocolate and cookies. Okay, back to studying about Sri Lanka and Indians fighting each other. Seriously, what's the point.

One last weekend

I've been twisting and turning,
in a space that's too small.
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall.
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart,
watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.

CTs officially start tomorrow. And, i have this strange craving for hot chocolate and cookies. Okay, back to studying about Sri Lanka and Indians fighting each other. Seriously, what's the point.