Pretend that what is known does not exist

 

start over clean and just empty this plate.

sweep up the guilt and learn to survive.

because when it ends, you won't be alive.

would you notice these eyes were closed?

from every direction comes someone's objection.

this is wearing thin, we all just see white.

nothing more beautiful, beautiful than this.

 

Teacher's day was alright. I extremely hated the video and got pretty pissed a bit but nvm. Then.. we went to eat pizza hut and it was actually quite funny :)

Saw Celine (&friends), Bing (&friends), Joanne Le (&friends) at sakae :o

Went home w Deanna and then went jogging which wasn't really jogging cuz it rained and sha had this horrible gash :o Ran to macs, actually not really ran more like walk but i was sheltered :D I didn't know vonz hated coke :o WHO CAN HATE COKE?! Hahahaha.

I am gonna read the athenian murders :) To forget everything and enjoy cheap thrills.

OWL CITY

hilarious

 

:) I think daniel radcliff is quite hottttt.

You've been on my mind for a while now. And honestly, you're quite heavy. Please get off.

 

There comes a point in your life when you're just plain tired.

Tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix things.

It's not giving up.

It's realizing you don't need certain people

and all the bullshit and the baggage they bring along with them.

 

It's official. Almost all of us have onsugars cept bing and sha (whom never had a blog to begin with).

--

I hate how dispensable I am to people. I hate how people feel they can just forget about me, replace me, erase me without even a second thought. It's like I don't matter to anyone. And hey, I mean I don't blame you. I'm no-one special. I just thought you were different. I had more faith in you. And you took that, ripped it up, shoved it in my face and walked away without ever looking back.

Okay i've decided that screaming and saying fuck a lot doesn't really get my point across. Sometimes silence is the most violent option to choose.

You'd mean so much more if i remembered

 

it isolates the time that's past by. and it feels so long.

i reach for that line i can't hold on.

i can't see what lies beneath the words.

where have i been?

between what rests in my soul and what's given.

It will never weigh the truth

 

I can't seem to tell the difference between real and fake anymore. Mostly it's just something real that might be really fake, and not the other way round. In other words, mostly it's all just grey. Light shades dark shades. Everyone around me is grey.

I feel numb. I chose to feel numb. With so much shit going around me right now, i feel used and angry. But what's the point? I'd rather feel numb then to feel used. Feeling used is the worse feeling you can ever feel. Numb. Numbing is better, by a far mile.

I'll be in your head

• Bel: aHAHA, listen to it twice and i'll be in your head.
• Deanna: i'll or it'll... i'd prefer that the song be in my head than you :D

Fireflies

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns, slowly
It's hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when i'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird cause i hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

--

I LOVE THIS SONG

Angst

 

‘Cats don’t have names,’ it said.

‘No?’ said Coraline.

‘No,’ said the cat. ‘Now you people have names.

That’s because you don’t know who you are.

We know who we are, so we don’t need names.'

 

Either karma is being a bitch or I'm an angsty little one.

Vonz sent me that photo ^ :) It's nice! She apparently has a whole collection of it :o i think it's really cool.

Okay bio sucks. I do not give a shit about biomedical science.

Don't tug my heart

 

Often we allow ourselves to be upset by

small things we should despise and forget.

We lose many irreplaceable hours

brooding over grievances that,

in a year's time,

will be forgotten by us and by everybody.

 

Chinese oral = me speaking tamil. Almost failed a math and got hurt during PE.

Cell on Sunday was so related to what i'm facing now. Yet i can't. apply. a. single. thing. I end church with 75% of the fullness of joy in God in my heart. It drops a bit to 70% on sunday night and by the end of Monday, it dipped to 20%.

It's Wednesday now.

Besides, i'm not going ramble about like trying to improve myself and being more tolerating and nice and whatever. It's just words. They don't mean a single thing. But getting back on my feet is going to be so tough, i think i've given up already.

So don't go around clarifying yourself. There's nothing really, for you to clarify.

 

I am not going to sit on my ass as the events that affect me

unfold to determine the course of my life.

I’m going to take a stand.

I’m going to defend it.

Right or wrong,

I’m going to defend it.

 

Now i've gone so far as to conclude that actually, even though what that person did was bad, it was nothing compared to what you did. It was yours that was vicious. Standing up for something you know is wrong is far worse than comitting the wrong thing itself.

--

Chinese oral >: (

I have chinese oral tomorrow :o

Forever would be fine

 

Laughter gives us distance.

It allows us to step back from an event,

deal with it and then move on.

 

Today was exhausting f-exhausting. In fact i've actually learned how to deal with my rapidly changing emotions and i know how to hold back tears now. I also know how to lie to myself and keep a straight face while battling a raging war inside me. I've learnt that I'm extremely stupid and probably will grow up to be nothing.

Oh and i finally figured that the best way to hold my tears in is to picture my heart in my mind and start enclosing it with steel metal walls. Unbreakable walls- at least for 2 whole minutes. 

You know what. I don't even know why i held them back. I now really extremely hate myself for being so materialistic and i hate myself for every wrong thing i've ever chosen to do. 

--

I've changed my mind. Today sucked.

''I can't swim!!'' , ''Hence, the boat!''

 

Oh, the decoupage box that he made,

where he'd taken the time to cut out twenty little pictures of himself,

just pasted all over the box.

So beautiful! I opened that beautiful little decoupage

and out fluttered these tiny little hand cut heart confettis

and once they cleared, I looked down and I saw the most beautiful, big...

 

I swear, you HAVE to watch The Proposal. It's as funny as hell and worth every cent :) And you will laugh your ass off i assure you. I'm so pysched i'm gonna buy the DVD! :D

Okay i have a lot of things to talk about. Let's talk about..

1 The Proposal

Omg it's so hilarious you'll even forget about eating! And i think Sandra Bullok is really pretty. The male lead also but i forgot his name :o

--

2 Joy's party.

It was funner that i expected. Yes i know there's no such word as funner. Haha okay let's see guitar hero is nice, taboo is nicer, but truth or dare is the best. Haha and Joy, get well soon k! love you! thanks for the awesome time :)

--

3 Somewhere and someone

It has become the ultimate strangest place to me. I feel so out of place and really, really annoyed and someone for making me feel this way. The place i'm suppose to grow up in for the rest of my life with people that will be my friends for also, the rest of my life, doesn't seem to be so nice anymore. It seems distant, in a way i can't explain but i don't think i can really do what i'm suppose to do there anymore.

--

I am not looking forward to school tomorrow. Collecting back more than half my papers will be v traumatic. God help me.

There's a little..

 

There's a little truth behind every 'just kidding',

A little curiousity behind every 'just wondering',

A little knowledge behind 'i don't know',

And a little emotion behind 'i don't care'.

 

Food for thought :)

Today was half horrible half okay. The horrible thing was that i felt like a toilet plunger. Like suddenly i was so filled up with this pure fury of burning anger, just to get it all sucked out of me in the next second. It definitely took an emotional toll on me but i guess maybe that's just life, and that's just God's way of telling me 'what the bloody crap do you think you're doing?!'.

Okay but i still feel quite angry. Quite.

And anyway, i shall not talk about this angry thing anymore beeeecause, as my wise lit teacher once said (i'm sorry too much of Tuesdays with Morrie), 'why use vulagrities and stoop to the same level as yknow-who'. Or something like that.

I think it's quite true. And i'm also wasting my time/brainpower by critisizing you. Now, i just think that what you did was so low and so bad that vulgarities can't even show the degree of your menace. Therefore you are not worth my words.

Kudos Mr Ng, we have all learnt quite a few things from that looooooooong 2-period chat :) Yay!

Therefore after the following 2 lines you shall not hear one word from me about this anger issue anymore, unless i have been provoked again.

--

So the good thing about today was... THERE WAS NO BIO :) and and and... sylvia/deanna/sha coming over was v v v hilarious. Oh and mrs pang let us change seats so that was nice too!

:)

Also... HAH I AM SO TERRIBLY INFLUENTIAL IT IRKS ME :D NOW EVERYONE'S USING ONSUGAR (YAY) heehee that was so egoistical! haha don't hate me. I was just kidding. Then again, there's a little truth behind every 'just kidding'..

Bazhang

 

When I really worry about something,I don't just fool around.

I even have to go to the bathroom when I worry about something.

Only, I don't go.I'm too worried to go.

I don't want to interrupt my worrying to go

 

My job is kind of done.

Seriously you should be glad she has way more tolerance than me. Thank your lucky stars Thank God for being so kind to you Thank everyone Thank fate. Her tolerance level is like through the roof like okay let's say her tolerence level is 10, mine would be -infinity. which means negative of infinity which is really low.

Which means that if this actually happens to me, you'd be so screwed up in the next few minutes i swear you would rather lose your limbs.

But bazhangs have no limbs! Hmm.

I hope you know what is a hypocrite. Because in my opinion, you use that word wayyyy too many times already. Infact, i would say you are one yourself. And when i figure out how to lock onsugars, i swear i would post so many vulgarities at you your EYES. WOULD. DRIP. BLOOD.

Okay when the truth comes to light, and if i ever get a chance to scream at your face, just know that i will. Because she is my friend but you however, made me unfriend you. Therefore people whom i've been forced to unfriend shall just die a horrible death. There is a reason why i really hate you you know.

--

On a much much much lighter note, today was funny. It was freaking funny! And yes i want to screw yvonne :( We could've gone out :( Nevermind some other day :D and and and hmm let's see what else.

Oh okay i've been about 67% transformed into a nerd. This is what i did to accelerate the transformation.

1. Rush to physics period and Emath lessons (because nerds rush to class)
2. Recite chinese idioms and proverbs w sylvia while walking down to the canteen (because nerds talk nerd-language)
3. Push up imaginary specs while answering teachers' questions. Or at least, trying to answer. (because nerds wear specs and are super enthu to answer questions)
4. Go for a second round of stationery shopping (because a nerd can never have too many stationery!)

 

:) HAHAHAHAHAHHA. i am so succeeding in being a nerd!

Can't wait for tomorrow- Chinese! CME test! Bio! All the things that i, the nerd, would soooooooo look forward too!

But the unnerdified side of me goes- Payback! Revenge! Lit play! - all happening tomorrow, can't bloody wait!!!

self-pity

 

Do you want to know a secret? The trick is to go through hell and then build a resistance against it. That is how you overcome something that you think you can't. You go with it, bear with it, in time, observe it, learn something, and build a resistance against it. Although there are some down sides to that.

That would be, that when you look back at yourself, you shed tears for your stupid and naive self. You wallow in self-pity and that is all to it.

Do you want to know a secret?

nerdification

hahaha i am on the road to success now :)Nerdification = success

We go high

 

 

I’ve learned that nobody can do much

without somebody else.

You’ve got to have friends

 

Today was extremely funny. Actually it was more of lame but anyway, i haven't laughed so much since sakura w winnie haha!

The idea was to rush to macs by 3 to catch cheap burgers. And we did. By climbing bukit timah hill and i have no idea why everyone did some diamond formation and held on to each other's bags BECAUSE we were so hot and we were emitting heat. Haha but anyway we did go there in time.

And we saw a woman-look-alike-transvesite-chick.

HAHA and throughout the day, more bazhang related jokes were created and i am most postively gonna fail amath :)

I shall post more later. It's back to heartland to take IC pics and then tution :( hahahaha bye.

I'll meet you there

 

Missing someone gets easier every day

because even though it's one day

further from the last time you saw each other,

it's one day closer to the next time you will.

 

Today was quite tiring i guess. Even though it was quite quiet w/o bing/sha/kelly. Result feedbacks have been coming in drips and draps. I think i did okay for lit and english and emath, probably failed amath and chem and bio and especially physics (!@#$) but it's okay.

You say, when you fall, pick yourself up.

I say, when you fall, lie on the ground and think about why you fell. Oh and never get up unless you're sure you won't fall again (which is impossible therefore, never get up)

And when we went for lit today, Deanna and Yvonne had such itchy fingers that they went to post letters from the failure club which also comes w a stamp of recognition. But i accidentally spilled water on the roll or parchment therefore the ink might have.. smudged a bit, here and there :o

I think if i tell them that they will go in sync voices, 'FAIL' and probably commence the laughter once again. They amuse me sometimes you know :) Which is nice because i need some amusement in my life :) Other than self-amusing which i tend to do quite often :o hahahaha.

I figured i need to attend anger management classes soon.

Screw you

1. Ba Zhang.

2. NEK

3. EOYs

go go go again

I was browsing through my photos :) and anyway, i think the Eunice and me pic was simply hilarious hahaha. Oh and the jiaxuan's one tops the chart. Anyway, i have a question! WHERE ARE DEANNA AND YVONNE IN MY PHOTOS :( more upload laterrrrr :)

SINGAPORE IS TOO SMALL

Singapore is too small for my comfort. The red dot now irks me.

NARBUL

My shared twitter with deanna HAHA :)

funhouse

• sylvia: im gonna die from embarrassement.
• bel: whyai?
• sylvia: i mistook izabella for yvonne, and i told her i changed blog url
• bel: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA
• sylvia: and you know how she replied? she went like 'oh. ok. cool.'

Failure

 

I am very interested and fascinated by how everyone loves each other,

but no one really likes each other.

 

Bio and music really killed me today. But finally the whole 5 days 10 tests are over, now it's EOYS. And i discovered something horribly and painfully shocking.

I used to think that Chem paper and Physics paper on the same day was total utter torture.

But nothing could obviously beat The Day Before Chem AND Physics paper where i tried mugging like crazy. In this painful case, year 2009 EOYS, on 1st october, MY BIRTHDAY, We have The Day Before Chinese Paper and The Day Before Chem Paper combined together which makes

The Day Before Chem AND Chinese Paper, on Isabel's Birthday, day.

I think stabbing me 10 times is better than that. I am so distraught by the fact that i'd have to spend my birthday doing CHINESE and CHEM, both subjects starting with the hateful letter C and both subjects which killed me throughout the year. Screw you chineseandchem.

>:(

Let's digress shall we. Today, i have had numerous invitations to be a failure. 'Join the failure club!' A group of maniacs wanted to shoot me, aka 'the firing squad' and 'i am right' was written on my left hand, while 'i am left' was written on my right hand.

Haha and sylvia told me something funny today. It's hilarious. And disgustingly funny. :)

Okay i shall resume my 'what to do list after T3CTs'. Next is.. couch poo.

 

tastelikekisses

TASTELIKEKISSES.ONSUGAR.COM

I HAVE MOVED :)

(bloody hell, just when i moved, blogger reverts back to normal, like nothing ever happened. SCREW THIS)

This is nice

 

Being brokenhearted is like having broken ribs.

On the outside it looks like nothing’s wrong, but every breath hurts.

 

Omg i love onsugar. It's like, pink and the fonts are cute and its DAMN EASY to post pictures and it won't spoil like blogger YAY. hahahahaa i'm eggcited and everyone should use on sugar. :) :) :)

The only thing left to do now is add a cbox :o

Oh and bio. I almost forgot. It's 9:54 and i've got one last chapter to go! Transport in animals :) Brain, don't fail me now eh? :) :) :)

Maybe i don't want you to go

I don't like this. Don't like feeling like this. Hate it detest it abhorr it.

Maybe i don't want you to go

I don't like this. Don't like feeling like this. Hate it detest it abhorr it.

Finally

I thank God and my lucky stars that i don't miss you. I am so amused by the fact that your pictures don't bring back fond memories or the rapid beating of my heart and whatever crap. I am so happy that i don't feel inclined to sms you saying 'i'm sorry, breaking up with you was a sudden impulse of my heart'. I THANK YOU LORD up in Heaven for watching over me and protecting my heart :) BYEBYE GOOD RIDDANCE.

Finally

I thank God and my lucky stars that i don't miss you. I am so amused by the fact that your pictures don't bring back fond memories or the rapid beating of my heart and whatever crap. I am so happy that i don't feel inclined to sms you saying 'i'm sorry, breaking up with you was a sudden impulse of my heart'. I THANK YOU LORD up in Heaven for watching over me and protecting my heart :) BYEBYE GOOD RIDDANCE.

sad

one more thing about why i am sad. I am sad because i have no idea why you would actually do such a thing. It probably affects me more than anyone else. It affects me the most. And i don't know if you actually gave a damn about me. Was it so bad you had to do something like this? Do you know how lost and annoyed i feel now. I'm losing my drive already. I can feel it. And the fact that i haven't been doing it shows it quite obviously and clearly. Seriously, what are you thinking?

I am sad.

sad

one more thing about why i am sad. I am sad because i have no idea why you would actually do such a thing. It probably affects me more than anyone else. It affects me the most. And i don't know if you actually gave a damn about me. Was it so bad you had to do something like this? Do you know how lost and annoyed i feel now. I'm losing my drive already. I can feel it. And the fact that i haven't been doing it shows it quite obviously and clearly. Seriously, what are you thinking?

I am sad.

screw you

Screw you blogger. Screw blogger.

I have alot of things to say but i can't post pictures because blogger is a screwed up mfer. Okay what i wanted to say was

1. CTs killed me
2. I officially hate binomial/polynomial in amath
3. I don't care what makes the lubdub sound of the heart.
4. I refuse to study bio
5. I hate music too. Waste my time.
6. I am sad.
7. I have been sad but had no time to feel it.

8. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY! :) we've almost had 5 years of friendship..... and counting! hahahah <3 you.


That is all. I hate blogger.

>:(

screw you

Screw you blogger. Screw blogger.

I have alot of things to say but i can't post pictures because blogger is a screwed up mfer. Okay what i wanted to say was

1. CTs killed me
2. I officially hate binomial/polynomial in amath
3. I don't care what makes the lubdub sound of the heart.
4. I refuse to study bio
5. I hate music too. Waste my time.
6. I am sad.
7. I have been sad but had no time to feel it.

8. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY! :) we've almost had 5 years of friendship..... and counting! hahahah <3 you.


That is all. I hate blogger.

>:(

Leave it all behind

If time was still
The sun would never never find us
We could light up the sky tonight
I would see the world through your eyes

No distance of place or lapse of time can lessen the friendship of those who are thoroughly persuaded of each other's worth.

I'm watching 3d 'up' later :o And CTs are coming! And i have not recovered! My fever's gone though. It left behind the sore throat and flu and coughing fits. Oh and i didn't go to church today :o I miss mich. Coos i don't like you!

>:(

Okay apart from that, i haven't been studying. I slept the whole day yesterday and went out at night. But the (y) thing is that i bought ALOT of things. Mostly accessories haha. And i bought this colourful balls braclet thing that wasn't pink! Okay 2 of the balls were pink but HELLO, it wasn't completely pink :) I love diva hahaha

OH AND I LOVE AWFULLY CHOCOLATE'S ICE CREAM. OYS IT'S DAMN NICE (Y)(L)

Leave it all behind

If time was still
The sun would never never find us
We could light up the sky tonight
I would see the world through your eyes

No distance of place or lapse of time can lessen the friendship of those who are thoroughly persuaded of each other's worth.

I'm watching 3d 'up' later :o And CTs are coming! And i have not recovered! My fever's gone though. It left behind the sore throat and flu and coughing fits. Oh and i didn't go to church today :o I miss mich. Coos i don't like you!

>:(

Okay apart from that, i haven't been studying. I slept the whole day yesterday and went out at night. But the (y) thing is that i bought ALOT of things. Mostly accessories haha. And i bought this colourful balls braclet thing that wasn't pink! Okay 2 of the balls were pink but HELLO, it wasn't completely pink :) I love diva hahaha

OH AND I LOVE AWFULLY CHOCOLATE'S ICE CREAM. OYS IT'S DAMN NICE (Y)(L)

Sonata #48, Franz Joseph Haydn

No matter how fast light travels
it finds the darkness has always got there first,
and is waiting for it.

Pain reaches the heart with electrical speed, but truth moves to the heart as slowly as a glacier.

I missed out on National Day :( okay not that i'm sad or anything but i didn't get to see deanna catch her stick!! haha. Today was just lying in bed nursing my fever/sore throat/cold. Then i went on youtube and searched for versions of this particular piano piece that i'm playing for my o level music :o

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS 11 YEAR OLD BOY CAN PLAY IT BETTER THAN ME! :o

*writhes in agony*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OoCZGItK-yc&feature=related

I must work harder :(

Sonata #48, Franz Joseph Haydn

No matter how fast light travels
it finds the darkness has always got there first,
and is waiting for it.

Pain reaches the heart with electrical speed, but truth moves to the heart as slowly as a glacier.

I missed out on National Day :( okay not that i'm sad or anything but i didn't get to see deanna catch her stick!! haha. Today was just lying in bed nursing my fever/sore throat/cold. Then i went on youtube and searched for versions of this particular piano piece that i'm playing for my o level music :o

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS 11 YEAR OLD BOY CAN PLAY IT BETTER THAN ME! :o

*writhes in agony*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OoCZGItK-yc&feature=related

I must work harder :(

Last time,

The saddest kind of sad is the sad that tries not to be sad.
You know, when Sad tries to bite its lip and not cry and smile and go,
“No, I’m happy for you”? That’s when it’s really sad

I'm falling sick. Oh and CTs are next week. :o

Last time,

The saddest kind of sad is the sad that tries not to be sad.
You know, when Sad tries to bite its lip and not cry and smile and go,
“No, I’m happy for you”? That’s when it’s really sad

I'm falling sick. Oh and CTs are next week. :o

Liquid diet

Evidently blogger does not allow me to post pictures or any of that sort. The whole top toolbar thing is missing. Therefore i only have a pathetic box which i'm suppose to type my post in. Wow blogger, i don't know what to say to you.

I have a sore throat(!) but wtf it's coming at the wrong time. If there were no tests tmr and CTs aren't next week, i'd have dashed to the dr, demanding an MC because we all know sore throat is one of the common symptoms of H1N1 :o

But apparently because english compre is tmr and CTs are next week, i am forbidden to get an MC. FTW.

Okay school has been tiring and exhausting but fine and as usual i'm failing almost everything and anything. Physics has proved itself to be one of the most annoying subjects, ever. And chem irks me (as usual). I gave up on chinese, but that's not new either.

Hiatus? It'd be good to have one..

Liquid diet

Evidently blogger does not allow me to post pictures or any of that sort. The whole top toolbar thing is missing. Therefore i only have a pathetic box which i'm suppose to type my post in. Wow blogger, i don't know what to say to you.

I have a sore throat(!) but wtf it's coming at the wrong time. If there were no tests tmr and CTs aren't next week, i'd have dashed to the dr, demanding an MC because we all know sore throat is one of the common symptoms of H1N1 :o

But apparently because english compre is tmr and CTs are next week, i am forbidden to get an MC. FTW.

Okay school has been tiring and exhausting but fine and as usual i'm failing almost everything and anything. Physics has proved itself to be one of the most annoying subjects, ever. And chem irks me (as usual). I gave up on chinese, but that's not new either.

Hiatus? It'd be good to have one..

PHYSICS matters (?)

I guess when your heart gets broken,
you sort of start to see the cracks in everything.
I'm convinced that tragedy wants to harden us,
and that our mission is to never let it

When you lose somebody, you think you've lost the whole world as well. But that's not the way things turn out in the end. Eventually, you pick yourself up and look out the window and once you do, you see everything that was there before the world ended is out there, still.

--

The whole weekend was a waste. I totally didn't study. Like, when i went out, i brought my physics textbook thinking that i could read it in the pockets of spare time. Instead, i brought it everywhere with me but forgot to open it.

Apparently holding on to my physics textbook while going out already made me feel quite proud and satisfied of myself. Thus i did not think about actually opening it to read.

Sometimes my stupidity amuses me.

There's school tomorrow and i've got the Monday Blues. See, Mondays are so daunting that Monday Blues actually sneak into Sundays and start haunting me. Oh and i think my school officially looks like a prison. There are metal bars all over like GRILLS and what's worse, it's all GREY. Like seriously, even the main gate is big and is just metal grey bars.

The only thing that seems to be missing is the electric barb wires. If they put that up i swear i'll come to school in blackandwhite striped jumpers or something.

PHYSICS matters (?)

I guess when your heart gets broken,
you sort of start to see the cracks in everything.
I'm convinced that tragedy wants to harden us,
and that our mission is to never let it

When you lose somebody, you think you've lost the whole world as well. But that's not the way things turn out in the end. Eventually, you pick yourself up and look out the window and once you do, you see everything that was there before the world ended is out there, still.

--

The whole weekend was a waste. I totally didn't study. Like, when i went out, i brought my physics textbook thinking that i could read it in the pockets of spare time. Instead, i brought it everywhere with me but forgot to open it.

Apparently holding on to my physics textbook while going out already made me feel quite proud and satisfied of myself. Thus i did not think about actually opening it to read.

Sometimes my stupidity amuses me.

There's school tomorrow and i've got the Monday Blues. See, Mondays are so daunting that Monday Blues actually sneak into Sundays and start haunting me. Oh and i think my school officially looks like a prison. There are metal bars all over like GRILLS and what's worse, it's all GREY. Like seriously, even the main gate is big and is just metal grey bars.

The only thing that seems to be missing is the electric barb wires. If they put that up i swear i'll come to school in blackandwhite striped jumpers or something.

CHINAWOMAN

You’ve buried me here
And I can’t turn off my eyes, only sinking
You’ve hiding the keys to sleep
The sweet careful lines we’ve crossed
And now we can never go back

Okay this chinawoman spoiled my night so terribly i created a blog just for it. Screw you chinawoman. May karma bite your ass.

I'm sorry this post is so short but the stupid chinabitchwoman drained my energy. And if you wanna read about it you can go belislove.blogspot.com but you have to ask me to send you your email thingy first :)

CHINAWOMAN

You’ve buried me here
And I can’t turn off my eyes, only sinking
You’ve hiding the keys to sleep
The sweet careful lines we’ve crossed
And now we can never go back

Okay this chinawoman spoiled my night so terribly i created a blog just for it. Screw you chinawoman. May karma bite your ass.

I'm sorry this post is so short but the stupid chinabitchwoman drained my energy. And if you wanna read about it you can go belislove.blogspot.com but you have to ask me to send you your email thingy first :)