Amath

 

Life takes your dreams and turns them upside down;

people talk about you when you're not around.

People make promises they just can't keep,

and I've come to realize that talk is cheap.

 

Binomial expansion is really horrible. Binomial polynomial modulus they all just really suck. And no, i don't think knowing how to expand binomial equation would make a girl any more attractive. Beauty and the geek much?

Okayyyyyyyyyyyy i think eoys are getting to me again. I swear i will have nightmares about caculators and giant '8's chasing after me, maybe tmr night it'd be being stuck in the periodic table and jumping over all the elements, unable to get out of the box. Haha imagine Thursday night's- my body made up of trachea and whatever shit expereriencing free fall and TERMINAL VELOCITY.

Hell, i wish the bio and physics were just one subject like....... PHYBIO. wow.

Okay bye i'm going to do circles now, what do circles remind you of? :o HAHA

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take all those things and i'll bury them fast. and pray that they turn to seeds to roots and then grass. and be alright, it's alright. it'll be easier that way.

well then the sky opened up and starting pouring rain,
like it knew it was time to start things over again.

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HAHA PROCRASTINATE NOW, DON'T PUT IT OFF! :)
GET THE IRONY? :)

GEWGLE

 

Zomgg if you type google.com as GEWGLE.COM it ACTUALLY WORKS. Haha! Okay i have no idea why i'm online now but my studying is about to commence in a minute's time :)

I think kanye sucks and his head pattern thing that looks like a maze suck as well. It's not even cool or anything it's just disgusting. It's unsightly and they look like he's balding but suffering from some kind of balding-a-pattern diesease.

..So. I'm tired.

I know everyone is.

We should all just give up right, and fk up and screw our lives, yeah. :) Hello it's my online journal i can be morose if i want to. Oh and i think mysupersweet16 on mtv is the show that offers you a variety of the bitchiest and spoilt-est >16 girls to have ever lived, zomg.

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Okay Church tomorrow and then.................. idk what. Life goes on D:

NERDASAURUS

HI I AM GOING TO BE A NERDASAURUS (RAWR!)

NOW I'M SUPPOSE TO GO FOR CHEMISTRY TUITION BUT I COULDN'T RESIST THE URGE TO BLOG.

>24

>24 HOURS TILL THE BEGINNING OF HELL; THE TEST OF MY ENDURANCE; THE TRIAL OF MY LIFE (OF 2009) THE START OF GRUMPY MORNINGS, PANICKY NIGHTS AND ^^^^^ INCREASE IN GLOBAL WARMING.

ALL TREE HUGGERS, THIS IS YOUR TIME TO START GOING ON STRIKE. WE ARE WASTING PAPER FOR EXAMS LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS. BUT IT IS YOUR BUSINESS BECAUSE YOU ARE A TREE HUGGER. GO HUG YOUR TREE AND STOP THE INJUSTICE OF EXAMS AT SUCH A YOUNG AGE. AND EXAMS ON BIRTHDAYS SHOULS BE BANNED OR MADE ILLEGAL.

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If you read through that then i'm glad to say you have finished the rant of ISABEL :) I have no idea whether i'll blog starting from tomorrow. If i don't blog by 5th october i think there will be no need to visit this dear site anymore because i have this gut feeling that i would have.........................

stabbed myself with my 0.38 pen?

drink my liquid paper?

self-inflict paper cuts?

Okay so saddistic. Hahahahaha ISABEL THE NERDASAURUS, RAWRRRRRRR.

Pink bling

 

Well you are the one

The one, that lies close to me

Whispers "Hello, I miss you quite terribly."

I fell in love

In love, with you suddenly

Now there's no place else

I could be but here in your arms

 

Okay i blinged my iphone like really BLINGED it like, rhinestoned it like crazy i can't count how many rhinestones there are but i'm thinking 100 :) HAHA it kinda looks like i glued my iphone and dipped it into a sea of crystals. But my dad keeps saying it looks lianish. :( I like the way it looks! :(

K sunday was so........ hot. We had to deliver flyers and it was quite fun though :) I missed Letitia and haha got to see her again :) Then i went for Hari Raya visitation! :) NICE MALAY FOOOOD.

Now everyone's studying and i am stuck on the com. I don't know why school has to schedule eoys on 24th september they are looooooney.

Don't worry orange, i feel quite like you too :( I pity the orange this is such a saaaaaad picture. Blah. Mother nature.

And i thought hey, you know this could be something

 

My light has slowly faded

Broken and degraded

Suffocate in my sorrow

Mabye I'll die tomorrow

This riot that I've sited

Came to you uninvited

Truth hurts when it's in your face

Are you afraid of it?

 

It rained today, but that didn't change anything other than painting everything in a shade of pretty, pretty grey. Lessons were as usual w usual teachers in their usual dressing (you think teachers would doll up for school but no) w the usual drone of their voices........... Chinese sucked. Yeah that probably sumarises it.

I really hope i don't......................... omg what is this.

I don't often blog about Christianity in general because i see a lot of things in a lot of shades of grey and sometimes i get the feeling that my standards of morality and general philosophy probably aren't in precise tandem with the Orthodox Church. 

.. This post is so inconsequential.

I have NOTHING on bright and early sunshine morning tomorrow :) Although there's chemistry tuition at 1.... in the afternoon......... followed by NOTHING again :) YAY the nothingest saturday ever. And boy am i so looking forward to it.

I think this lap is the hardest and toughest and i'm not a tough cookie- i'm a freaking brownie. If you don't know what that means it means that i give up easily (to all the tough cookies out there i hope you crack and die into millions of pieces of crumbs HAHA) and i go well with ice cream. Okay ice cream doesn't mean anything it just relates to the sudden craving that i'm having for B&J's chocolate fudge brownie ice cream nowwwww.

Flower balm perfume

 

Circle me and the needle moves gracefully,

Back and forth-

If my heart was a compass you'd be north.

 

You're the sky that I fell through. And I remember the view, Whenever I'm holding you. The sun hung from a string- looking down on the world as it warms over everything.

Chills run down my spine as our fingers entwine and your sighs harmonize with mine. Unmistakably I can still feel your heart beat fast when you dance with me.

 

We got older and I should've known (Do you feel alive?)
That I'd feel colder when I walk alone (Oh, but you'll survive)

So I may as well ditch my dismay
Bombs away, bombs away

The 'a-lot-of-songs' period (of time)

 

Now the sky could be blue

I don't mind

Without you, it's a waste of time

 

School today was like a medley of popular songs during this particular period of time. And i think Hilary Duff and Avril Lavgine is nice therefore. Hahaha Lunch was very funny actually. Sha was waiting for me to get v high w the red bull drink she chose and bought for me. Then i went to find Mrs Pang w sylvia and i think Mrs Pang is the nicest teacher i've ever had :) She teaches Modulus so well haha!

Chapel today was so unexpected. The first chapel throughout my 3 years in PL that i actually listened and enjoyed what the speaker was talking about. And also the first funny sermon (is it even considered a sermon) i've heard in like, 6 months.

God has been good and gracious and kind and caring to me :) I just hope i don't fk things up like i always do. And i should stop being such a screw-up, and try keeping my self-proclaimed promises to Him. Because we all know it's inevitable that He'll find out i broke the promise :( HAHAHA but still i rather love Him a lot. A whole lot :) 

The time has come to stand for what we believe in, so i for one am gonna give my praise to Him. Today, today it's all or nothing. All the way, the praise goes out to You, yeah all the praise goes out to you. Today, today i live for one thing. To give. You. Praise. In everything i do, yeah all the praise goes out to You :)

OH AND DID I TELL YOU? I FOUND LOVE, BEYOND ALL REASON :)

Deanna (pronounced as deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, ana)

 

HAAAAAPPY BIRTHDAY DEANNA :) :) :) HAHAHAHAHAHA. THANK YOU FOR THE GREAT DAY TODAY AND FOR SUBWAY AND WAVES AND WETTING YOUR PINAFORE WHICH IN TURN, LOOKED LIKE YOU PEED AND FOR BEARING W ME AND SHA WHEN WE WENT ALL MENTALLLLLLL. Yes you'd make a rather good housewife! :D

And thank you for letting me listen to FOREST GUMP HAHAHA and for always being there and making me laugh and laughing at me and putting up with my annoying moments. I love you a whole lot :)

Subway

 

Do you see the truth

Through all their lies

Do you see the world

Through troubled eyes

 

Omg okay i have come to appreciate and love subway because it has pretty good meatballs + cheese + mayo and honey mustard. If only for a minute, all the laughter seemed to have blown everything away. 

It's repeating, over and over, over, and over. 

#1

 

Shut your eyes

And feel the chemicals collide

You and I tonight

You're the sugar in my high

 

Omg idk why but i went super high in physics? Maybe it's because i didn't do everything and felt really annoyed at myself. Maybe. And i felt even more annoyed when i stayed back for music which ended at 5+ after which i went down and saw mr Ng, Shab and Amelia and i joined them in the Holy God conversation. Pretty interesting stuff.

I was going to die the whole day because of a conversation which lasted until 3 am in the night and left me still wide awake trying so hard to sleep. I mfking hate school.

ANYWAY, TMR IS DEANNA'S BIRTHDAY *grins* hahahahaha and her post is coming up shortly, right after the break! :)

All at Once

 

And all at once the crowd begins to sing.

Sometimes,

We'd never know what's wrong without the pain.

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

 

I'm quite satisfied because i've packed my bag for tomorrow, but i know that's nothing compared to 99.999999% of my class or probably my level's cohort, whose bags probably contain stacks and stacks of written worksheets plus the information in their brains that they'd carry to school tomorrow, information worth (7x24) hours of mugging during the holidays which i have so gladly wasted.

I went for service bright and early sunshine morning today. Nothing went in, therefore. Haha i love to end my sentences w 'therefore' and i have no idea why. All at Once by The Fray has been keeping me company and i love the first 2 lines of that song. Idk, i find comfort in music?

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There are certain people, you just keep coming back to.

Someone somewhere said some things

 

How very true.

I'm sorry, i'm not that in a writing mood. I tried doing my homework just now though. And i found out that there was a lot of hw. So i went 'bloody hell' and gave up. I hate school and i don't see any mfking logic in puting EOYs 9 days after the hols. Like WTF.

And i don't care how many days there are left to EOYs. I'm sorry, you've mistaken me for someone who actually gives a shit.

Less is more

It's Sha's birthday now actually. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHA. Okay i shall list down the times i enjoyed w you.

1. I 'BOO!'ed you during PE and as a (strange) result, you slipped and fell on the spot? HAHAHAHAHHAA
2. I 'BOO!'ed you again when you reached 4th floor after break and as a (stranger) result, you slipped again and fell.
3. When we race to the small and disgusting toilet after Wednesday's PE lessons just to change haha and laugh like mad.
4. When you finally let me and deanna into your house and took out your KEYBOARD HAHAHAHA.
5. When you always occupy my seat for geog lesson and write on the post-it on the wall, 'VEGETARIAN BAZHANG'

YAY SHA i love you plentiful :) We'll get through EOYs and Os tgth k! W or w/o studying :) same same.

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I have this addiction to The Fray now. Haha i know i should be going crazy over BLG since the new album came out but.. haha i feel mellow most days now, not really angsty and like 'I LOVE YOU FOREVER, FOREVER IS OVER...' I guess drastic changes have taken a slight toll on me?

Oh and i'm eggciteddddd! My baby is coming tomorrow! Like FINALLY.

:)

Michelle my belle

Michelle, my belle.
These are words that go together well,
my Michelle.

Michelle, my belle.
Sont les mots qui vont tres bien ensemble,
tres bien ensemble.

I love you, I love you, I love you.
That's all I want to say.
Until I find a way
I will say the only words I know that
you'll understand.

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I like this song :) luv you mich.

As long as love exists

 

She says, “If I leave before you, darling

Don't you waste me in the ground”

I lay smiling like our sleeping children

One of us will die inside these arms

Eyes wide open, naked as we came

One will spread our ashes ‘round the yard

 

Omg i love iron and wine. Love it love it.

Thursday was handbells. Winnie and i (as usual) went high, playing chimes high up in the air for chopin's funeral procession.. Haha okay. Then we went to ps and rushed to sakura! IT WAS SO EXTREMELY FUNNY i laughed like shit and didn't get why they laughed too but okay. Sarah SUCCESFULLY taught me modulus graphs :D Haha i will practice and make my teacher proud!

Oh and i also found out that actually Yam w coconut is quite nice but i have been constantly and repeatedly warned by sarah that it's highly fattening. Yes, sarah the one whom proclaimed 'AS LONG AS LOVE EXISTS'. HAHAHA i find it hilarious, hence the title.

:)

I woke up bright and early sunshine morning today and dragged my ass to nyp for the pasta workshop. Okay it was fun because we learnt how to make pasta FROM SCRATCH :) And we also saw COCKROACH MAN or rather, professor? Idk. Haha i have no doubt that we are NOT going to get pass the prelimenary round. :o

I'm so sleepy i'm going to sleep now :) Goodbye! My whole September Hol has been WASTED for i have not moved an inch of my books. Neither have i done my hw yet. It rained and i feel sleeeeeeeeepyy. :(

(ps: The photo on top reminds me of cjy because she can't pull of middle-parting, unlike pretty and beautiful models/celebrities)

Pollen and Salt

 

Sometimes I cried my heart to sleep

Shuffling days and lonesome nights

Sometimes my courage fell to my feet

 

Playlist alert. This holiday is nothing. I haven't moved my books since school ended, neither have i touched my homework. I went for chem tuition today, but i fail to remember what i've learnt. Nights have been lonely i guess. And i've been thinking quite a lot. I'll withdraw, i don't want to play anymore.

I'll go along with your childish mindset. Even though the depth of your shallow mind amazes me- you are so mfking insensitive. I should've guessed, anticipated that it was coming. Dump me for your aml :) I don't know if i should laugh or cry.

1. Pollen and salt- Daphne loves derby (IS NICE)
2. Little House- The Fray (The piano intro is to-die-for, seriously)

 

I love Chase Coy (dear juliet)

If you hear this wherever you are
Just know i need you here
I need you now
You were brighter than the pale white moon
Reflected in your eyes
So i guess its no suprise
I can't forget you
No matter what i do

I will always carry you in my heart
You'll always be my shooting star
Autumn days will fade away
But memories willl always stay the same
I'm hoping you will never change
Don't ever change

I just need to slow down for a while
I'm missing your warm smile
And the way you used to say
"stay with me till the daylight breaks
No matter what it takes
Just say you'll stay"

I will always carry you in my heart
You'll always be my shooting star
Autumn days will fade away
But memories willl always stay the same
I'm hoping you will never change
Don't ever change

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I love this song. I love Chase Coy. Bye.

Like a hole in the middle of my heart

 

Life without Jesus,

Is like a doughnut,

with a hole in the middle

of my heart.

 

I think i need a hiatus. Not just from this, but from life.

hi·a·tus (h-ts)

n. pl. hi·a·tus·es or hiatus

1. A gap or interruption in space, time, or continuity; a break:

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I am a jumble of passions,

 misgivings, and wants.

It seems that I am always

 in a state of wishing and

rarely in a state of contentment.

The Army

 

i've read the book, i prayed to god,

but cursed too much to be considered true.

i'm just like me,

so who the hell are you?

 

I think the The Army is so damn cool! Especially the new pixeled army uniforms. Oh and i learnt all about crabs and stars and i wanna see the 3-star commissioner! :) Haha Our World was like a maze! But i got a really nice pen from there :) It's like super inky and the casing is shiny and metallic.

If i wasn't such a girly girl i think i would have been more open to thinking about career or whatever in the Army.

And i wanna ride the tanks and stuff. It was incredibly cool. Some parts boring though. Like really boring like the Future World and presentations but it was still cool i guess :) Oh and the soldiers actually use pepper spray! I thought pepper spray was only meant for girls to spray at rapists and perverts, not used in the Amy :o

Anyway, i was so tired when we came back but my bloody wallet was still in Mui Gek's bag and she went to Toa Payo for dinner! Waited w sylvia and got it back after a loooooooong time.

I've got tons of homework- it feels like Os have replaced EOYs or something. Besides, i haven't felt the pressure (which is quite normal for me) but i think i'm gonna start freaking out like on the 23rd or something. Last minute work, don't fail me now. 

oh, you make me smile (ohhhh you make mee smile)

 

the time has come for you to sit this out.

to fit inside your mold would be to sell myself short.

this ground we tread upon we turn the pages left to right.

i see everything.

 

Today was tiring. So was yesterday and the day before. Almost everyday tires me out. Except Saturday :) Oh Saturday- i'm in love! :) (s'pose to be Friday but i hate Fridays)

Lets see. I've been constantly reminded that EOYs are approaching and it's not like i'm stupid and can't figure that out for myself. I am a pro procrastinator i procrastinate at almost everything. :/

Well. Things have changed people. I barely know some people now whom i once thought i knew.  

for one more day

At that moment, I felt lonelier than I'd ever felt before,

and that loneliness seemed to squat in my lungs

and crush all but my most minimal breathing.

There was nothing left to say.

Not about this.

Not about anything.

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"I am information.Nothing more,nothing less."

I didn't know G.I joe was a comic

 

Not my kind of show but still very entertaining. Especially the ninja parts! Snake eyes and Storm were extremely cool. Especially Storm (the white one). I went home to do research and found out that

 

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1. Snake Eyes whose face was never shown is actually..... an actor named Ray Park and he looks like this.

 

 

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Secondly, I found out that Storm is KOREAN. HAHAHAHAHA he probably has acted in those sappy korean love dramas. Tsk. Besides his real name is not that important since all Korean names sound the same and they have that dash ---- thing in the middle so.... Yes he is Korean. Shocker.

I present to you the first Korean who speaks resonably good english, for a Korean :)

 

Yay G.I joe is cool and im sure as hell gonna catch the sequel. W the scary whistling fake US president.