I've been singing this song for too long, just wishing we all would move on. Sick and tired of doing what you want. You've gone and turned this all into shit, it seems watered down a bit.
It's halloween! :) I wanna go Night Safari AND IT'S THE LAST DAY FOR THE HALLOWEEN SPECIAL :( :( :( This is sad.
Unfortunately, some loser got stuck at home and would rather spend halloween watching porn HAHA. Therefore w/o that loser i can't go either because i'm a loser too see, and i have no one else to go with except that loser.
I am a sad loser.
Anyway today was mostly about finishing Once in a lifetime, after which i proceeded to think about my own life. Which became quite depressing thus i am here blogging now.
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Forcing this to bend until breaking it apart. Supposing this doesn't have to be anymore than thought. For now it's not, and if I could just talk to you, and not want to tell it all. Because it seems, I've always known things change, they change.
I am exxxxxhausted! No quotes today, am rather lazy. When i'm done with Once in a lifetime i'll put some quotes from there into here :D Go read, it's damn nice. By Cathy Kelly :)
It rained today :( I hate it when i'm out and it's raining. And today wasn't exactly good either, i hate partings. Oh and kelly almost got striked by lighting :O
Lighting striked and kelly cried, Lighting striked and kelly died, Lighting striked and kelly blew up bright, Now, kelly's fried!
Hahahahahahaha hilarious jingle. Hmm kelly, sucks to be tall eh? :D
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You must've thought i was heartless, Well excuse me, but you don't know anything.
Today was a rather long day. I didn't know extraordinary wasn't pronounced as the way it's spelled, extra, ordinary. :(
And then we rescued a bird, from the drain. It was quite a full grown bird. We called SPCA and the lady was kind enough to tell me that they could not inform me of the bird's outcome in the end but i'm not stupid so obviously it means 'We're going to kill it but you can't know'.
I gave hb a miss today :) 5 days of it is enough to kill me. We went to white tangerine to eat lunch :D And played 'state the country!' thanks to Sha HAHA.
We talked about Alpha Beta Charlie Delta and i thought it was 1, 2, 3, 4. Thus the blunt statement 'I HAVE BETA BOOBS' came out from my mouth :O
Then we played pool after that :)
It started raining............................... urgh.
Okay then i went to ps with sylvia to get my daddy's present and we ended up shopping for Christmas presents! Haha and we bought a super cool mug. It is my secret weapon to scoring well for chem :D
Oh and i kept associating everyone to Fred from youtube and if you don't know who Fred is, watch this.
So spastic omg! Hahaha everyone had their Fred moments today :)
So i'm thinking... Longer day tomorrow, much much longer..
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They got,
They got all the right friends and all the wrong places So yeah we're going down.
They got all the right moves and all the wrong faces So yeah we're going down.
Well the clock’s heart it hangs inside its open chest with its hands stretched towards the calendar hanging itself, but I will not weep for those dying days.
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School was fine, hb wasn't that fine but it's hb what can i expect. Life is quite boring. Oh dear, i need to go read up on that non exhaustive vocab of lit words. There should be more than one word that means 'boring', well other than the word boring itself.
I am expecting things to happen that will never happen :) I cant wait for the next three weeks to pass as once this sorry excuse of a phase in education passes, i can probably shop till i literally drop. Going forward to Sec4 which in my opinion, actually does not feeling 'going forward' at all. All it feels like is 'going forward and falling of the cliff' kind of 'forward'.
Angsty much? Very angsty bel, a veryangstybel.
Listen.
I like. Band members whose looks comprise of geekyness and nerdiness but they make quite good music. The kind of music you can drown yourself in, along with the rest of your thoughts that deserve to be drowned.
Hi kelly, this one's for you :) The only song you apparently remembered from 500 days of summer.
Oh and and and She's got you high is also from 500 days of summer :) It has an awesome OST. Maybe even better than Nick and Norah's infinite playlist! :)
YAY now everyone go dl 500 days of summer OST please and send it to me?
I'm in love with it! :)
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I got some troubles but they won't last I'm gonna lay right down here in the grass And pretty soon all my troubles will pass 'cause I'm in shoo-shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo-shoo Shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo Sugar Town
I never had a dog that liked me some Never had a friend or wanted one So I just lay back and laugh at the sun 'cause I'm in shoo-shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo-shoo Shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo Sugar Town
Yesterday it rained in Tennessee I heard it also rained in Tallahassee But not a drop fell on little old me 'cause I was in shoo-shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo-shoo Shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo Sugar Town
If I had a million dollars or ten I'd give to ya, world, and then You'd go away and let me spend My life in shoo-shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo-shoo Shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo Sugar Town la-la-la-la to end
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IF YOU HAVEN'T NOTICED, THIS SONG DOES NOT MAKE SENSE. Like does sugartown even exists? :O I wanna go there if it does :)
So, we're back again, back to the beginning. What have we learned? Absolutely nothing. If it's one thing i learnt, it's that.. Sometimes, it's not meant to be.
I'm sorry for the mass upload, i haven't been myself lately, but feelings are beautiful and so are pictures. I'm starting to remind myself of Jacinta from SI's season 2, no? Hahahaha i remember 6si's failure skit :)
Okay anyway, new song new song new nice song :)
She's got you high- Mumm-ra
She's got you high and you don't even know yet She's got you high and you don't even know yet The sun's in the sky, its warming up your bare legs You can't deny your looking for the sunset
She's got you high and you don't even know yet She's got you high and you don't even know yet It's the search for the time before it leaves without you Have you lost your mind or has she taken all of yours too? Whats this about? I figured love would shine through We've lost romance this world has turned so see through Open your mind, believe it's going to come to Keep romance alive and hope she's going to tell you
She's got you high and you don't even know yet She's got you high and you don't even know yet The sun's in the sky, it makes for happy endings You can't deny you want a happy ending
Whats this about? I figured love would shine through We've lost romance this world has turned so see through Open your mind, believe it's going to come to Keep romance alive and hope she's going to tell you
She's got you high She's got you high She's got you high
Whats this about? I figured love would shine through We've lost romance this world has turned so see through Open your mind, believe it's going to come to Keep romance alive and hope she's going to tell you
Whats this about? I figured love would shine through We've lost romance this world has turned so see through Open your mind, believe it's going to come to Keep romance alive and hope she's going to tell you
She's got you high
Whats this about? I figured love would shine through We've lost romance this world has turned so see through Open your mind, believe it's going to come to Keep romance alive and hope she's going to tell you
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So.. another round tomorrow, and the next day, and the day after, and all the days to come. I love josh and andy :) They should just win best couple award of KyleXY rather than the dramamama Kyle + Amanda + Jessie relationship(s). Like seriously. Andy has cancer and Josh stuck with her. Andy moved to Cleaveland and Josh is still with her.
What could be sweeter than that! :)
Let's not even go to Lorie and Decklin, i have no idea what they're fighting about most of the time.
Okay goodnight :) I'm off to bed with 'she's got you high and you don't even know yet" repeatedly playing in my headdddd. She's got you high and you don't even know yet she's got you high and you don't even know yettttttttttt.
ten spiders crawl on my walls i guess that's all it's just an ordinary day
i don't know when we'll meet again i guess it'll be in an ordinary place
if my heart breaks will you pick it up and put in a plastic box if my heart fails will you set it straight and will you be there if i call i still got you on speed dial
so beautiful the lines you draw and the lines that makes up your ordinary face
through the day and into the night through this life in an ordinary way
What felt comforting, soothing, for the past years, felt like a big rectangular box with sides around it, today. I'm not adapting, and i'm not trying either. Every second i spent there tugged my heart down. Glancing around, i was certain it was the place i was suppose to be in, yet. Couple of times i turned around, unexpectedly expecting to see you stroll in, head held up high, carrying that jaded dignity. I guess not.
I didn't like you that much. Don't hate you either. But you were a pretty huge part of my life and to get up and leave, just like that.
I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna get.
So much for, so much more.
I'm pretty screwed up.
And I give myself three days to feel better, or else I swear I'll drive right off a fucking cliff, because if I can’t learn to make myself feel better, how can I expect anyone else to give a shit?
..Yeah i'm quite screwed.
I wanna watch 2012, and Adam Lambert's time for miracles is really nice. Mind boggling.
And when I see you, I really see you upside down. But my brain knows better, it picks you up and turns you around. Turns you around, turns you around.
If you feel discouraged, that there's a lack of color here, Please don't worry, lover, It's really bursting at the seams Absorbing everything, the spectrum's a to z.
This is fact not fiction for the first time in years. And all the girls in every girlie magazine can't make me feel any less alone. I'm reaching for the phone,
To call at 7:03 and on your machine I slur a plea for you to come home But i know it's too late, I should have given you a reason to stay, Given you a reason to stay
This is fact not fiction for the first time in years.
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School tomorrow, it makes me unhappy. Can i take a break and immerse myself in DCFC and the spill canvas.. please?
I'm missing people i'm really really really not suppose to.
I should have given you a reason to stay, given you a reason to stay, stay, stay.
If everyone cared and nobody cried. If everyone loved and nobody lied. If everyone shared and swallowed their pride. We'd see the day that nobody died.
'Tears' seemed like a rather good post title, since the past few days have been filled with it. Subjects i expected to fail, i passed. Those that i had high hopes for scoring, i was close to failing. Big blows, small amounts of happiness, i think tears were appropriate, no?
Because that's when things start going wrong, you know?
Where your head thinks and it thinks and it starts to
spin and spin and spin
and of course, you can't make it stop.
Funny how much things change in the blink of an eye. I mean, one moment you're happy, one moment you finally think you're going to be okay and the next, the next you're questioning everything.
One moment you have someone and the next they're gone. And I suppose it makes sense, I mean seasons change, and nothing lasts forever. I just wish that for once it would.
But we all know.. wishes don't come true.
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Today was exhausting. I finally got to play pool again though, after like a billion years i suppose. Besides, sha and deanna are really good for people who just started, seriously. And sylvia being sylvia... had her funny moments heehee.
I don't know if you can see The changes that have come over me In these last few days I've been afraid That I might drift away I've been telling old stories, singing songs That make me think about where I've come from That's the reason why I seem So far away today
Now I have moved and I've kept on moving Proved the points that I needed proving Lost the friends that I needed losing Found others on the way I have kissed the fellas and left them crying Stolen dreams, yes, there's no denying I have traveled hard, sometimes with conscience flying Somewhere with the wind
Now I'm sitting here before the fire The empty room, the forest choir The flames have cooled, don't get any higher They've withered, now they've gone But I'm steady thinking, my way is clear And I know what I will do tomorrow When hands have shaken, the kisses float Then I will disappear
Stop assuming. It might get you far, but it's far from the truth.
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I am officially hooked onto House Of The Night series thanks to kelly :) And i went to check the pictures- Erin is really pretty she's like.... prettier than Blair (zomg can't believe i just said that).
Besides, i don't seem to be bothered about not watching season 3 of gg. It's out yes i know but there's like Hilary Duff.........................................
Which makes everything kind of.. eew.
We're getting back papers tomorrow. I'm freaking out. + There's some annoying hb performance so i'll be missing chem like (wtf) i really wanna see my chem marks to know how badly i failed. Actually i think i failed the worst for my 2 maths. That's not even a proper sentence i think.
Okay point is i'm really worried about tomorrow........................................... Fk!
To my favorite teacher Who told me never give up To my 5th grade crush Who I thought I really loved To the guys I missed And the girls we kissed Where are you now?
To my ex-best friends Don't know how we grew apart To my favorite band And sing-alongs in my car To the face I see In my memories Where are you now?
Where are you now? Cause I'm thinking of you You showed me how How to live like I do If it wasn't for you I would never be who I am
To my first girlfriend I thought for sure was the one To my last girlfriend Sorry that I screwed it up To the ones I loved But didn't show it enough Where are you now?
Where are you now? Cause I'm thinking of you You showed me how How to live like I do If it wasn't for you I would never be who I am
And I'll never see those days again And things will never be that way again But that's just how it goes People change, but I know I won't forget you
guitar solo
To the ones who cared And who were there from the start To the love that left and took a piece of my heart To the few who'd swear I'd never go anywhere Where are you now?
Where are you now? Cause I'm thinking of you You showed me how How to live like I do If it wasn't for you I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you I would never be who I am If it wasn't for you I'd be nothing Where are you now?
Okay time crisis is nice :) nice nice nice :) yay and the couple thingum game idk the name. Okay i reaaaaaally don't feel like going to school tmr..... HMMM.
You are seriously getting on my nerves. 1, 2 3 strikes and you're out. Thank your lucky stars (i don't even think any stars would be lucky for you) that you haven't striked 3rd yet. But it's twice now. And i dislike you so much i feel like squashing you and your non-existant life into a pulp.
You really annoy me.
Stop being such an ADD person it's like you're desperate! omg you despo :) i shall nickname you despo from now onwards. Henceforth you shall be known as 'The despo' HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
Seriously stfu and get a hold of your despo desperate disgusting self. You're like a bitch you know :) but worse, i think. I don't know yet but the monstrosity of your................. everything is enough to scare me :) you are so disgusting it scares me! haha. 2 face bitch.
If i walk would you run If i stop would you come If i say you're the one would you believe me If i ask you to stay would you show me the way Tell me what to say so you don't leave me The world is catching up to you While your running away to chase your dream It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change And maybe i'm not ready
But i'm trying for your love I can hide up above I will try for your love We've been hiding enough
If i sing you a song would you sing along Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull If i give you my heart would you just play the part Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful Am i catching up to you While your running away, to chase your dreams It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change And maybe i'm not ready
Today was nice :) ahaha we watched Fame! YAY and it was quite good :) Asher Book is really really talented his voice is like a constant lullaby k omg :) And he looks quite...... fine :) cept for the 2 front teeth but other than that he is CUTE :)
and then we went to eat a v hilarious dinner at subway which was really hilarious beyondddd hilarious okay i laughed until my food almost-didn't go down my (asshole phagus) ((inside joke)) LOL and okay i had to carry some retarded balloon which was REALLY CUTE, SYLVIA AND SHA thank you! :)
And then we bought A present at NTUC and saw this horrible creature who went like high pitched *excuuuse meee* so annoying.
:) Asher Book! :) :) :) the No.1 bestseller of all time HAHA :)
....So. Is it me or is it the v big giganormous fact that you've forgotten everything? Yes i know people come people go blahblah but i just didn't think you'd go that soon. Or at least, now. For that, YOU SUCK. *claps in approval*
Yes i'm a bit looney now because my heart and my mind are so not working together- mainly they're just concerned about monday. Whether i have p1 biophysics or whether there's nothing on monday and i should watch my shows at ease. Hmmmm.
Well then, piano is in half and hour's time and after that it's time to decide whether i'll be pushing myself for one last (no scratch that) for two last papers or......... hmm :)
I swear i've never felt more alone in my whole entire life.
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Today's paper- needless to say, was screwed. I mistook P1 for P2 and anyway now that's over i'm not going to touch my books anymore. Not today or tomorrow at least. I love new perspective :)
omg k smth annoying, i've started reading fruits basket again. Like wth omggggg.
I wanna watch cloudy w a chance of meatballs HAHA and FAME OMG I WANNA WATCH FAME and JENNIFER'S BODY! There's like Megan Fox and Amanda Seyfried! :(
Yay my stupid iPhone finally connects to the equally stupid broadband shit. Excuse me if I have any spelling errors- see it's 1245am and I'm typing on a keypad that's 1/10 the size of a normal keyboard.....So. The first 30mins of my 15th year of life saw me juggling smses and trying to cram tests for anions and gases into my head.It was exactly how I expected it to be. I still have to do hxc mugging tmr because I haven't touched bio, and physics has most likely made itself extinct in my mind.Amath was a total screw up :) i couldn't finish a single question cept modulus (shocker) that I'd have to thank Sarah for being extrodinarily patient with me during Hb :) luv you Sarah! Ahamy cousin is getting mr a yatch this year. He claims that the limousine he bought for me got hijacked by terrorists and the yatch is taking a long time to arrive due to customs and all. Joker much?Mk, well. Happy birthday bel. Oh wait, I forgot. Sad sad birthday bel :(
