DCFC

I am falling back in love with DCFC.

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The glove compartment isn't accurately named
And everybody knows it.
So i'm proposing a swift orderly change.

Cause behind its door there's nothing to keep my fingers warm
And all i find are souvenirs from better times
Before the gleam of your taillights fading east
To find yourself a better life.

I was searching for some legal document
As the rain beat down on the hood
When i stumbled upon pictures i tried to forget
And that's how this idea was drilled into my head

Cause it's too important
To stay the way it's been

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night (up all night)
When i'm lying awake at night.

WGM

 

I'm tired of being nice to people who don't give a shit about me.

 

So i wasted the whole entire Sunday morning watching WGM which rocks. I only watched the episodes with kangin and yoonji (WHO'S REALLY PRETTY) And i'm ANTICIPATING the hyun joong one :) And i'll watch the Ga-in one if i have time :)

Haha Camp was pretty much useless. I didn't learn anything and i'm still stuck in this shithole so i guess it was a total. waste. of. time. I am so ready to go. Just go.

This Tuesday brings about my first violin lesson after idk, a million years? I don't even know where i put my violin anymore. And i have a feeling the strings broke. Ah fk.

Because i'm stupid

 

She wasn’t bitter. She was sad, though.
But it was a hopeful kind of sad.
The kind of sad that just takes time.

 

I guess it's a really bad idea to drink choya on an empty stomach. I've downed 3 shots and i wanna eat the plums in the choya bottle :( Hahaha. Okay. No, i am not drunk.

............................................. I am stupid. Babonica! Don't even know why i'm in 4a1. Cheers to each and every failure in my woebegone life.

Hello Baby

 

Forget the risk and take the fall.
If it's meant to be, then it's worth it all.

 

Cute? Too cute for words? Micky yoochun? Cute? Yes, cute, definitely cute. He really doesn't look that bad here :) Hahaha shinee is xtremely good looking. Almost as good as dbsk :O and hello baby was hilarious ttm :)

The day was spent at Mt.A, and i couldn't do amath questions :( Anyway there was like, a plasma tv in the room, and Thank God the other person got discharged :D We could use the xtra table :D

Winnie flicked to MTV and GUESS WHAT CAME OUT. SUJU AND SNSD'S S.E.O.U.L MV OMGGGGGGGGG IT'S ON MTV OMGGGGGGGGGG LIKE SERIOUSLY. AND THEN FOLLOWED BY THAT THERE WERE LIKE MANY 'INDEFINITELY YOURS, SEOUL' ADVERTS, WHICH ONE OF THOSE I SAW DBSK *FAINTS*

Kpop is dominating mtv as well, so it seems :D Hahahahaha egggggciting!

K, today was nice enough. The weekends do pass by too fast....................... ah.

Get well soon luv <3 Miss you! And here are your multiple winnie the pooh bears. Ahaha.

I'll be there

 

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world

 

Today....... was tiring. I screwed up english and i'm going to get a HUUUGE scolding on monday i can assure you, you're down for a show.

Hb was............ urgh. Idk. We went to visit Winnie after that, and ate dinner at like..... 9+. Anyway get well soon winnie i love you plenty.

Somehow, after lit lesson today, i just wanna be like Boo Radley and stay locked up in my own house, away from society away from the flaws and imperfections of this world.

Today just sucked. I'm serious.

Listen, we might as well be strangers- keane. V nice. V applicable.

 

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know

It's you

 

Letting go isn't a one time thing,
its something you do everyday,
over and over again.

 

No, i have no idea why i'm online either. Well, i guess everyone's off studying their ass out for chem test tomorrow. While i'm blogging. Something is really wrong with me.

Anyway, von got me hooked to 'it's you'. I guess my dreams of giving up kpop aren't going to come too soon. I was so tired after school i kept rubbing my eyes till my contacts popped out and my eyes started to water. OhmyGod i can't wait for the weekends. I really can't.

I don't know why we put things off but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has alot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear comes from having to make a decision. What if you're wrong, what if your making a mistake you cant undo?

Set the fire to the third bar

 

I am the photograph tucked away as a book-mark,
in a book left half unread,
once reopened to find memories
crawling back into peripheral sight,
faded,
creased and lonely.

 

It's gonna rain. I hope the rain lasts through the night. I like rainy nights. Not in the day though, it's irksome. I'm glad i survived today as well. It's metally straining to go through toture day after day.

On a lighter note, i've got blg tix alr :) Happy happy. The 98$ ones weren't sold out afterall. Shall be ponning house meeting then. At least it compensates for my we-are-not-malaysia-people-therefore-you-cannot-go-to-malaysia-to-watch-superjunior sadness. I will now begin to devise my step-by-step (however, forlorn) escapade past the Tuas Causeway and find the shortest route to KL.

Which, by the way, is a totally perplex and almost-unsolvable problem but i. will. get. my. ass to KL by any means be it stealing a helicopter or digging an illegal tunnel via the water pipe that leads to msia because it's general knowledge that singapore buys water from msia and also another general knowledge that water runs in pipes.

If it's not general knowledge, i have good government literacy knowledge and EJ would be proud of me.

Oh, the rain's stopping. Haha i just saw lightning. Which reminds me of static electricity, which reminds me of physics, which reminds me of my homework, and the impending mentality to procrastinate.

Listen, set the fire to the third bar by Snow Patrol ft.Martha Wainwright.

SARANGHAE S.E.O.U.L

 

Love is ecstasy and agony.
Freedom and imprisonment.
Belonging and loneliness.
It is what keeps us together when life tears us apart.

 

After getting through today, i felt accomplished. There was this insane split of a split of a split second though, where i found myself missing you. Which is totally insane because you'd be the last person i'd ever think i'd miss.

But the feeling just came. And went away. (Thankfully)

Anyway, i wanna go to the blg concert. Ah if i can't get to msia to go to suju's one, i WILL go for the blg concert even if i have to use a spoon and dig my way to sentosa. So there.

Hell tomorrow, hold on.

Cuz i can't stop (can't stop)

 

We're all looking for answers.
We all want to understand who we are.
But sometimes we want to know so badly
that we believe just about anything.

 

Just came back from the meettheprincipal thingum :) It wasn't toooooo bad. But i was a tad bit annoyed when i got bombarded with direct questions in which my brain (who wasn't awake yet) had to dig itself and come up with some empathizing replies. Oh and i had to kinda contort my facial expression to prevent it from looking aghastly annoyed. There is no such word as aghastly. Whatever, i was annoyed.

Hahahaha and my one-time motto/quote/vision of the day :

'People who think they know everything are very irritating to those of us who do.'

HEEHEEE i am knowledgable :D :D :D

 

THIS VIDEO IS FKING HILARIOUS KANGIN LOOKS SKINNY, SUNGMIN LOOKS CUTE, SHINDONG IS AMUSING, EUNHYUK IS SUPER SUPER ADORABLE, I DON'T LIKE YESUNG AND LEETEUK LOOKS HOT W/O HIS EYELINER.

Ahaha as to why i don't put up dbsk vids, it's cuz they make me sad. Sad and happy. Had and sappy. Haha bittersweet. Idk. Anyway, here's to a funfunfunfun weekend. It's Heaven compared to school. (which makes school hell in case you didn't catch the drift) :)

Baby, we keep the faith eternally

 

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal.
Sometimes you can't always see
the pain someone else feels.

 

I realised i haven't updated this onsugar for quite a long time now :) Hahahaha okay the week was tiring :( :( :( Mmm, nothing on monday? Went to watch sherlocks on Tues.. Wed was dreary.. Thurs was nice studying in macs :) :) Cheers to good company and UNBELIVABLE gossip. Friday (today) was lazyyyyyyy hahahaha had lunch in white tangerine :D Haven't been there for a looong time.

K suju is going to Msia i'm not going to whine about why they won't come to sg when it's just a tuas causeway away from stupid msia but however, I REALLY WANNA GOOOOOO :( :( :( And SHINee is coming to singapore *GASP* *GASP AGAIN* *GASP AGAIN AND FAINT* Haha.

Okay i'm not really SUUUUUUUUUPER WILL-DIE-IF-I-DON'T-SEE-THEM EXCITED because they aren't DBSK and DBSK isn't them. However i am still quite excited HAHAHAHA i don't know what nonsense i'm uttering.

K tmr is meettheprincipal day or whatever. Haha it's gonna be......... so weird? I'm dreading it D:

Cause I can't stop thinking about u girl
neowa hamkke itkko shipeo
no I can't stop thinking about you girl
nal yeogi dugo gabeorijima

cause I can't stop thinking about u girl
neol naekkeoro mandeulgeoya
no I can't stop thinking about you girl
nae uri ane gadugoshipeo

THIS SONG WAS STUCK IN MY HEAD THE ENTIRE DAY :)

I lost a friend

Where did i go wrong
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness

Brick by boring brick

 

There's a crack in my soul,
you thought it was a smile

 

OMGGGGGGGGGGGG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG ARE IN VANCOOVER NOW I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR ANYONE WHO CAN FLY ME TO TORONTO OR VANCOOVER OR ANY PART OF CANADA NOW! IN AN HOUR! OR A MIN! TRAVEL AT THE SPEED OF LIGHT!

I LOVE SEEING JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG TOGETHER :) IT'S LIKE, THEY WERE MEANT FOR EACH OTHER *AHHHH SCREAM SPASMS AND DIES* AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG

JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG

OMGGGGGGGGGGG <3 <3 <3 HAHAHAHAHHHAHAHA.

Today is a very stressful day indeed. Listen to brick by boring brick my paramore. Hahaha i like :)

 

She kinda looks like a barbie doll or smth :) I like her blonde hair!

JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I WILL HAVE A SLEEPLESS NIGHT TONIGHT. I wonder what they're doing now :) Jaejoong and hyunjoong ahhhh can't believe it. Okay bel SHUT UP. JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG <3

All Time Low- Break out! Break out!

I chanced upon this while trying to find the dl for dbsk's break out! Hahahaha and All Time Low had this, and the acousitc one as well which is really good but i still prefer this :) :) :) Hahaha.

The first part is a tad bit metal though. Haha but the verse and chorus is definitely alt.rock :) My fav! Better than kpop! Haha deanna and sylvia would probably be happy that i'm saying it's better than kpop. But it is. Okay.

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Luck loves me not tonight, I'm running out...
This four leaf clover's all but useless now.
I've got four wheels that say I'm not alone tonight.
I'm always looking for a joy ride through the brightest part of this town.

Break out! Break out!
As we escape through the windows-
Head for the car, and never look back- singing-singing-
"Break out! Break out!
Our time has come and we've got these big city dreams."

Put up or shut up, we're not wasting time again.
The credits are rolling and we're getting lost again.
In parking lots, to serenading sirens.
As the blue lights bathed our smiles...
Break out! Break out!
As we escape through the windows-
Head for the car, and never look back- singing-singing-
"Break out! Break out!
Our time has come and we've got these big city dreams."

Lets take a moment to reflect,
on the past few years of my life.
I haven't worked myself away,
to stay inside.
This is the time to let us...

Break out! Break out!
As we escape through the windows-
Head for the car, and never look back- singing-singing-
"Break out! Break out!
Our time has come and we've got these big city dreams."

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:) Awesome i AM deviating away from kpop. Now, joshua radin will sing me to sleep! It's 3 and i've finished my essay :) Goodnight! AKTF

Break Out

Baby we keep the faith eternally.

Tired

 

I am in love with words.
Words that touch.
They may hurt but they touch,
that's what counts.

 

Okay so, i just woke up like bout half an hour ago. It's 1am now, and i'm supposed to do lit essay and hand in tomorrow. Wow WONDERFUL.

Am really really tired. Came back at 7 after hb and went straight to bed. I expected myself to wake up at round 9+ but nooooo, i almost slept the whole night through before my dad came into the room and woke me up at 12+. Shouldn't have checked my phone. Now i have to do lit essay.

I shouldn't be complaining now i suppose. Cuz when Os are coming it'd be worse. URGH this is so annoying.

Hankyung and kibum :D

 

Letting go isn't a one time thing,
its something you do everyday,
over and over again.

 

Reason for the suju title: falling in love with dbsk is possibly the most depressing thing that has ever happened. I couldn't bear the traumatic wait of news about their lawsuit, and sought comfort and laughter and joy in suju's hilariously entertaining shows, afterwhich i started liking hankyung and kibum :D And sungmin and eunhyuk. HAHA.

OKAY. enough kpop, i have a lot of hw to do, it's 10:12 :( I still have one more freaking chinese compo to do and emath hw :( AHHHHH i don't wanna be sec 4. Today was a damn tiring day. I would use the f word if i didn't make a covenant to stop using it. :) I don't think i've used it since first jan :D haha

okay bye! Time to embrace my race and do my compo.

Post

 

One of the hardest things in your life
is to have words in your heart that you can't utter.

 

I actually posted on Monday and Tuesday but took them down like a minute after i posted. I didn't feel the need to post what i actually posted anymore. Simply because it doesn't change anything.

Last night was bad. I decided that  I like to see people reunited, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can't tell fast enough, the ears that aren't big enough, the eyes that can't take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone.

Anything that is on the contrary to the above would make me cry.

School has now changed from being ridiculously boring to ridiculously pressurizing and depressing. There's this major increase in work now and we are constantly being reminded of Os.

That and i'm just really annoyed. 

URGH i have to do homework now. And this is the first time i'm uttering that sentence since a million billion years ago. Oh and what the hell is wrong with you? Babo. I'M SWEARING OFF KPOP. BYE.

TOMORROW.

 

Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away 
and going away means forgetting.

 

I can't believe school starts tomorrow. This holiday feels like a dream. I'm going back to that godforsaken place and there's nothing i can do to stop it. 11:11 wishes, i hope you're at your peak now.

My heart is breakinggggggggggggg like hell it is breaking. :(

Johsua Radin is going to sing me to sleep tonight. Goodnight world, may you experience a little less than hell tomorrow.

DBSK HWAITING!!

 

I learned not to be picky with farewells.
They weren't guaranteed, nor promised.
You were lucky, Blessed even,
If you got a goodbye at all.

 

If you don't know me by now, i usually want the hard, disgusting, saddening, and empowering truth. The kind of truth that makes me seem like a lunatic to people. The truth that keeps me heavily dosed on some sort of narcotic so i don't lose my sanity.

When faced with tragedy, we gather as many people around us as we possibly can. Mere acquaintances become best friends. Enemies become kindred spirits. We need people so later we can look back and say, 'I went through that with them.' People who can remind us that what we experienced, what we felt, was real. That we were there. So on that morning in early December, when we were all roused from our cozy dorm rooms just as the gray mist of dawn had started to rise, everyone set about finding that group to cling to. Someone to link arms with to make us feel less vulnerable, less unsure. Less like the world was on the verge of caving in.

I'm sorry if i have hurt you in some way or another in 2009. 2010 is going to be a deepshit year (literally). This month is going to be so brutal i wouldn't even know what hit me.

It's coming

 

i learned too late that to leave it not the same as
being left but for some reason it feels the same

 

School is coming. Tomorrow is the last day of the holidays. Omfg this is depressing.

I'd rather be with you

 

As we grow up,
we realize it becomes
less important to have more friends
and more important to have real ones.

 

My real and final new year resolution. You're actually suppose to have one only right? So here is it.

My new year's resolution is to sieve through all my friends and find true ones, and cherish them :)

Hahahaha btw i like an english song. :) Hahahaha i suppose i'm preparing my heart for the heartbreak when dbsk finally disbands. I got quite a scare this morning :( Stupid media! I really hope they don't though. It'll be really heartbreaking.

Okay normally i don't share my favvvv indie songs but here it is! :) Enjoy! I'd rather be with you by Joshua Radin

Happy New Year

 

Sometimes someone says something really small
and it just fits right into this empty place in your heart.

 

Happy New Year! How did you countdown? Or did you even countdown at all!! Hahaha i counted down in my father's friends house. But i made it special but conferencing with Sylvia and Sha :) But i think they were just sitting in their own rooms listening to me shout 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 WOHOOOOOO on the phone.

Okay so, 2009, has been a great year. Well, most of it anyway. It was BOOMZ :) Hahaha 2010, will hopefully, be a happier year!

Now, my resolutions :) I'll just type whatever that comes to mind k!

• Slowly disengage self from Kpop scene
• Be nicer to people i really dislike
• Focus
• Be happier with more friends :) Make more friends!
• Change church and find one with Winnie
• Constantly keeping the same diary throughout the year.

 

Haaha i hope i can do it :) Hwaiting! Happy new year! :) Lots of love in bite-sized pieces :) <3