Adoration

Fingers, don't fail me now. Not now, please, not now. You may tear and bleed and bruise and turn red for all i care. Just don't stop moving. Keep playing, keep dancing on strings. I swear if you don't i'll chop all 10 of you off.

The week has proven to be a very fked up one. For one, i can't control my emotions anymore. Everything is unnerving to me now. I'm constantly on the edge and it tires the hell out of me. To make matters worse, i caught a stupid flu bug + a fluctuating fever.

There's some full dress rehersal thing tomorrow. Which will put me in a bad mood. Because it is less important and the time wasted there can be used for practicing strings. Practice practice practice.

 

Honestly, i cringe at the very thought of losing you.
Everything seems to be crumbling down now..

Honey and the moon

 

But right now,
everything is turning blue and right now,
the sun is trying to kill the moon and right now,
i wish i could follow you...

 

I feel like a total ass sitting down in front of the com for the whole morning. Repression. Apparently. Anyway i'm munching on hothothot popcorn chicken now :D With strawberry yoghurt and nata de coco :D Purfact lunch.

Ytd was guitar concert, i liked the duets :) I like all. Well, almost. But seriously, 2 hours of listening to guitars is quite enough.

What's for dinner? (Oh no)

KCUF

 

You see, but you do not observe.
The distinction is clear.

 

Kcuf today and everything else along with it. Kcuf you and all your imbellic character, self-absorbed nature. 

Wolf in sheep's clothings, she is. You're worse. You despicable person. Inhumane, the monstrosity of your agenda makes me throw up. You are, a wolf in shephard's clothings. Nope, you have no insights about philo whatsoever but i'm sure you have at least 6 sensible neurones in your brain to spell out google.

Go figure.

I can't be bothered anymore. I thought that was right, i thought wrong. I thought this is right, seems it's wrong as well.

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Sports day tmr, why must they plan such a retarded senseless theme for this year's sports day when we're graduating already? Will it kill to just let us spend our last year nicely without any nonsensical rubbish like this?

I'm still recovering from the aftermath of me, being foolishly decieved. Thank you, THANKS A LOT. 

 

On the contrary, Watson, you can see everything.
You fail, however, to reason from what you see.
You are too timid in drawing your inferences.

니가 좋은 이유

geudae ga geudae ga nan geudae ga "saranghae saranghae nul saranghae"
lago malhalddae naleul midgae dweh
geudae ga guedae ga nan geudae ga gamanhi gamanhi nae nooneul bomyuh
ooseul ddae nado ootgae weh niga joeun iyoo

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Possibly the best soundtrack of my life. Possibly. If 2pm doesn't come up with a better song. If dbsk doesn't return to Korea. This would be the best. song. ever. Awsm.

Heartbeat

 

i have to forget. i have to forget in order to live
i have to erase it. if i don't, i'll die

 

Last post before i head off to hell tomorrow. And for the rest of the week. :( I have to forget. I have to forget in order to live. I have to erase it. If i don't, i'll die

Why i like you

I can feel 2 things- first i can feel loserish for being the only constant onsugar updater. OR, i can always feel proud for being the only constant onsugar updater for updating my blog in the middle of preperation towards O's. Whichever way i'm still being stupid for updating.

The holidays have gone by super fast i will. not. harp. on how fast they've gone by because my whole life is alr an example of time moving at the speed of light. That is not awsm. No, not at all.

Anyway the only song i'm putting on constant replay which it's play count has reached a whooping awsm count of 500 on iTunes is why i like you by suju. That is awsm. Everything else isn't.

Omgggggggggg I don't want to go back to school on Monday. It kills it really does. To the point that i think the UN should come in and classify going to school as a genocide for it causes mass displacement. Of neurones in my brain cells. Like seriously.

Tomorrow......... is the last day of hols before everything goes back to normal. With more action. Jammed pack action. Not awsm, not awsm at all.

Pointless

 

Hehe i'm using deanna's com to post this now. While she's being a pig trying to beat highscores on the blowfish popper thing. Blah today is very blah blah blah.

I shall go watch skins now byee.

When finally set free

Feel the pain teaching us how much more we can take
Reminding us how far we've come
Let the pain burn away from our hearts
We have time to start all over again

iPhone picccccccs

I figured i have a lot of updating to do :) iPhone picture quality kinda suckass but just make do with it.

 

C-c-c-cousin, CNY 

One tenth of my current Jaejoong shrine. (Will become Nichkhun's soon) 

Lights :) above my bed. The circular thing at the side is my high hat.  

 Damn nice chocolate diabetic cake before frosting.

Omg look at the choco chips. Awsm, ttm. 

Hehe a worse diabetic cake, with sugar coated frostings and white choco chips and smarties.  

 In case you are blind, or suffer from some severe myopic disease, the smarties show 'J <3'.
Happy sixteenth Joyce, luv u.

 Never-ending 3 storeys high escalator. Sylvia almost died.

 

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Physics was fine. Coffee helped. Lunched with sha and bing and they cannot play charades (HAHA). I am never going back to bugis ever again. It's fucked.

Still, we managed to get Sha's dance pants and sylvia bought 2 tops so today was fine :)

Physics is cancelled tmr. HAPPY :) HAHAHAHAHA.

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VON'S GOING TO M'SIA TMR AND SHE'S GONNA WATCH SS2 ON SATURDAY YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE HOW INCREDIBLY JEALOUS I AM AT THIS POINT OF TIME THIS SUCKS.

I WANNA SEE SUNGMIN AND KYUNHYUN AND DONGHAE AND EUNHYUK AND RYEOWOOK :(

Nvm i shall console myself by knowing she's not gonna see nichkhun or jaejoong or dbsk :) Haha super junior. WHATEVER.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

OMG SO BLOODY UNFAIR.

Mad

 

You think you’re going mad,
so you came to see me
to see what a mad person looks like.

 

Shame, the holidays could've lasted longer. Now it's just Thursday and Friday that's left and going to school for physics on both days presumably wouldn't make things a fraction of an atom better. Hell i was right. Reality is not for me.

Urgh everything is just fucked i tell you. Fucked.

Alice in Wonderland, underland?

 

If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense.
Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't.
And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be.
And what it wouldn't be, it would.
You see?

 

We celebrated Joyce's sixteenth yesterday! Marche was damn bloody good I WNA GO THERE AGAIN. Hahahaha and we ended watching Alice in Wonderland 3D at like.. super late and all reached home at 12. But the movie was damn bloody awesome hahahaha and i like Alice's dresses :)

Oh and we baked this diabetic cake, whereby if you eat it you'll proabbly die of immediate diabetes, i am serious hahaha.

Oh! And i went to the library i borrowed this 1000+ page Sherlock Holmes collection and the print is even smaller than my bible LOL.

Pictures, up next post. Cuz SARAH NG has yet to send me pictures HAHA calling her SARAH NG is ridiculously hilarious :D heheehehhe.

NICHKHUN

 

 

Honestly, if this isn't hot, i don't know what is. Hahahahahahahahhaha this may come as shocking news to you, (it was bewildering for me, definitely) but I'D PICK NICHKHUN HORVEJKUL AND ALL 61KG OF HIM AND HIS WHOLE ENTIRE MASS OF CHINESE-THAI MIXED BLOOD, OVER KIM JAEJOONG.

:O

There i said it. Anyway, that deserved an open mouthed :O rather than a small one :o HAHA not the point. Point is, kim jaejoong is still ohsovery hot, but nichkhun is............................................ wayy hotter far too hot for comparison. I am infactuated AHHHHHH.

Omg MY WALLPAPER HAS CHANGED! From jaejoong's big fat face to his big fat face :) :) :) I can almost see every pore on his face since it's so mfking BIG! Okay that sounded gross......... but okay i will faint everytime i start up my computer :)

This post deserves a trip to CC to see if they have nichkhun stuffs :)

Hahahahaha Deanna's in M'sia now :( :( :(

Fairy

Sometimes i wish she was you.

Dear John soundtrack

 

And the things that keep us apart keep me alive and
The things that keep me alive keep me alone

 

Never mine, never mind.

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I don't know if you noticed anything different
It's getting dark and it's getting cold and the nights are getting long
I don't know if you even noticed at all
That I'm long gone baby, I'm long gone

Emma

Is it just me or did the whole bloody world twist the simple concept of friendship. I just don't get it!

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She would notice her; she would improve her; she would detach her from her bad acquaintances, and introduce her into good society; she would form her opinions and her manners.  It would be an interesting, and certainly a very kind undertaking; highly becoming her own station in life, her leisure, and powers.
-Emma

Dear John

 

It's possible to go on,
no matter how impossible it seems,
and that in time,
the grief . . . lessens.
It may not go away completely,
but after a while it's not so overwhelming

 

I finally caught a decent movie. Tugged my heartstrings at times, especially John's father. Overall, it's nice. Makes you think about life. And makes you forget whatever you're facing at the moment, and just sink into someone else's misery. That's how i see it. Might be different from how you see anyway.

Today saw dining alfresco at Mos and laughing at winnie's unprecedented choice of a Natsumi fish burger. Not so hilarious but still amusing :)

I think it's too late but, for the record, i'd pick you.

Scrap that

Scrap the previous post. I was being selfish and asking for too much. I'm still sorry. Even more then before.

E-learning

 

I would stay

 

E learning sucks. It's 1145am i just woke up not too long ago. E learning sucks.

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I'm sorry. Really i am. Hasn't it changed? Haven't i told you? If you could only see then. If you could only see that i truly truly truly am sorry. But this one thing i really need you to know, is that things have changed. For the better. Please? Forgive me?

313

 

well then the sky opened up and starting pouring rain,
like it knew it was time to start things over again

 

It was too much at one go. Didn't have enough time to metally prepare myself. They were mixed with disappointment, discourage and worse- anger and despair. So i stacked everything up too quickly to stack it properly and thus everything came tumbling down.

It's times like this that i wish i never cared, so i wouldn't expect any care back in return. But i did care, and as selfish as it sounds, i hoped to recieve that same receprocation of care. I did recieve it, in the form of words. Meaningless words, i now know. In the form of actions, however, it never came, and it's not coming, and i wonder if it'll ever come.

Thinking about people that make me happy is enough to overrule any thoughts of you completely. I am thankful for that alone.