Hide every trace of sadness, although a tear may be ever so near

 

Smile though your heart is aching,
smile even though it's breaking

 

I'm sorry, i'm really sorry N. You know i'm not worth this, i'm not worth what you're giving me. I honestly don't think i deserve it from someone this special. I'd rather keep you as a friend, rather than something that's awful. Pick anyone else but me, i'll only bring you misery.

To another, hi. I'm just stumbled over some old photos and just like that, it hits me. Ohmygod i miss you. For reasons unbeknownst to me as to why i won't answer your texts like i used to, why i don't pull you in for a hug when i see you, or why i don't want to see you at all anymore, i really do miss you. With all my heart. Then again, i'd wonder, how could you leave me just like that? How could you?!

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I'm not a good enough person, not a good enough friend, not a good enough lover, not a good enough student. I'm not good enough. I'll never be good enough. Never.