OMG, DON'T FREAK OUT

Yes, as we all know, or rather, in case no living soul reads my very hiatus-ed blog anymore, TOMORROW, is chinese O's. I don't know why i'm making such a big deal out of it but yes, it is a life and death situation. Do i feel the slightest bit prepared? Not really. Then again, i don't think i'd ever be prepared but omg IT'S TOMORROW.

OMGGGGGGGGGGG. HAHAHAHAHA I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. ACTUALLY I CAN. OKAY I SOUNDED LIKE SARAH FOR ABIT.

THE REST OF THIS POST WILL BE DEDICATED TO WINNIE, WHO HAS ACCOMPLISHED SEVERAL GREAT THINGS TODAY! OR AT LEAST.. 2. SHE READ 100 CHINESE COMPOS AND 200 OF MY VERY VERY VERY OLD BLOG POSTS. :)

And, she is dissatisfied that her name has been mentioned only a few times in all my years of blogging history therefore winnie, your name has been mentioned like infinity number of times, following this :

WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE WINNIE

OMG HAHAHAHA GO COUNT IT :)

Yay, love you winnie :) :) :) We must go out more often and go shopping k <3 <3 good luck for chinese O's.

And to.......................... the rest of the world esp people who've been studying w me these couple of days, you know who you are, to the rest of 4a1 normal chinese people and like the rest of.... the world taking normal chinese tomorrow, good luck :)

You will need it!

O's

 

But if you wanna leave, you can.
I’ll remember you though,
just like I remember everyone that leaves.
NO I WILL NOT. SCREW YOU.

 

I'm so caught up in the o's-are-next-monday phase that i can barely process a coherent thought anymore. I'm losing myself in papers of chinese words that vaguely make sense, i'm blinking my eyes trying to make do of the composition title that i am expected to write a full length essay about. I have to write letters, formal, informal to people of all sorts.

I am losing myself, i'm losing sense.

If you want to leave now, go ahead. I honestly can't say i blame you. My fingers are itching to dedicate a sentence so that its sole purpose is to insult you.............. and also to vent my anger.

If your eyes are idk- too minute to be opened wide enough to see how fucked up i am now, then i'm sorry. I don't fucking have the time or energy to give a damn about you and if you are still expecting life to slow down and wait for you, i'm sorry i think you're more fucked up than i possibly am. Please don't tell me anything my brain has no more capacity to listen to the sorrows and burdens of your oh-so-VERY-interesting-life.

I really do detest you now. You irritate me so much i think at this very moment, i hate you more than i hate studying for chinese. So please don't bother me anymore, i'm not going to even try to do something about this rut you're in. Who do you think you are? I can clearly see now that i'm just wasting my time on you. Screw you and all the shit you carry around with you.

Oh- to think i thought you were different. You're just the same. Blimey!

华语

本人特此致函的目的是要反映本人快要死的情况。为了想在"o"水准考到好成绩，本人现在已经开始拼命读华语。希望你能理解我为什么这几天无法博客。本人知道自己的华语不标准，但如果你读到这里，还能理解我在说的话，那我佩服你了。要持之以恒，坚持下去！不能放弃！我该停笔了，再见！ 祝学业进步this is obviously a mixture of 私函 and 公函。it makes me feel like I'm an expert at both. And btw I'm like in the middle of a comprehension and I got so sick of doing it I've decided to blog on my iPhone.Actually the whole reason why I'm out studying is so that I wouldn't get distracted by the computer at home. But since there's wireless@sg... This is just screwed. Bye! ㅋㅋㅋ now there's Korean!!! :-)

Chinese

 

Darkness, darkness, everywhere
Do you feel alone
The subtle grace of gravity
The heavy weight of stone

 

I am blogging instead of studying for Chinese O's which i have been constantly procrastinating and putting off. After the very long day, i am slightly incoherent so it would be nice if i was excused.

Anyway, i feel like a person with no life. Is that how sec4s are supposed to feel? I have no idea. I just feel like a complete loser who hasn't been out. And all i think about is studying but i don't seem to get down to it. How infuriating. I wanna watch back up plan! BUT CHINESE O'S ARE LIKE.... LESS THAN A WEEK AND A FEW DAYS AWAY............

Nvm. The point is, (of this post), MUSIC BANK TODAY WAS LIVE. LIKE LIVE LIKE HAHAHAHAHA. And when suju won, eunhyuk hugged donghae first therefore = eunhae :) They should get married. And adopt. Or something. Talking about eunhae gives me endorphins :)

And they both have twitter accounts! *squeals and dies*

I realised i've started 3 sentences above with "And". What has become of my command of english? Haha it has been replaced by Chinese and small amount of tiny traces of Korean :)

This post doesn't make sense. See, incoherent. FUCK YOU, THICK SKINNED PIECE OF SHIT. ROTT IN ETERNAL HELL.

NU ABO

 

Your words don't even make sense
Just turn around
It hurts me too much
I don't want to see you anymore

 

So i survived with my horrible face. Yay. Alongside tears and everything else unpleasant, that is. Myes ended on... Wednesday. And Thursday was the start of living hell chinese intensive. It's so bad sometimes i feel like i'm in china.

Then Robin Hood was............................. (i can distinctively hear myself repeat "I am Robin of the Hood" now in my brain) Okay it's nice partly because of the victorian times context and the other part owed to Queen Isabella who's uncle is the king of spain (yes i got that much from the movie). Plus you can't miss out the epic "Rise and rise again. Lambs become lions" smth like that catch phrase.

It was nice overall :)

I actually took an hour and 45 minutes to come up with the above post. Of course somewhere in the middle i was watching nu abo and bonomana and without u, but other than all this, i have nothing left to say.

Suprise. (You are gross)

To my face

 

To my face:

The above picture is especially for you! To thank you for being the best face ever, you are rewarded with 3 old buggers pointing middles at you :) Yes, thank you for giving me a really nice childhood where i could do anything and not be conscious of my face. Or what's on my face rather.

The number of white blood cells in the blood coursing through my face scares me. It's like a never ending supply. Regardless, you've made my parents pay more than $2000 worth of bills. For that, i truly thank you for boosting singapore's economy and letting good-for nothing dermatologists profit from trying to "cure" you.

Which is impossible and i know this because you are my face.

Here's to the many years we have left to spend together. I wish everyone was faceless, skinless i wish you'd just go away. But no. We all just haaaave to have skin. What so good about skin. Seriously. I HATE YOU FACE I HATE YOU.

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Reeeality

 

Friends come, friends go

 

After much consideration- believe me when i say much, I have decided to throw that whole part of my life away. I'm done with it. Done harping, done brooding, done thinking about it. From now onwards, from this very moment, this instant, i do not know you.

I did not know you, have never known you, do not wish you know you.

Maybe we'll meet again someday. Like, years down the road. Believe me i'll extend my hand and shake yours and we'll start afresh. But for now, it's over. I'm sorry. We're through straight down to the very first day we met, the very first time i saw you.

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Well. This is painful.

Cross my heart, hope to die, i swear i won't say what happened that night

 

How could i, of all people, chastise someone for their past? 

 

And while everyone was revising trig ratios and sets and mensuration and ohmyGod sec1work, I was busy baking cookes. Batch after batch :) Hehe it's destined that i'll fail emath tomorrow and the following papers. Ahhhhhhhhhhh what the shitting hell is an angle bisector like seriously did we learn that in sec1?! Did sec1 even exist?! Oh no.

On another note, my mind keeps wondering off to the restricted zone. The small corner in my mind barricated with you know, yellow strips of paper labelled "crime scene do not cross" or smth like that. Just that in this case it's just plainly labelled "memories isabel never wants to remember". Yeeeeeah. Notice the absolute term 'never', repeat the absolute term and hence comprehend it. GP helps i guess?

Okay, back to tomorrow's paper. It's.......... 10:39 now. It's still early! I shall dig up my emath bible............. and....... read it! Yes awsm plan.

My brother and i have same watches. His is blue and mine is neon pink. That's not supposed to be blog-worthy. The blog-worthy fact about them, that'll make you gasp is that- they are effing 10 bucks. DAMN FREAKING CHEAP RIGHT (!!!) Hahahahaha yay! I'm now at a life stage where i embrace cheapo stuffs. :D

Oh, and there's this article in Life! section today bout junsu and junho's concert in the compass ballroom. (I hate the compass ballroom i literally died there waiting for BLG to miraculously appear). Aaaaaaaand anyway, the reporter kept stressing the fact that junsu recieved more cheers and screams than his brother. I mean like DUH he's junSU. Note, SU and not HO, biiiiig difference.

I'm beginning to worry for emath i shall go save my sorry ass now.

Ps: I'm beginning to cherish people that i can have comfortable silence with. There isn't many. I won't even use all my fingers on one hand to count them. 

Just smile :)

 

For you, a thousand times over

So Saturday Morning finds me sipping tea in front of the com (what else) pondering over the fact that i haven't moved much of my ass to get down to studying. It's amazing i didn't blog for a week. :O Even i was shocked at myself.

And for the record, i'm still normal. I'm not bipolar. Yet.

Though ss/lit was on Friday, Thursday night was an early night for me. Don't know why my body exerts this pulling force that makes me gravitate towards the bed. Plop and i'm out like a light.

Mye music prac was on Wed. Music practicals make me freak out a little more than usual. But ohmyGod i survived, I'M STILL ALIVE :O hehe.

Ohhhhh i went to stickys ytd! And bought a jar of lychee pillows. I expected myself to grab the strawberry ones but the lychee sweets were too nice :)

Okay, i think everyone's studying now................................ i should be studying too................. and i will study now.....................................

I want to read The Kite Runner and watch The Lovely Bones, ahhhh no time :(