Friday, August 29, 2008

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Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.








on a lighter note,
i think you've made your decision,
but i haven't.








hugs and kisses
Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.








on a lighter note,
i think you've made your decision,
but i haven't.








hugs and kisses

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And yesterday night i had a dream,
it puts "You had me at hello" into new perspective.






I hate the ending myself,
but it started with an alright scene.







Today,
i lost it,
i let go,
i gave up.


funny right,
the bel you know won't give up,
if its something she really really wants.







i guess you're not something i really really want.




i was always deluding myself right?


And yesterday night i had a dream,
it puts "You had me at hello" into new perspective.






I hate the ending myself,
but it started with an alright scene.







Today,
i lost it,
i let go,
i gave up.


funny right,
the bel you know won't give up,
if its something she really really wants.







i guess you're not something i really really want.




i was always deluding myself right?


Thursday, August 28, 2008

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today,
droned on and on and
on.
held it all in,
pushed myself,
not yet to my limit,
yet fearing it.
bitter,
sweet,
bittersweet.
ironic, no?
shows
how much i just can't let you go.
no,
i watched it rain,
saw the lightning,
heard the thunder,
oh the sky,
i wonder what the sky felt.
so vast,
so wide,
without a doubt,
so amazingly beautiful at times.
yet depressingly,
i don't know.
if i let go,
there's just no one,
who catch me like you do,
you are my only, my only
one

today,
droned on and on and
on.
held it all in,
pushed myself,
not yet to my limit,
yet fearing it.
bitter,
sweet,
bittersweet.
ironic, no?
shows
how much i just can't let you go.
no,
i watched it rain,
saw the lightning,
heard the thunder,
oh the sky,
i wonder what the sky felt.
so vast,
so wide,
without a doubt,
so amazingly beautiful at times.
yet depressingly,
i don't know.
if i let go,
there's just no one,
who catch me like you do,
you are my only, my only
one

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

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today,
today,
today.



today was the last time i walked from
suntec to city hall.
drums were halted, just for this period,

on the way,
i saw this
pencilcase.

i stopped, i stared.
well, i was so overwhelmed with thoughts.
should i buy? should i not?
will it even be put to use?


with all my might,
i don't even know whether it was my
brain,
or my heart,

that willed me to get out of the shop.


5 steps - and i was out,
my eyes.. brimming? with tears.

yeah, i know, just a pencil case.

'walk, bel, just walk' ,
i told myself.


i forced my brain to its limits,
set my heart on fire,

continued to walk further, and further away,
from the shop.







btw, i never said i was buying the pencil case for myself.






muah?
nah.




hugs and kisses,
no.


today,
today,
today.



today was the last time i walked from
suntec to city hall.
drums were halted, just for this period,

on the way,
i saw this
pencilcase.

i stopped, i stared.
well, i was so overwhelmed with thoughts.
should i buy? should i not?
will it even be put to use?


with all my might,
i don't even know whether it was my
brain,
or my heart,

that willed me to get out of the shop.


5 steps - and i was out,
my eyes.. brimming? with tears.

yeah, i know, just a pencil case.

'walk, bel, just walk' ,
i told myself.


i forced my brain to its limits,
set my heart on fire,

continued to walk further, and further away,
from the shop.







btw, i never said i was buying the pencil case for myself.






muah?
nah.




hugs and kisses,
no.


Sunday, August 24, 2008

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Say you love me every waking moment,
turn my head with talk of summertime...
Say you need me with you now and always...
Promise me that all you say is true
that's all I ask of you


All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night
and you, always beside me, to hold me and to hide me...


Love me - that's all I ask of you
Anywhere you go let me go too
Love me - that's all I ask of you...




ho hum,
ho hum ho hum ho hum.



ly,
love me, that's all i ask of you.







loves and misses,
hugs and kisses
Say you love me every waking moment,
turn my head with talk of summertime...
Say you need me with you now and always...
Promise me that all you say is true
that's all I ask of you


All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night
and you, always beside me, to hold me and to hide me...


Love me - that's all I ask of you
Anywhere you go let me go too
Love me - that's all I ask of you...




ho hum,
ho hum ho hum ho hum.



ly,
love me, that's all i ask of you.







loves and misses,
hugs and kisses

Saturday, August 23, 2008

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ho hum,
<3
today is so very cold,
was, so very cold.
its coming to an end,
today.
day after day, after day.
all over again,
all over my pain.
as i watched the rain,
there was no gain.
ho hum,
its time to tell you.
hugs and kisses

ho hum,
<3
today is so very cold,
was, so very cold.
its coming to an end,
today.
day after day, after day.
all over again,
all over my pain.
as i watched the rain,
there was no gain.
ho hum,
its time to tell you.
hugs and kisses

Thursday, August 21, 2008

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HO HUMM <33


okay lets see, about 30 minutes ago,
i was in the car.


woah.



okay then suddenly it stopped.
stalled.
stationed.


wohoooo.
so in the car, it was like super silent,
and my dad was trying to restart the engine,
while my bro and mother were for once, at a loss of words.



hahahahhahaha and IRONICALLY,
the stupid car died right outside the petrol station.
(caltex, i remember :D)


wait, its outside,
not inside.


so, i amusingly watch my family push the car into the petrol station,
while i was just pretending to be a un-helpful passer-by, standing at the side walk,
staring at them hahahahaha :D


oh oh oh,
and 2 indian guys went to help them!
i shall refrain from using the B word.



okay so now i officially declare,
i am not racist.


hahahahahaha wait,
i never was to begin with.





2nd post of the night,

it's not that bright,
still, i'm so right,
you went away and i lost my light.




ho hum!











hugs and kissess
HO HUMM <33


okay lets see, about 30 minutes ago,
i was in the car.


woah.



okay then suddenly it stopped.
stalled.
stationed.


wohoooo.
so in the car, it was like super silent,
and my dad was trying to restart the engine,
while my bro and mother were for once, at a loss of words.



hahahahhahaha and IRONICALLY,
the stupid car died right outside the petrol station.
(caltex, i remember :D)


wait, its outside,
not inside.


so, i amusingly watch my family push the car into the petrol station,
while i was just pretending to be a un-helpful passer-by, standing at the side walk,
staring at them hahahahaha :D


oh oh oh,
and 2 indian guys went to help them!
i shall refrain from using the B word.



okay so now i officially declare,
i am not racist.


hahahahahaha wait,
i never was to begin with.





2nd post of the night,

it's not that bright,
still, i'm so right,
you went away and i lost my light.




ho hum!











hugs and kissess

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hey now, hey now, hey now, hey now,
ya-a-ow.


HO HUM <3
this emo post is just for bindhu unnniiiiiiiiii,
aka, bin bin.






Where, where are the stars?
The one that we used to call ours
Can't imagine it now
We used to laugh 'til we fell down.

The secrets we had, are now in the past
From something to nothing, tell me.

How did we lose our way?
It's hard to remember
All that we shared

Now we both have separate lives
From lovers to strangers, now alone
There's no one catching my fall
No one to hear my call

It's like I never loved you at all.



Now you're so far away
And I see our star is fading
One too many times
Guess it just got tired of waiting round.

The nights that we thought,
if these walls could talk
From something to nothing..





okay end of emo post.
ho hummmm :D


hahahaha okay i have to hiatus
for like, a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time.



blame my father.
hah.


ho hum,
ily.





hugs and kisses
hey now, hey now, hey now, hey now,
ya-a-ow.


HO HUM <3
this emo post is just for bindhu unnniiiiiiiiii,
aka, bin bin.






Where, where are the stars?
The one that we used to call ours
Can't imagine it now
We used to laugh 'til we fell down.

The secrets we had, are now in the past
From something to nothing, tell me.

How did we lose our way?
It's hard to remember
All that we shared

Now we both have separate lives
From lovers to strangers, now alone
There's no one catching my fall
No one to hear my call

It's like I never loved you at all.



Now you're so far away
And I see our star is fading
One too many times
Guess it just got tired of waiting round.

The nights that we thought,
if these walls could talk
From something to nothing..





okay end of emo post.
ho hummmm :D


hahahaha okay i have to hiatus
for like, a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time.



blame my father.
hah.


ho hum,
ily.





hugs and kisses

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

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On the outisde.
I'm trying.
'Cause inside.
I'm dying.

This broken heart was stronger then.
Now I cant stand to part with this.
This broken heart.




you know what,
its time to gather back all my Heaven-Buddies.
i forgot who's which,
but i can remember.. a few though.


its time to make new ones!
do you wanna be my Heaven Buddy?
hahahahaha we can..
we can..

we can go jamming in Heaven!
we can go shopping in Heaven!
hahahaha and and and
if you become my Heaven Buddy,

i'd book a date and we can go watch a movie
or go to the beach..



if there is a beach in Heaven.



hahahahahahaha
i sound so despo for a Heaven Buddy.

actually i've got a few alr.
but i want more :D



we all always want moooooooore!



ho-hummmmmmm.

oh oh oh wanna know something?


my teacher called my mother.
HAAHAHAHAHAHHAHA FUNNY RIGHT.



its okay if you don't get the joke :D
cuz you're just dumb :D


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.





ho hummmm ((:






hugs and kisses!



MUAKS HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

YOU JUST GOT KISSED BY BEL




HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA










MUAKS!





AND AGAIN :D






hugs and kisses
On the outisde.
I'm trying.
'Cause inside.
I'm dying.

This broken heart was stronger then.
Now I cant stand to part with this.
This broken heart.




you know what,
its time to gather back all my Heaven-Buddies.
i forgot who's which,
but i can remember.. a few though.


its time to make new ones!
do you wanna be my Heaven Buddy?
hahahahaha we can..
we can..

we can go jamming in Heaven!
we can go shopping in Heaven!
hahahaha and and and
if you become my Heaven Buddy,

i'd book a date and we can go watch a movie
or go to the beach..



if there is a beach in Heaven.



hahahahahahaha
i sound so despo for a Heaven Buddy.

actually i've got a few alr.
but i want more :D



we all always want moooooooore!



ho-hummmmmmm.

oh oh oh wanna know something?


my teacher called my mother.
HAAHAHAHAHAHHAHA FUNNY RIGHT.



its okay if you don't get the joke :D
cuz you're just dumb :D


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.





ho hummmm ((:






hugs and kisses!



MUAKS HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

YOU JUST GOT KISSED BY BEL




HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA










MUAKS!





AND AGAIN :D






hugs and kisses

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

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hello(:

i had a lot of things to say.
but now i'm pretty much speechless.


oys i'm ruining the mood of my update.




OKAY I SHALL TALK ABOUT TODAY.

today is okay,
today was okay,
whatever.



Dysphoric etymologically becomes euphoric,
you enrapture me.



sigh.
my blogging is failing,
i need another hiatus?
i need motivation, inspiration.



Its like i never loved you at all





hugs and kisses
hello(:

i had a lot of things to say.
but now i'm pretty much speechless.


oys i'm ruining the mood of my update.




OKAY I SHALL TALK ABOUT TODAY.

today is okay,
today was okay,
whatever.



Dysphoric etymologically becomes euphoric,
you enrapture me.



sigh.
my blogging is failing,
i need another hiatus?
i need motivation, inspiration.



Its like i never loved you at all





hugs and kisses

Saturday, August 16, 2008

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i feel that when i blog, i kinda blog alot,
and when i don't, i don't blog.

hahahahahaha,
anyway as i was saying,
MICHAEL PHELPS IS SO HOTTTTT AND AND AND
HE IS SO WHITE!


as in for a swimmer, i'd expect him to be..
tanner.


for the moment we will come,
alive,
tonight



baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, bbq on the way,
tonight.




big suprise,
i love you,
i think i really do.

i think.








do you love me too?





hugs and kisses
i feel that when i blog, i kinda blog alot,
and when i don't, i don't blog.

hahahahahaha,
anyway as i was saying,
MICHAEL PHELPS IS SO HOTTTTT AND AND AND
HE IS SO WHITE!


as in for a swimmer, i'd expect him to be..
tanner.


for the moment we will come,
alive,
tonight



baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, bbq on the way,
tonight.




big suprise,
i love you,
i think i really do.

i think.








do you love me too?





hugs and kisses

Friday, August 15, 2008

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back from my most successful hiatus-ing,
ever.


and besides, my moodswings have been getting more frequent,
keep yourself in check, bel.



oh oh oh did i mention,
I HAVE A NICE GRACEFUL BEAUTIFUL BLUE GUPPY!
NAMED BEL.


HAHAHAHAHAHAHA AND AND AND,





ITS A MALE.





when you think of the male name for bel,
let me know asap.


haha anyway its so much better than

mop-head,
gung-ho
or what, striker?!


haha and i declare my guppy is the most facinating thing in the whole,
green,
tank.



heh :D


enough guppy talk.




lets get on with life!
obviously CTs are over,
and EOYs are comming,


its so.. stressful :(
hahahaha and you know what?



i am going to camp on the beach with my loves,
stand and laugh under the POURING SUPER HEAVILY RAIN,
find the end of the rainbow,
catch a cloud,
go fishing,

watch the life of bel(guppy) and its offsprings with whoever it mates with,
name its offsprings!




oh oh oh and go swimming with *uhhh-hum*
to watch *uhhh-hum* swim like a bull in the china shop,
look at *uhhh-hum 2* and *uhhh-hum 3* in
swimming costumes..




haha so many things to do,
oh oh oh ONE MORE THING.



the day after EOYs,


































is my birthday.




















hinttttttttt!






hugs and kisses

back from my most successful hiatus-ing,
ever.


and besides, my moodswings have been getting more frequent,
keep yourself in check, bel.



oh oh oh did i mention,
I HAVE A NICE GRACEFUL BEAUTIFUL BLUE GUPPY!
NAMED BEL.


HAHAHAHAHAHAHA AND AND AND,





ITS A MALE.





when you think of the male name for bel,
let me know asap.


haha anyway its so much better than

mop-head,
gung-ho
or what, striker?!


haha and i declare my guppy is the most facinating thing in the whole,
green,
tank.



heh :D


enough guppy talk.




lets get on with life!
obviously CTs are over,
and EOYs are comming,


its so.. stressful :(
hahahaha and you know what?



i am going to camp on the beach with my loves,
stand and laugh under the POURING SUPER HEAVILY RAIN,
find the end of the rainbow,
catch a cloud,
go fishing,

watch the life of bel(guppy) and its offsprings with whoever it mates with,
name its offsprings!




oh oh oh and go swimming with *uhhh-hum*
to watch *uhhh-hum* swim like a bull in the china shop,
look at *uhhh-hum 2* and *uhhh-hum 3* in
swimming costumes..




haha so many things to do,
oh oh oh ONE MORE THING.



the day after EOYs,


































is my birthday.




















hinttttttttt!






hugs and kisses

Friday, August 08, 2008

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i am nowadays in a lame mood.
really, really oh so lame.
but i think it kinda really cheers me up!
<3 laughing.



anyway today was fun.
it was good.
something that cheered me up entirely,
esp the starbucks-study part.




oh,
its so easy to get into the
I LOVE SINGAPORE
spirit :D


makes me high,
makes me happy!
i'm getting happier most of the time,
taking one step at a time.


haha althought..
still..
i still..
i will always..


reminds me of how shan used to write in ppl's autograph book.



okay i'm off to study!
actually i don't need to cuz

I'M SO SMART,


:D
but i guess i'd feel really bored without studying.



but i'm not in a studying mood right now.
in fact,
all i wanna do is laze and laze.



i hate spheres
and hemi-spheres
and WHATEVER.


hate it.



okay goingggg :)



hugs and kisses
i am nowadays in a lame mood.
really, really oh so lame.
but i think it kinda really cheers me up!
<3 laughing.



anyway today was fun.
it was good.
something that cheered me up entirely,
esp the starbucks-study part.




oh,
its so easy to get into the
I LOVE SINGAPORE
spirit :D


makes me high,
makes me happy!
i'm getting happier most of the time,
taking one step at a time.


haha althought..
still..
i still..
i will always..


reminds me of how shan used to write in ppl's autograph book.



okay i'm off to study!
actually i don't need to cuz

I'M SO SMART,


:D
but i guess i'd feel really bored without studying.



but i'm not in a studying mood right now.
in fact,
all i wanna do is laze and laze.



i hate spheres
and hemi-spheres
and WHATEVER.


hate it.



okay goingggg :)



hugs and kisses

Monday, August 04, 2008

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tests,
expectations,
competitions.


oh its so terrific,
to expierence such Singapore spirit,
the kiasu get A1 spirit, no?

whatever la,
i just feel like dying.



i think i'm falling in love with pink buttons.
oh and today i went to the library,
found a big joke book,
and laughed my ass out, serious!


What do you do when you have a button stuck in your nose?




































































































you breate through the four holes :D



tests,
expectations,
competitions.


oh its so terrific,
to expierence such Singapore spirit,
the kiasu get A1 spirit, no?

whatever la,
i just feel like dying.



i think i'm falling in love with pink buttons.
oh and today i went to the library,
found a big joke book,
and laughed my ass out, serious!


What do you do when you have a button stuck in your nose?




































































































you breate through the four holes :D