*pauses*




okay its been long since i've last posted and no,
i'm not going to stop blogging.


so anyway, if you're wondering what's the pause for,
i actually had a whole lot to write.
and then when it came to this blogger page,
i simply spaced.

lets just think back bout today kay,
its been a long time since i've posted particularly bout a day.

i woke up late, cabbed to church. attended youth at 9. ended at 11. went to cluster, and then cell at 12, lunched with rents at cheryl's house, went for piano, came back home, decided not to go badminton, hogged com, ate dinner, and hogging com still.


wow. so boring.


so what can i do,
so what can i say,
to offer this heart, O God,
completely to you.



i was suppose to be looking at you with disdain,
but oh no, you were the one, who was looking at me funny.
it was never gonna end, was it?

and sometimes i think, how better would it have been if i didn't meet you.
time heals wounds? bullshit.



come back down to earth, bel,
and watch this misery unfold.