Rain, rain, go away

Okay i figured i haven't posted any decent readable understandable posts these few days and i think i should do so now. So, long rants or short phrases, get ready to read one of my ultra super naggy posts again. :)

Life has been treating me rather well, i guess. Or rather, God has been treating me rather well. My whole week has just been filled with thoughts of () and obviously i can't really concentrate on anything else. At least school now feels like an escape. From akward silences and expected reactions and lots and lots of thinking. I needed an escape and the week proved school to be a good one.

My results pretty much suck as usual. First F9s, E8s, D7s, you name it, i have it. It's v.irritating when they blame it on transition and all. But maybe then again, that is the cause. Idk and I don't care. I don't like change and that's that.

Did i mention it's been raining for the past whole week. Rain is.. good. Rain makes me feel nostalgic, lonely, rather sad actually. The thunder and lightning seemed to be pouring their sorrows together with me as i sat near the window with my usual cup of hot chocolate. The rain made me think, made me consider different things, made me remember what it was like to be naive and totally rid of hatred and unkindness. Whatever. Things have changed and people change along with it.

I'm so disgusted with myself. For hiding and underlying whatever that was true, i spinned a web of lies and contradicting truths to totally change my way of thinking. I'm sorry. I don't know if i () or not.

Wake up call, it's 415 in the afternoon now. It's a wet Saturday and it's still raining :(