NU ABO

 

Your words don't even make sense
Just turn around
It hurts me too much
I don't want to see you anymore

 

So i survived with my horrible face. Yay. Alongside tears and everything else unpleasant, that is. Myes ended on... Wednesday. And Thursday was the start of living hell chinese intensive. It's so bad sometimes i feel like i'm in china.

Then Robin Hood was............................. (i can distinctively hear myself repeat "I am Robin of the Hood" now in my brain) Okay it's nice partly because of the victorian times context and the other part owed to Queen Isabella who's uncle is the king of spain (yes i got that much from the movie). Plus you can't miss out the epic "Rise and rise again. Lambs become lions" smth like that catch phrase.

It was nice overall :)

I actually took an hour and 45 minutes to come up with the above post. Of course somewhere in the middle i was watching nu abo and bonomana and without u, but other than all this, i have nothing left to say.

Suprise. (You are gross)

To my face

 

To my face:

The above picture is especially for you! To thank you for being the best face ever, you are rewarded with 3 old buggers pointing middles at you :) Yes, thank you for giving me a really nice childhood where i could do anything and not be conscious of my face. Or what's on my face rather.

The number of white blood cells in the blood coursing through my face scares me. It's like a never ending supply. Regardless, you've made my parents pay more than $2000 worth of bills. For that, i truly thank you for boosting singapore's economy and letting good-for nothing dermatologists profit from trying to "cure" you.

Which is impossible and i know this because you are my face.

Here's to the many years we have left to spend together. I wish everyone was faceless, skinless i wish you'd just go away. But no. We all just haaaave to have skin. What so good about skin. Seriously. I HATE YOU FACE I HATE YOU.

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Reeeality

 

Friends come, friends go

 

After much consideration- believe me when i say much, I have decided to throw that whole part of my life away. I'm done with it. Done harping, done brooding, done thinking about it. From now onwards, from this very moment, this instant, i do not know you.

I did not know you, have never known you, do not wish you know you.

Maybe we'll meet again someday. Like, years down the road. Believe me i'll extend my hand and shake yours and we'll start afresh. But for now, it's over. I'm sorry. We're through straight down to the very first day we met, the very first time i saw you.

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Well. This is painful.

Cross my heart, hope to die, i swear i won't say what happened that night

 

How could i, of all people, chastise someone for their past? 

 

And while everyone was revising trig ratios and sets and mensuration and ohmyGod sec1work, I was busy baking cookes. Batch after batch :) Hehe it's destined that i'll fail emath tomorrow and the following papers. Ahhhhhhhhhhh what the shitting hell is an angle bisector like seriously did we learn that in sec1?! Did sec1 even exist?! Oh no.

On another note, my mind keeps wondering off to the restricted zone. The small corner in my mind barricated with you know, yellow strips of paper labelled "crime scene do not cross" or smth like that. Just that in this case it's just plainly labelled "memories isabel never wants to remember". Yeeeeeah. Notice the absolute term 'never', repeat the absolute term and hence comprehend it. GP helps i guess?

Okay, back to tomorrow's paper. It's.......... 10:39 now. It's still early! I shall dig up my emath bible............. and....... read it! Yes awsm plan.

My brother and i have same watches. His is blue and mine is neon pink. That's not supposed to be blog-worthy. The blog-worthy fact about them, that'll make you gasp is that- they are effing 10 bucks. DAMN FREAKING CHEAP RIGHT (!!!) Hahahahaha yay! I'm now at a life stage where i embrace cheapo stuffs. :D

Oh, and there's this article in Life! section today bout junsu and junho's concert in the compass ballroom. (I hate the compass ballroom i literally died there waiting for BLG to miraculously appear). Aaaaaaaand anyway, the reporter kept stressing the fact that junsu recieved more cheers and screams than his brother. I mean like DUH he's junSU. Note, SU and not HO, biiiiig difference.

I'm beginning to worry for emath i shall go save my sorry ass now.

Ps: I'm beginning to cherish people that i can have comfortable silence with. There isn't many. I won't even use all my fingers on one hand to count them. 

Just smile :)

 

For you, a thousand times over

So Saturday Morning finds me sipping tea in front of the com (what else) pondering over the fact that i haven't moved much of my ass to get down to studying. It's amazing i didn't blog for a week. :O Even i was shocked at myself.

And for the record, i'm still normal. I'm not bipolar. Yet.

Though ss/lit was on Friday, Thursday night was an early night for me. Don't know why my body exerts this pulling force that makes me gravitate towards the bed. Plop and i'm out like a light.

Mye music prac was on Wed. Music practicals make me freak out a little more than usual. But ohmyGod i survived, I'M STILL ALIVE :O hehe.

Ohhhhh i went to stickys ytd! And bought a jar of lychee pillows. I expected myself to grab the strawberry ones but the lychee sweets were too nice :)

Okay, i think everyone's studying now................................ i should be studying too................. and i will study now.....................................

I want to read The Kite Runner and watch The Lovely Bones, ahhhh no time :(

BREATHE NOW BREATHE NOW

 

IF YOU DON'T TAKE IN BIG GULPS OF AIR NOW YOU'D PROBABLY REGRET IT FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE.

 JUNSU IS IN SINGAPORE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

:D :D :D :D :D

I WISH I KNEW EARLIER! THEN I'D HAVE BREATHED A LITTLE MORE OF THE AIR NOW :) AHHHHH I'M BREATHING SINGAPORE AIR JUNSU'S BREATHING SINGAPORE AIR WE ARE ALL BREATHING THE SAME AIR YAY :)

TODAY'S PAPERS SUCK. SO BE IT.

BREATHE!

Nothing on you

 

Listen- everything happens for a reason,
everything happens for a reason

 

Beautiful girls. all over the world, i could be chasing but my time would be wasted, they've got nothing on you baby, nothing on you.

Okay, marathon was today, band concert was on saturday and heartbeat was on friday. Where shall i start first? Or shall i delay the heartbeat and band concert posts and wait for photos to be uploaded on fb so i can upload them here? :)

Today's marathon was....... an epic failure for me hehehe. Whatever la, i finished my 2.4 and that's the only thing of any importance. Then i gained all my fats back by eating at macs. Oh but we laughed a lot hahaha while reminiscing 'Primary School Days' lol!

Sucker, primary school is long overrrr. Reality comes crashing back down and- oh look i'm wayyyyy behind time in studying for Myes. I just started on one random physics chapter on sunday night :( Pressure :( During the not-so-failure 3 hours studying marathon with sylvia. Which turned out to be 2 due to the stupid impossible game and whatever.

Anywayyyyy, there's school tomorrow. Omgomg when will this end?! Anyway, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, THEREFORE YOU SHOULD TOTALLY CLICK THE PLAY BUTTON BELOW TO SEE NICHKHUN RAPPING AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *FAINTS*

I'm gonna be okay, gonna be okay,
I'll be okay, gonna be okay,
Baby without you,
Baby without you.

Napfa

 

But things change. People change.
Change was one of the inevitable laws of nature,
exacting its toll on people’s lives.

 

Napfa was today. Napfa was okay. I managed an A for everything. Cept standing broad jump. (Obviously). Last year of sec school napfa. It feels fine :)

It's last everything. Last this, last that. Tomorrow marks the last handbell performance. It's bittersweet i guess. The only thing i really enjoyed bout practices were playing nice songs and all my loves who made hb pracs bearable! :) December 2009 was still the best. Hehe. I'll remember all the times we rushed back to school frantically tgth. And ikea. Hahahahaha.

I shall save the rest for the Goodbye Handbells post, hehe after CCA stand down i guess.

Today, singapore's epic weather revealed itself once more. It was hot like hell in the morning/afternoon and then there was thunder and a downpour in the evening. Wow. I do love my sunny island in the sun singapore.

Mmmm, what else. The days ahead are busy busy :( Mostly they're filled with non-stop violin pracs and.......... yeah. That's about it. I will eat violin sleep violin shit violin.

Haha, i never imagined sec4 would be so............. hectic. It's only gonna get worse. Okay. I shall finish Dear John now :) It bores me to death but i rented it so i may as well just try to read it. :)  

Hide every trace of sadness, although a tear may be ever so near

 

Smile though your heart is aching,
smile even though it's breaking

 

I'm sorry, i'm really sorry N. You know i'm not worth this, i'm not worth what you're giving me. I honestly don't think i deserve it from someone this special. I'd rather keep you as a friend, rather than something that's awful. Pick anyone else but me, i'll only bring you misery.

To another, hi. I'm just stumbled over some old photos and just like that, it hits me. Ohmygod i miss you. For reasons unbeknownst to me as to why i won't answer your texts like i used to, why i don't pull you in for a hug when i see you, or why i don't want to see you at all anymore, i really do miss you. With all my heart. Then again, i'd wonder, how could you leave me just like that? How could you?!

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I'm not a good enough person, not a good enough friend, not a good enough lover, not a good enough student. I'm not good enough. I'll never be good enough. Never.