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well then the sky opened up and starting pouring rain,
like it knew it was time to start things over again

 

It was too much at one go. Didn't have enough time to metally prepare myself. They were mixed with disappointment, discourage and worse- anger and despair. So i stacked everything up too quickly to stack it properly and thus everything came tumbling down.

It's times like this that i wish i never cared, so i wouldn't expect any care back in return. But i did care, and as selfish as it sounds, i hoped to recieve that same receprocation of care. I did recieve it, in the form of words. Meaningless words, i now know. In the form of actions, however, it never came, and it's not coming, and i wonder if it'll ever come.

Thinking about people that make me happy is enough to overrule any thoughts of you completely. I am thankful for that alone.