i hate that i can't hate you at all

10 things i hate about you:

10. i hate the fact that you keep entering my train of thought
9. i hate the fact that you have the ability to affect my heartbeat
8. i hate the fact that your smile has the ability to turn my whole day around
7. i hate the fact that because of you, i have to grapple with the fear of losing what little hope i have
6. i hate the fact that you make me lose whatever control i have over my feelings
5. i hate the fact that you are disrupting my daily life
4. i hate the fact that knowing you is very emotionally-draining
3. i hate the fact that i just can't seem to stop
2. i hate the fact that you just don't seem to care, and you don't take initiatives
1. but most of all, i hate the fact that no matter how hard i try, i just can't seem to hate you at all.

yes i cant hate you(:
you seem to make me smile when im angry(:

isabel