Omg i fucking know what happened. Some fucker hacked into my onsugar and privatized my fucking blog. So now the tagboard's gone, the description gone everything gone, followers gone, hahaha
FUCK YOU ONSUGAR :)
M finally moving again. Can't be bothered with this shit site anymore. Fuck you. I shall go search for better sites now. And when i do i'll post my last post here and get the fuck out of onsugar.
tastelikesugar.onsugar.com, bye.
I love you,
and I will love you until I die,
and if there is life after that,
I’ll love you then.
An attempt at a decent post. Hopefully when i press publish the post will BE PUBLISHED. So anyway, i was suppose to get a sushi treat later however :( how sad. My sad life. At home. *hint hint DEANNA*
Apparently i am to be studying now? Sorry not happening.
The font on macbook is really really nice. BYE COMPAQ NEVER GOING BACK TO YOU AGAIN :) I HAVE BEEN... APPLEFIED! According to celine. Inventor of that supposed supercool word.
Hahahaha i'm gonna get a polaroid soon and then i don't have to waste time uploading and printing stuff. Yay to 21st century, mother of new age technology.
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Are you following me?” she asks, but doesn’t meet my gaze.
“Yeah,” I say.
“Why?”
I give her the only honest and true answer I have. “You’re where I want to be.
-LEAVING PARADISE, SIMONE ELKELES
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I want to say somewhere: I’ve tried to be forgiving. And yet. There were times in my life, whole years, when anger got the better of me. Ugliness turned me inside out. There was a certain satisfaction in bitterness. I courted it. It was standing outside, and I invited it in.
At the time, my life just seemed too complete,
and maybe we have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves.
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FUCK YOU ONSUGAR, FUCK YOU.
WHEN ONSUGAR STOPS BEING SO BITCHY I WILL POST A DECENT POST. FOR NOW, URGH FUCK YOU ONSUGAR.
At times, I feel like the heart and mind play tricks on each other.
That just when you have got yourself convinced
with one that something is what you want,
the other steps in and makes you feel nothing but doubt.
P-p-p-prelims are over, like finally :) Time is passing by s-s-s-s-so fast :(
I am Dead. Beat. Oh my i realise like to say that hahahaahaha. I HAVE BEATEN MY RECORD. I HAVE OFFICIALLY SPENT MORE THAN 3 HOURS IN ORCHARD FOR 3 STRAIGHT DAYS IN A ROW. I spent 5 hours in the previous 2 days and 3 just now :)
Oh wait. Shall talk about stuff in chronological order.
So first, sushi buffet :) Was awfully full after the whole thing but hahaha it's sushi so i was happy :D we spent about 2 hours there with the STUPID FUCKING MANAGER (who doesn't deserve to be one in my honest opinion) and then we ate peas and disgusting ginger stuff soaked in soy sauce. It was nice :) :) Bonding time :) :)
Now i can add one more word to the list of words that remind people of me. At the top would be pink (obviously you can go jump off smth if you didn't know that) and the second one is now fuck :) Is that something to be proud of? idk. It just goes to show that when all you people are married and having sex in about 10 years time? You'll be thinking about me :D (gross)
Then i went shopping (not suprising) with sylvia (suprising) and we succeeded in getting everything i listed before we started shopping! It was quite fun actually! Hehehehe.
Lucifer is now playing on repeat :) Loverholic? Lovertronic? Isn't loverholic derived from alcoholic and lovertronic from electronic.... So they're drunk and they love gadgets?! Dont get it. Still nice though :) Hehehehe minho's rap is nice :) Key's hair is the best and i should shut up now before anyone clicks the x at the top right hand corner.
Wait i shall save the rest of my kpop rant for the last part of the post so anti-kpop people can just skip it easily.
Apparently after all the prep talks my school has given me, i'm suppose to feel xtremely motivated and ready to HINK EEL AND CT (think feel and act) HOWEVER, don't see that happening sorry. :( This is depressing, i'm going to fail o's (look i'm sewing seeds or wtv)
I'm sure i'll be motivated soon enough. Hopefully. Tomorrow........................ shopping! Again :D Then party @ joy's! Hehehe can't wait :)
Life is good for now.
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KPOP RANT STARTS HERE.
WHY CAN'T DBSK JUST GET BACK TGTH. WHY MUST CHANGMIN AND YUNHO BE ON THE PLANE ALONE :( WHY MUST BOA SIT IN BETWEEN THEM AND TAKE A PHOTO. SHE CAN'T EVER REPLACE THE LACK OF MEMBERS. WHY CAN'T DONGHAE AND EUNHYUK SHOW MORE FANSERVICE. WHY MUST SNSD BE THERE. At least key and jonghyun wore couple shirts (yay!) and i saw everyone using the 300$+ earpieces. Yes, i know you artists are very rich. (which is absurd if sm is really taking your money, so claimed my ex husband who refuses to make up with his other 2 band members or rather, lover and son) I am going crazy :(
SS3 :D
HI ONSUGAR IS BEING A BUGGER AGAIN :) :) :) I SHOULD LIST OUT ALL THE VULGAR/ REALLY DISGUSTING WORDS THAT START WITH B LIKE FOR INSTANCE, BUTT AND BOOBS AND WELL THE OTHER WORD FOR BOOBS.
HOWEVER, HOW EVER, HOWEVER, THERE ARE NICE WORDS THAT START WITH B TOO! LIKE FOR INSTANCE, BEL! AND BEAUTIFUL (BEAUTIFUL BEL) AND BOOKS AND BOOKS AND MORE BOOKS.
I need a decent book to read :(
Okay moving on, my weekend has been absolutely wundafuel! Hehe no wait, Friday was just as nice. Despite having to take 3 papers on Fri + handbell photoshoot (which was pretty funny in the end), i went out! Like finally like yay! Hahaha and bought myself 2 rings, totally contradicting my dislike for rings. But they cost me a bomb :( I don't regret buying them though :) (i never do)
Anyway, and then at about 10 we made our way from ion (it has this SMELL which i can smell once i step out of the train) to gardens and had supper there :) In this new dessert place where they were showing DREAM CONCERT (who cares i have the cd)
OHHHH AND WE TOOK MANY FUNNY VIDS USING SARAH'S CAMERA :D (okay maybe just me) i might post them up hehehehe.
Saturday was........................................... busy? Nothing much though :( Sunday (today) was busy busy busy as well.
Okay my weekends might not have been that great since i only liked Friday and it's not a weekend. Prelims are almost over! With the exception of physics p2. I have increased my love for physics and amath (not kidding) because unlike everything else, they actually MAKE SENSE. Who cares about the elements and how plants respire and WHO CARES ABOUT COUNTING WATER BILLS AND ALL THAT SHIT AND WHO CARES ABOUT VENICE (k it's quite nice but still).
English and lit were always my fav subs anyway.
GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHH I SOUND LIKE A GEEEEEEEEEEK LIKE A NERDDDDDD :( This is so sad.
Hahaha i shall end my mindless ugly post with no picture and no quote because onsugar chose to shit me.
Oh and i'm having second thoughts about forever. Not literally but the other meaning (selective sharing- only few wld understand) Maybe after o's?
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Forever.
It is necessary,
in this world,
to be made of
harder stuff than one’s environment.
An attempt at a decent post! Hehehe. (Onsugar isn't being a bitch anymore).
So.. the past few days have been hectic like hell. This week has been really terrible (my fingers are now itching to type 'T.T' but it's classified as a lian-ish emicon or smth like that) but anyway, i died. Like, i literally died (brain dead) and then i had to force it to start again then it died the next day then i forced it to start again and you know..... the repetitive cycle.
Oh, something new and interesting to brighten up my xtremely dull life- in 4A1, 2 rows/columns away from me, A BUNG COMMUNITY HAS FORMED! They consist of Captain Bung Deanna and her fellow bung mates- sylvia and bing LEAH. Oh and they have neighbours too- elzbth and bethanie (omg i just realised elizabeth w/o vowels looks really awsm).
Friends have kept me sane- i am tres thankful for that :)
On saturday, i had music! Aaaaaaaaaaaaand Mui Gek and i took pics in the lab! The last time i did that was like 2 years back and i still have the photos HAHA but anyway these are funnier and nicer :) Music make us insane.
I really really really wanna learn the celtic hammered dulcimer :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
Anyway, i will die tomorrow again since there's tripple papers to sit for.
Hi, i am very stressed now. I was suppose to devote 2 hours of my afternoon to music so that i can at least attain a decent pass tomorrow, unfortunately, i don't think so (i have no doubts) that a 50 is even possible.
I started by googling 'list of jiangnan sizhu instruments'. 45 minutes later, i was on to my 15th video of dbsk's holiday in saipan. The worst thing is, i'm starting to feel sad that they're not performing tgth anymomre! (The word "split" is taboo and forbidden)
I CANNOT STAND MYSELF. 100% am going to fail tomorrow.
It’s amazing that the heart makes no noise when it cracks.
In the beginning the Universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move.
Oh. Because onsugar is being an ABSOLUTE BITCH, i can't upload new pictures and thus i'm using my VERY FIRST picture uploaded when i just joined onsugar. Which is a year and 5 days ago :) Hehe. So my weekends have been shitty. I've been watching yog like crazy (esp the gymnastics) and i'm falling in love with ireland folksongs :)
Fb is like a memory portal. I was on the verge of swearing never to go back to fb again.
I will now drown myself in celtic woman. I like them, no. I love them. Bye.
If nature has made you for a giver, your hands are born open, and so is your heart;
and though there may be times when your hands are empty, your heart is always full,
and you can give things out of that—warm things, kind things, sweet things—help and comfort and laughter
—and sometimes gay, kind laughter is the best help of all.
-A Little Princess, Frances Hodgson Burnett
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I am feeling the need to do a little bit of soul searching. I am so sick of this. For some reason i think many of my posts have been titled 'tired'. Life tires me. The need to constantly keep my life in balance, the drastic mood changes (Yes i suffer from insanse mood swings and omg they swing a lot), haha i just don't know what else i'm expected to do; i don't know what to do anymore.
Apparently my only purpose right now in life is to study. How mundane, it's like instructing me to stand in fire and watch flames lick my skin and tear them apart- it's like watching my life dissolve in sulphuric acid (dibasic acid, chem has taught me well). I, am a person who literally fucking hates routine. To ask me to sit there and do math for 2 hours straight is like asking me to drown myself, in mud.
Still, at the end of the day, when it all boils down to one thing- i am to do it. I am forced and pushed and kicked to study. It's not like i do it willingly anyway. Most of the time i grit my teeth and mutter MY FAVOURITE WORD which i think you obviously know it starts with F and ends with K it's FIRETRUCK no just kidding.
Yes so maybe i should tell myself that studying, though it doesnt give me a life at this point of time, it will raise my standards of living in the future (i don't think about the future a lot i like to live in the present......... or the past) and I want to live, but i also want to live a certain Quality of Life.
So maybe................................ Korea? After O's? Anyone? :)
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There was no sun; there was no light. I was dying. I couldn't remember what the sky looked like.
But i didn't die. I was lost to a sea of cold, and then I was reborn into a world of warmth.
(That's from Shiver)
YAY i posted and then i refreshed the page and realised i've been on onsugar for ONE YEAR (and one day)
BUT OMG ONE YEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
(I was on blogger longer but WHO CARES) I'VE BEEN ON ONSUGAR FOR ONE YEAR YAY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Go on with what your heart tells you,
or you will lose all
To: All the people i've lost- be it this year, last year, or a few years back. I will never be able to completely forget any of you (No matter how hard i try and yes i try very hard sometimes). You can hate me for all i give a shit (which i don't by the way) but i'm just saying. Hahahaha okay those 3 sentences were uncalled for but i'm just going to say it anyway.
Okay all this fuss about prelims and o's are driving me nuts. I keep making to-do-lists for myself but i either lose them or they just keep adding up. It's not even a to-do-list anymore it's like a to-look-at-and-sigh-list. I now have 27 things on my to-look-at-and-sigh-list and half of them involve studying each of my 10 subjects :( I'm still proud to declare that rightttt at the top of my to-do-list is *GO TO KOREA*
Which i am going TO DO .................................. after my o's (this is usually the part where i make some really weird estrangled noise and find smth to jump off)
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i am quite happy w life now. Or more specifically i am quite happy with just this week. Come next week you'll see me hanging off a cliff or smth. KPOP IS KEEPING ME SANE (SADLY, YES IT'S TRUE) THOUGH I DON'T SOUND QUITE SANE NOW, BELIEVE ME, I AM.
Oh boyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy back to school tmr :(
There is everything you know
and there is everything that happens.
When the two do not line up,
you make a choice.
Hi, it's going to 1 now and i should be sleeping soon. It's quite an accomplishment for me to be awake now actually. Since i've cultivated a habit of sleeping at 10 (yes, seriously). HOWEVER, SUPER SHOW 3 WAS TODAY, IN SEOUL AND APPARENTLY, APPARENTLY, APPARENTLY LIKE OMG LIKE APPARENTLY,
EUNHYUK'S HEAD WAS UNDER DONGHAE'S PANTS AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I KNOW RIGHT AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH CANNOT BREATHE CANNOT BREATHE AND OMG NICHKHUN AND DONGHAE WERE IN THE SAME ENCLOSED SPACE LIKE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Ah now all i need is for dbsk to patch back and hold hands (esp yunjae) and be friends again and then i will be contented when i die.
Hahahaha okay now to better topics for the sake of non-kpop people (who are really missing out on the love of eunhae in my opinion), oral was. Unexpected. Like what makes me laugh? I don't know what makes me laugh! Stupid things makes me laugh idon'tknowwhatmakesmelaugh oh this is so horrible, just thinking about oral again. The picture was pretty tough as well.
BUT ANYWAY WHO WANTS TO TALK ABOUT ORAL WHEN THERE'S EUNHAE TO LIVE WITH AND BE HAPPY WITH LIKE OOOOOOOOOOOMG OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMG YES GO LISTEN TO USHER'S O.M.G OR BETTER STILL, GO LISTEN TO SOME SUJU SONG AND THINK OF EUNHAE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I'm sorry for this post, i truly am. BUT OMG EUNHAE EXISTS IT. IS. REAL. *STAMP OF AUTHENTICITY*
One shouldn't be too hard on oneself
when the object of one's affection
returns the favour with rather less enthusiasm
than one might have hoped
Ndp YAY WE ARE SINGAPORE, SINGAPOREANS. I hate it when people cut Singapore to S'pore, and then to spore, without the apostrophe. Hello, there is a need for the diacritic mark, if not we'll be going 'we are spore spore spore' and then they'd be like, 'spore? ..Fungi?', get the drift..? Yes i hope you do, and please learn from it o's (oral) is coming :(
Anyway, i know nobody is going to read this now since everyone's busy mugging for prelims, i am proud (as well as distressed, perplexed, worried, irked) to say that hey, i haven't started for prelims except one theme of SS! Aaaaand obviously i picked the easier theme- VENICE.
I have a pressing pressing pressing question on my mind that keeeeeps pressing me when i attempt to recite how Venice rose, peaked, and fell. LIKE WHY SHOULD I GIVE A SHIT ABOUT HOW VENICE GOT TOO COMPLACENT WITH THEIR AFFLUENT LIFESTYLE AND DECIDED NOT TO GIVE THEIR RAT'S ASS SHIT ABOUT THEIR TRADE ROUTES AND ALL THAT SHIT. I mean- Doge Pierto II Orseolo?? Doge ENRICO DANDALOLO~ They vaguely sound like lyrics to waka waka. My ass, not giving a shit bout this.
I would love to visit Venice though, before it drowns.
So, it's Monday. And prelims are.. less than a day away. I don't know what to make of Time anymore. Don't want it to get closer, but on the other hand i can't wait for it to be over and gone. Gone and over. Don't want to get any closer to Prelims; i'm in an uncomfortable enough proximity as it is. So help me God (OH LOOKEY HERE I JUST QUOTED BOB, EWELL!)
Yay now i shall attempt to self-evoke feelings for Tom Robinson and Boo Radley for they are poorly oppressed people of Maycomb Society, everbody go *awwwwh*
Haaaappy National Day Singapore! I am truly proud to be a Singaporean :) I'm proud to be a S'porean as well. Yes, even a Sporean, from Spore ooh look mushrooms :O :O :O
I am constantly feeling like i need everyone else, so much more, than they need me.
Then they'd ever need me.
(I came plummeting down)
(Because there was no one)
(To catch)
(Me)
And yet,
to say the truth,
reason and love keep little company together nowadays.
Yes that picture is an unfortunately very fail feeble attempt to cheer myself up. Though it cracks me up like shit. HAHA IF YOU DON'T GET IT IT'S OKAY YOU CAN COME ASK ME I WOULD LOVE TO TELL YOU WHY IT'S SO FUNNY.
Jaejoong <3 My first bias and will be forever remembered :) As the guy who got me hooked onto kpop, ASSHOLE! I feel like i'm eternally stuck in kpop quicksand okay. CAN'T GET OUT CAN'T GET OUT SINKING SINKING SINKING :( Thanks to kpop i'm even a fan of (can you believe it) gays aka eunhae but anyway,
this shall not get out of hand it shall not be a kpop post.
I am. So sick. Of waking up not looking forward to the day ahead. Of looking at every numerical indication of days prelims are due. Of having to create to-do-lists and schedules. Of always feeling like i have a MILLION OTHER BETTER THINGS TO DO THAN TO STUDY. Of wondering why the fuck i need to know elements in the periodic table. Of figuring out how binomial Theorem is going to help me in future.
At least, I've aquired Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol which makes me happy :)
Our story is over, though in its end lies its beginning.
With the succesful upload of that previous post, i need to say that ONSUGAR HAS BEEN A BITCH TO ME OVER THE WEEKENDS :( I made 2 full posts and everytime i click 'publish' it just brings me back to the home page. Once i even found myself logged into someone else's onsugar, bullshit omg.
Anyway, Saudade everyone, that is the word of the........................ well that is the word of the weekend! Has your weekend been like shit and filled with cougar town and meatball marinara sandwhiches from subway? Mine has!
Because i slept at 10, i am now up at 2. Oh, oh oh oh i need to say this, WHY DOES EVERYTHING ON MY TO-DO-LIST START WITH "FINISH ...." (?!) Do i unconsciously leave everything half done? I swear all 11 things on my TDL starts with finish. The worse part is, i haven't finished a single one of it even though i made the list on friday (it's monday morning now, the early early morning morning, yeah)
Yes you should click on the > button because if it wasn't nice i wouldn't be uploading it, sí? The lyrics are self-explanatory, beautiful per se.
Monday Blues. Monday Mundane Morbid Moody Mother. All the horrible M words. I can't stand Mondays i really can't i absolutely will not survive. (I will but i feel better saying i won't)
I need sleep.
Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favour fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
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I'm not suppose to say the F word. For like. As long as possible. Actually i kinda started like 2 days ago. But i failed on both counts. Therefore since today is a new day i suppose it wouldn't hurt to try again.
Lack of pictures lack of quotes. No, just kidding it's more like laziness.
Oh and i think i am pretty slow because i just started liking Mayday Parade (yes i know it's like an ancient mainstream song, whatever)
The amount of happiness that you have
depends on the amount of freedom
you have in your heart.
I freed my heart a little today. Let loose, laughed like there was no tomorrow. There could be a hundred other possible ways today could be re-lived. But i wouldn't re-live it, for the world. Today, was, in a long time coming, the best day ever. School, made me errupt into uncontrollable laughter. After that died down, i was filled with the sudden desire to turn the clock back just a few minutes, or a few hours, so that i could let myself go, again. When my mouth went back to it's normal shape, and life continued, my heart hung. But at least i enjoyed myself so much, it made me happy just thinking about it.
After school was equally awesome. Caught up with someone i extremely missed with all my heart, whom i haven't talked to in ages. When i say ages i mean like, light years. Hehehe i silently promised myself never to let anyone close to me drift away so easily. Lesson learnt, yes.
Hehehe bio spa is tomorrow. My happiness has faded away :(
Before i go find a corner to sulk in my house, here is a model picture of a 21st century student. Trilingual, yes. In time to come we will all be speaking in Tamil. You will be forced to expand your Tamil vocab and not limit it to 2 words like Muneru and Valiba.
Look how happy this student is, being proactive, keeping up with times, reading a tamil paper, not looking at all like one!
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Okay the only reason why i posted this was because of my helix piercing :D I mean, LOOK AT IT!
